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[It takes a moment for Meiling to realize that the video was on but she doesn't look like she's all there right now. Both the video and someone going missing just hit her hard and she looks quite lost.]

What...What was...

I don't understand why.....Never mind. I'll just go to think.

[She then shakes her head and turns it off. She's going to stick around the terminal for a bit and then take off to the Graveyard floor to sit quietly]

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[ That reminds her-- ] ...Do you remember anything from when we all believed a lot of time had passed here, and... [ And they even got fake memories? Well. There's one thing they didn't account for in the tower. ] People came and left often. Sometimes with returns were of the same person, even after they got a grave. Perhaps the same will happen with our Lady.

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I do....But I'm not sure if I fully want that. If that means she's escaped the things we go through here...Maybe...

[She shakes her head. Again, she does not sound like she believe what she is saying. Although there is a bit of anger, aimed mostly at herself.]

As long as they don't use this against us..Ruana is in charge this month...I guess I should be thankful that if this is true she can't force me to do that to the Mistress again...

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[ She pauses. ]


...Pardon?

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....

[Meiling stops dead in her tracks and refuses to even look at Sakuya at this point. This was something she wished she culd keep quiet about but her words betrayed her]

This place can make you do un-speakable acts against people you care about...Please...don't make me say it...I know I failed but please...

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[ Her gaze is now cold. Sakuya hasn't been susceptible to having her will be taken over yet, but it's not as if she can't somewhat understand. ] You couldn't do anything at all against it?

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[All that she does is shake her head no and wrap her arms around herself and try to start heading up the stairs again. Anything to try and bring her thoughts away from that night. After a moment she will speak though]

Nothing. I was angry but fine next thing I know...I...I...and then I could control myself after it was over...Please...Be careful because if she wants, you won't have a choice. I just wish they would have killed me as well.

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[ What Meiling is suggesting is outrageous-- to even think about harming Remilia! Her next words would be harsh but...

they're here at the grave now. Instead, she continues to speak coldly. ] You won't have to worry about harming her any more.

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[Still has the same effect on her right now as she at least looks to Sakuya. She looks away sharply, as if she had been slapped but keeps anything she was about to stay silent. She just kneels at the grave and bows her head, hands folded in her lap.]

I will never forgive myself for that night, In control or not.

[In a quieter voice, she speaks to the headstone]

I know I've failed once more...I told you I'd protect you here and anywhere else...Forgive me Mistress...Remilia

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[ Sakuya tries to understand. Tries to put herself in Meiling's shoes. But it's all for naught, because harming her mistress in such a way is something she'd only dream about in years past, back when she was still hunting vampires. ] We must not let this happen again.

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I understand Sakuya-san...

[She isn't expecting anything at the moment, if at all. She's just going to be silent, staring at the grave. Not planning on leaving until her Security shift and even then, returning just to sit and guard.]

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[ It's a bit easier for Sakuya; she only has maid work to do, and that can be completed whenever. She'll be staying here for a little bit longer, of course, and then she'll leave. It's not Meiling, it just that... well, she can't think of her Mistress as dead. Doesn't want to. ]