[Diarmuid notices the strain in Kariya's smile. He says nothing of it, though, merely accepting it as a sign that the other man is having as hard a time with all of this as he is.

And this gives Diarmuid pause. Is it really right of him to assume Kariya will eventually act as his other masters have? He knows he's just a tool to help farther Kariya's cause. He doesn't expect to be more than that, but none of his other masters ever took the time to comfort him. None of them lowered themselves to his level and actually said that the mistakes were okay--said he has the chance to make up for them.

This is much more than just a simple "I forgive you."]

I'm sorry. You have just given me another chance and I already doubt you. I truly wonder if it is actually possible for me to be a knight again...

[Diarmuid takes a deep breath and reaches out to lay a hand on Kariya's shoulder.]

Are you content with just accepting me as a man if I cannot be a knight? I will still work to help you on your goal it's just that...as a man I doubt. I feel emotions that sometimes get in the way of doing what I need to do. I will understand if this isn't okay with you, but I have to know first. This is so important to you that I will not allow my failings to hold you back.