015 ♑ [fifteenth honk] [video/text.]

[hystericull]

[Gamzee sits in front of the camera. He looks... different. Not just the obvious different that is the huge, stitched up gash across his forehead, either. He's been picking at the sutures there - they're loose and crooked, and the wound has started to reopen a little. All of that prodding and fussing has made the puckered skin around it burn a bright, angry purple - the same color as the bloody gunk seen between the gaps of the stitches.]

[Even though the video is on, he makes no effort to make eye contact, or address the network verbally. Instead, he just looks like he's concentrated on typing, looking down at the keyboard, then back up to the screen, but never moving his eyes up to the camera.]

dId you ever all get your motherfUcKiNg nOtIcE On.
of JUST HOW ALL FUCKIN SILENT THIS WHOLE MOTHERFUCKING PlAcE ReAlLy bE Up aNd At?
SoMeTiMe a BrOtHeR JuSt aLl gOtTa sHuT ThEm lOoKsTuBs and open all up to the noiseless noise his motherfuckin hear ducts.

[He laughs silently, rereading his text. He looks genuinely calm. For a moment. Then, his face falls, and he pecks away at the keyboard a little harder.]

MAYBE YOU ALL WEREN'T NEVER AT FUCKIN HEARING SUCH SHIT WHAT I ALL BE NOW MOST MOTHERFUCKIN BEREFT IN.
maybe you ain't wanna know what i all motherfuckin did.
MAYBE YOU WOULD UP AND BE THINKING I ALL DIDN'T HAVE NO MOTHER FUCKING CHOICE.
maybe i was all motherfuckin crazytown in the nuglug til the boss dude cut me the fuck open.
MAYBE THE MOTHER FUCKING SCREECHING TORE THE NOISE CANALS UP OUT MY MOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
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[As his text distorted, the video would show his face almost pained, twisted up in an expression of anger as his head jerked to the side. Once. Twice. Three times.]

G-g-ghghh... ughh-- F-F-F-F-Fuck--

Comments

[hystericull]

Never said a brother motherfuckin' was. Just all what's about there fucking being a curve.

[He's dumb and stubborn.]

Schoolfeeding's shitty and fuckin' overrated. Useless noise.

[terreifying]

[She cocks her head, curious.]

I never said anything about school. But if it's really not a learning curve, what type of curve is it?

[hystericull]

It is A FUCKIN' LEARNING C-C-C-C-- ARGH-H--

[OH, FOR FUCK'S SAKE. Gamzee's claws dig into the terminal as his upper body twitches violently. The attack ends with him coughing and sputtering, raising a hand to wipe the spit off of the screen.]

Ughh...hhh...

It be a motherfucking learning curve what all I ain't got much fuckin' interest in fucking climbing at.

Apparently also be fuckin' keen on turnin' a brother all up into some dank-ass Bumble Ball for gettin' his angries on.

[nottheonly]

...So you can't get angry? Is that it?

[hystericull]

It ain't nearly as motherfuckin' satisfying as what's it all was when I didn't have this motherfucking bitch on my forehead.

[He sighs.]

Can't even get up to being workin' myself into a good madness.

[terreifying]

Why would you wanna be mad?

[It was scary to be mad. Or, at least, madder than one usually was.]

[hystericull]

Better than bein' anything fuckin' else.

[He made a face, rolling his eyes somewhat before his face twitched again. Apparently displeasure was close enough to anger.]

[terreifying]

Is being sane painful or something?

[hystericull]

Didn't know the fuckin' opposite of bein' mad was all being motherfucking sane.

[terreifying]

It usually is.

[hystericull]

A'ight. I'll fuckin' give at you that one. But I guess I can't be all really motherfuckin' having no straight answer on that query, yo.

What you bein' considering "sane"?

[terreifying]

Well, they're not thinking of blood and guts and killing stuff all the time. And I don't think they want to be angry or insane, but I guess they'd still like the ability to get angry or go insane.

Oh, and they should like awesome stuff because it's awesome!

[hystericull]

Blood and guts and killin' stuff is motherfuckin' awesome, though.

...I think.

[He legitimately had to take a moment to ponder this. His fascination and affinity for gore and dismemberment were still in tact, but his bloodlust was... lacking lust. He sighed.]

I don't know.

[Was it possible to have more clarity and more confusion at the same time? Was that a thing that could happen?]

[terreifying]

Only sometimes. Never when they're coming out of innocent people, though.

[Monsters, however, are fair game.]

[hystericull]

You kidding!?

[He makes a face.]

That's all when it was up to be being the most motherfuckin' funsies.

[Ahhh, fond memories.]

[terreifying]

Nope. Hurting innocent people isn't just mad. It's eeeevil.

[hystericull]

Then I guess I'm just all to be some poor slob of an evil motherfuckin' bastard.

[He laughs, not taking this seriously at all.]

[terreifying]

Mm, I guess so.

[But he knows Eridan so he can't be that bad.]

But then heroes are gonna fight you and try to kill you.

[hystericull]

[He knows Eridan. He's slaughtered Eridan. Many times.]

Then they ain't bein' much better than me.

[terreifying]

You're not an innocent, though. There's a difference between killing good people and slaying monsters.