☿ // 008; [text]

[fionnuisce]

There is a concept in my world known as 'Second Magic'. The details of it are not common knowledge, nor is it widely used or explored at all by more than one individual. What is known is its definition in the broadest sense: 'the operation of parallel worlds'.

In short, parallel worlds where I come from are confirmed fact. And while I am not a scholar of Second Magic itself, now I find myself seriously considering the subject. Personally, I don't believe things are predetermined...and yet now I find myself wondering. Even if we restore everything to the way it was, what is the probability any of us live in a timeline that will end well? Mathematically, the odds are astronomical.

I don't know what I hoped to accomplish by communicating this. Maybe I'm so fucking tired I'm just going to ramble incoherently about magical theory until I officially go insane. Of course, maybe I already have gone insane. I might not be able to tell anymore.

On the slim chance anyone decides to come looking for me, I'll be in the laboratory. Exhaustion or not, I have work that needs to be done.

Comments

[fionnuisce]

For as many possibilities there are that lead to failure, there must be an equal or close to equal amount that don't. I see no positives to simply giving up, but even so...I find it difficult to be optimistic even if I expect to die sooner than most.

[crouching_sin]

Even if you die, that doesn't mean it's a failure. It simply means you try again - or the ones around you do.

[fionnuisce]

You do realize some of us aren't immortal and don't simply regenerate or whatever else, right?

[crouching_sin]

I've seen people remember things vaguely from reincarnation. Sometimes they aren't totally wiped clean. But in any case there's always someone to pick up where you left off.

[fionnuisce]

Unfortunately, the kind of things I needed to accomplish had something of a time limit.

[crouching_sin]

... I suppose that's trickier.

I'd wish you luck, but I suppose you need answers more than luck.

[fionnuisce]

They would be vastly preferable, yes.