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I guess if you put it like that, it would probably be better to stick around.
[The Meadow.
Lancer wishes with all of his heart that Labrys had picked a different place to meet. Of course, meeting in a place like this makes sense since it's one of the few floors that has absolutely no danger to it--either mental or physical.
Except of course, it's also the floor where Lancer had just spent how long telling lies to the man he had dared to call his master. A man who didn't deserve to be lied to.
A man who had never known he was being lied to.
Lancer stops a moment before entering the floor and rubs at his eyes. He doesn't know if it's because this is the first experiment he's been through or what, but he's still having a very hard time shaking off the effects. He still finds himself thinking like over a thousand years has passed instead of just a week. And, yes, while a good deal of what he had first remembered upon waking is starting to fade, the events of the past week stubbornly refuse to be among those memories. It's as if the administrators want them to remember what they did that week, but not how they got there.
From all he's heard about them, that's probably the truth.
Lancer takes a deep breath and finally steps onto the floor. He might not realize it, but what little color that is in his face drains out as he does. Still, he continues forward until he's standing not far from Labrys. Once there he forces a hollow smile to his face and tries his best to greet her in a voice that says everything is okay.
He fails miserably.]
Hey, how are you doing? That was pretty rough, hu?
Lancer wishes with all of his heart that Labrys had picked a different place to meet. Of course, meeting in a place like this makes sense since it's one of the few floors that has absolutely no danger to it--either mental or physical.
Except of course, it's also the floor where Lancer had just spent how long telling lies to the man he had dared to call his master. A man who didn't deserve to be lied to.
A man who had never known he was being lied to.
Lancer stops a moment before entering the floor and rubs at his eyes. He doesn't know if it's because this is the first experiment he's been through or what, but he's still having a very hard time shaking off the effects. He still finds himself thinking like over a thousand years has passed instead of just a week. And, yes, while a good deal of what he had first remembered upon waking is starting to fade, the events of the past week stubbornly refuse to be among those memories. It's as if the administrators want them to remember what they did that week, but not how they got there.
From all he's heard about them, that's probably the truth.
Lancer takes a deep breath and finally steps onto the floor. He might not realize it, but what little color that is in his face drains out as he does. Still, he continues forward until he's standing not far from Labrys. Once there he forces a hollow smile to his face and tries his best to greet her in a voice that says everything is okay.
He fails miserably.]
Hey, how are you doing? That was pretty rough, hu?
Edited 2013-01-21 04:35 (UTC)
So you got through all that okay?
[now with the right journal...]
[now with the right journal...]
Mmhm.
[That mostly noncommittal sound being her only answer, Labrys stepped forward and put her arms around his shoulders. Most of what had happened was since in the same place she kept Hakuno's memories sealed, if not altogether deleted somehow. But she remembered enough, and enough was all it took to be worried about him.]
[That mostly noncommittal sound being her only answer, Labrys stepped forward and put her arms around his shoulders. Most of what had happened was since in the same place she kept Hakuno's memories sealed, if not altogether deleted somehow. But she remembered enough, and enough was all it took to be worried about him.]
Me too. It's kind of hard to say whether that was really terrible or not.
Sounds like a really smart decision. That's probably the best thing to do.
[Lancer returns the gesture letting his head rest against her shoulder for a moment. He can still remember them sitting in the music room, talking and her comforting him when he really needed it.
It might be weak, but he needs the comfort now too.]
I guess I understand now why they say the experiments in this place are so bad. I-I can hardly believe that person was really me. I'm so sorry if I did anything that upset you. I hurt so many people. I'm never going to be able to forgive myself...
It might be weak, but he needs the comfort now too.]
I guess I understand now why they say the experiments in this place are so bad. I-I can hardly believe that person was really me. I'm so sorry if I did anything that upset you. I hurt so many people. I'm never going to be able to forgive myself...
You didn't do nothin' wrong that I can remember. Even if ya did, I wouldn't be mad at ya. Just don't...don't...
[It was a stark contrast to her older self. That Labrys had been calm, certain of herself and all the words she spoke. She'd been an adult, when one got right down to it. The Labrys of the present had all of the confidence and nearly none of the rest--appearance aside she was still just a child with no real experience of the world around her.]
Don't turn into somethin' like that. Just...don't. You're too nice to end up like that.
[It was a stark contrast to her older self. That Labrys had been calm, certain of herself and all the words she spoke. She'd been an adult, when one got right down to it. The Labrys of the present had all of the confidence and nearly none of the rest--appearance aside she was still just a child with no real experience of the world around her.]
Don't turn into somethin' like that. Just...don't. You're too nice to end up like that.
[Lancer steps back from her and smiles. The smile is still pained, but it's better than his first one.]
I'm glad. I'm going to try very hard not to become like that. I don't want to ever be...that. I would rather be dead and back on the Throne than become that. And as long as the memories of that week and how it felt to be like that remain sharp, I don't think I will.
[Honestly, being selfish is the last thing that Lancer has to worry about. Now that he has seen where being selfish gets him, he has no intent on listening to those who had told him he needs to be more so.]
I'm glad. I'm going to try very hard not to become like that. I don't want to ever be...that. I would rather be dead and back on the Throne than become that. And as long as the memories of that week and how it felt to be like that remain sharp, I don't think I will.
[Honestly, being selfish is the last thing that Lancer has to worry about. Now that he has seen where being selfish gets him, he has no intent on listening to those who had told him he needs to be more so.]
[Labrys nodded in acknowledgement, hands fidgeting as she spoke.]
And, uh...listen, I'm sorry. If anythin' I said was weird, y'know?
And, uh...listen, I'm sorry. If anythin' I said was weird, y'know?
[Lancer gently covers her hands with his own to stop her nervous fidgeting.]
You said nothing wrong. As a matter of fact, you were probably the only good thing that happened to me the whole week. Even if I forget everything else about that time, I don't ever want to forget the time we spent in the music room talking. In all honesty, you might have saved me that night.
And...if you still want to, I would really like to find that something for us to learn together be it an instrument or just something from a book.
You said nothing wrong. As a matter of fact, you were probably the only good thing that happened to me the whole week. Even if I forget everything else about that time, I don't ever want to forget the time we spent in the music room talking. In all honesty, you might have saved me that night.
And...if you still want to, I would really like to find that something for us to learn together be it an instrument or just something from a book.
Huh? So y'...don't think any a' what I said was crazy?
[She blinked a few times, mouth hanging open slightly in surprise.]
I-I wouldn't mind it or nothin', if you'd really wanna do that.
[She blinked a few times, mouth hanging open slightly in surprise.]
I-I wouldn't mind it or nothin', if you'd really wanna do that.
No! Why would I? I was honored you were willing to share so much with me. Especially when I had been so horrid. I didn't deserve your kindness not when I took the easy way out and just gave up when you were brave enough to continue fighting to help others.
[Lancer shakes his head.]
I really would like to do that if it's not too selfish of me to ask it of you. I like spending time with you. You help remind me what I am fighting for and why I can't let myself fall.
[Lancer shakes his head.]
I really would like to do that if it's not too selfish of me to ask it of you. I like spending time with you. You help remind me what I am fighting for and why I can't let myself fall.
Lancer, I don't think y' could be totally selfish if someone paid ya to.
I'm not going to make long-term plans until it becomes an inevitability.
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