[ Gamzee please. Just stop being so nice to him, it just takes Tavros' self-loathing to a whole new level and its- ughh. But, it was kinda nice to have Gamzee this close to him again. It felt comforting, too. He was so terrified of losing what they had, so this simple gesture - regardless of how silly they look right now- meant a lot to him.
His eyes were barely open and he appeared content. It may have to do with the slight pressure on his horn and how good it felt, but the serenity didn't last for long. Not when Gamzee suggested that he should express himself again, and considering how well it went down a few minutes ago, Tavros is highly skeptical about this.
Still, he couldn't deny his brother a request, especially when he was trying to reach out to him. Should he lie, then? He's not sure if he can even do such a thing! This kid was far too honest for his own good, but if he expressed himself it will surely piss off the highblood again. Oh god, what to do?! ]
Uhhhhh-
[ He bites his lips. Nope. Showing uncertainty didn't go so well for him the last time. He'll just have to keep his mouth shut, consider his words very wisely before speaking again. But ... What should he say?? He couldn't talk about his stupid feelings again, and he couldn't talk about how worried he is because Gamzee is probably sick of hearing it. Should he talk about how fucking paranoid he is about leaving this place and the only thing Gamzee will remember is how he fucked things between them? ... Or maybe discuss about how he pathetically needed him right now?
Nope! So what can he say??? Ugh. ]
... I don't know.
I think I need to figure out what I truly want, before saying anything. I want a lot of things right now, and I need to be more reasonable and considering.
One thing for sure, brother, is I can't afford to lose you. I can ... handle you getting angry, just as long as we work it out and be bros again. I guess I-- depend on you more than I should, and I just want to be useful to you too.
[ He swallowed thickly, feeling somewhat ill. He didn't mean to sound that pathetic, and it's really embarrassing. ]
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His eyes were barely open and he appeared content. It may have to do with the slight pressure on his horn and how good it felt, but the serenity didn't last for long. Not when Gamzee suggested that he should express himself again, and considering how well it went down a few minutes ago, Tavros is highly skeptical about this.
Still, he couldn't deny his brother a request, especially when he was trying to reach out to him. Should he lie, then? He's not sure if he can even do such a thing! This kid was far too honest for his own good, but if he expressed himself it will surely piss off the highblood again. Oh god, what to do?! ]
Uhhhhh-
[ He bites his lips. Nope. Showing uncertainty didn't go so well for him the last time. He'll just have to keep his mouth shut, consider his words very wisely before speaking again. But ... What should he say?? He couldn't talk about his stupid feelings again, and he couldn't talk about how worried he is because Gamzee is probably sick of hearing it. Should he talk about how fucking paranoid he is about leaving this place and the only thing Gamzee will remember is how he fucked things between them? ... Or maybe discuss about how he pathetically needed him right now?
Nope! So what can he say??? Ugh. ]
... I don't know.
I think I need to figure out what I truly want, before saying anything. I want a lot of things right now, and I need to be more reasonable and considering.
One thing for sure, brother, is I can't afford to lose you. I can ... handle you getting angry, just as long as we work it out and be bros again. I guess I-- depend on you more than I should, and I just want to be useful to you too.
[ He swallowed thickly, feeling somewhat ill. He didn't mean to sound that pathetic, and it's really embarrassing. ]