It's not especially easy for me, okay? Spending the majority of your short life trying to protect yourself due to paranoia over being caught isn't exactly something you shed in a few perigees. I'm loud and abrasive to overcompensate. I know this, but it's not like I can stop myself until it's too late and I'm bashing my head over some hard surface, hoping that I will fucking learn but I never do.

So what I mean is... Sorry.