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For those who want to know of my whereabouts:
I would appreciate it if you did not find me.
So far this month has proved extremely unpleasant, all thanks to that labyrinth game.
I also f33l that I have become very unstable, especially after having a horrible nightmare replaying in my mind.
I do not think I am safe enough to be around.
Therefore, I am isolating myself until I f33l I am strong enough.
I also pray that your nightmares were not as awful as mine was.

On a lighter note, does anybody know what Popplers and Slurm are?
I have no clue what those are but that was my last meal before I died, and it tasted really good.
Somebody help me figure this out!

[Filtered to [au3] Disciple, but has accidentally filtered to Signless as well.]

Hello!
I was very surprised to know that there was another like me, but it seems like you came just in time.
You s33...I had a vision where I failed to protect everyone I cared for.
This also included the Signless...
I failed so hard not saving any of them, that he was extremely disgusted with me.
So since you are me, I feel I can trust you to protect the others, while I disappear and train to get stronger.
I trust his protection in your hands, so please do this for me!
Thank you.

[For anybody curious, Disciple's Nightmare]

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You had best start praying that your hiding place is incredibly secure, for if I find you, I assure you that I intend to repay you for your actions quite generously...

I would like to know what you would have done if you were in my situation.
Because I have a f33ling you would have done the same damn thing.

You imply that I would ever let foolish sentiment ever have a hold upon my reasoning, Troll.

Ok, then undestand this:
You killed someone a group loved.
They killed you.
Thus we each took something from the other.

Look, I rather forget this whole exchange then let it evolve into an eventual tireless cycle of petty revenge.

Unfortunately, I am quite easily bored. And being trapped here is frustrating.

Working out my frustrations on those who have slighted me is good for alleviating my boredom, however.

Hope you're good at hide and seek, little troll.

How pathetic.
If you really are that petty and won't stay out of my way, then fine.
Have fun being constantly mauled, idiot.

Heh.

Even if you do manage it without your little friends from before, I will return.

I may not be able to be rid of you, pestersome troll, but I can make you wish you were rid of me.

Of course I will
He's just like the one I used to know. I would protect him even if you didn't ask.
But, you know he would never be disgusted with you.

Thank you!
I knew I could count on you!
But...he would have very good reasons for f33ling that way towards me.
After all, I k33p failing him so much.

You really f33l like you're failing him?
How?

I failed to protect him when they took him away to execute him.
I ran away after he was tortured and killed.
I was unable to save his poor mother and moirail after they got killed within the labyrinth.

It isn't my--our fault
We did the best we could.
To protect him. You got away at least. Don't you think he would be happy you lived? I'm sorry you had to live the rest of it alone. I'm sorry he died in your world...

And from. What I gathered about that horrible thing they had you doing
You couldn't protect everyone. I know we try to. I know we aim to.
But you're only one troll.

So your Signless was able to live in your world?
I am happy for you!
I am glad one of us has shown to be a proud protector!

...And you are right.
I cannot do everything, even though I try hard to.
I just want to make sure everyone I care for lives a happy life.
That is all I want.

Dont
I'm not a pro
He was saved by others. While I was thought to be dead.
It s33ms we both couldn't protect.
He lived because his followers saved him.

I know.
But it's not always possible is it?
You have to try your hardest and work with what you have
If you think isolation and training will help
Then you must and I will protect him in your stead
But you have to promise you'll try to s33 the difference.
The difference betw33n things you can help and things you cannot.

That is amazing!
Your hard work for peace has finally started coming through to them!
I'm glad to hear that, though it makes me curious as to why you were considered dead...

...no, no it isn't.
But I f33l I should become stronger combat wise.
I do not want another incident like this to happen again.
I do not want to let my teammates and friends down.
But I s33 what you mean about differences.
So I will try and focus on that aspect while I train.

I was shot by the Executor.
Were you not?
Perhaps that was the change.
If I was dead there would be no one to carry on his words and the thought pushed them to save him.

You know, you care so much and I think even that will make you stronger.
Faith and love makes you stronger than anything!
Just remember who you are protecting and, well, don't get carried away.

DI...
I COULD NEVER BE DISGUSTED WITH YOU.
PLEASE, DON'T DO THIS.
YOU DON'T HAVE TO WITHDRAW FROM EVERYONE WHO CARES ABOUT YOU.

Signless!
I...I did not want you to see this.
...But since you did, then I hope you heed my words and be with her more than me.
It's better this way.

NO IT'S NOT!
PLEASE, LOVE, SWEETHEART, DON'T DO THIS.
WHAT DO I HAVE TO DO?

...
If I explained the dream to you, will you understand why I have to stay away and train?
Because I don't want you to think I'm doing this to solely hurt you.

NO, I DOUBT I WILL UNDERSTAND OR AGREE, NO MATTER WHAT DREAM YOU HAD.
I'VE BEEN HAVING DREAMS, TOO, YOU KNOW. ABOUT LOSING YOU, ABOUT BETRAYING YOU ALL, ABOUT MY DREAM AND LIFE'S WORK BEING TWISTED INTO MADNESS AND A NEW KIND OF OPPRESSION.
BUT IT'S A DREAM, DEARHEART. JUST A DREAM.
I'M HERE FOR YOU IF YOU WANT TO SHARE YOUR DREAM, IF YOU WANT TO SHARE YOUR BURDEN, I'LL TAKE IT UP.
BUT NOTHING YOU SAY WILL MAKE ME ACCEPT LOSING YOU, OR MAKE ME FEEL THAT YOU'D BE BETTER OFF BEING ALONE WHILE YOU'RE HURTING.

What?!
You had nightmares too?
I thought it was just us competitors, not innocent bystanders!

And I guess I understand now that you put it that way.
I am just scared of losing you, and you having a horrible life.
I want you to have the best life possible, no matter what.

Dizzy? Joo okay gal? Joo sure joo don' be wantin' me ta at least keep ya company?

Lemme know if der be anyting I can be doin' for joo.

Disciple, whatever they made you see it was not true. It is a method of control for them.

You shouldn't isolate yourself. [Says the boy that did this every time something bad happened until Signless forced him to go to him and Psi instead, still Suzaku is nothing if not a hypocrite.]

It felt so real to me though!
I saw you in constant pain, within my dream and during the labyrinth.
It made me realize that no matter what reality I'm in, you will always be in pain thanks to me.

That is what they do, they make things feel real. They make you believe them but they aren't real and you have to believe that.

It's not your fault. Don't think that.

You do make sense Suzaku, and there was a reason you were the leader of our group.
I...just f33l like I should train myself harder.
That way for next time, we will stand a better chance against enemies.

Edited 2012-05-15 01:43 (UTC)

[He is still not sure he deserved to be the leader, leadership wasn't something he was trained for. But he understood what she was talking about, after all he had failed before... too many times.]

We should all train harder, we need to be stronger than them, and cleverer. To work out what they want, to defy them. But you don't have to withdraw, we can train together. After all we can't fight them alone, we need to know how each other fight, so we will stand a better chance against them.

You speak very wise words.
Especially about teamwork.
I have to admit, even though we failed at the end, I enjoyed our team's progress.
And I would not mind fighting alongside you again.

It was a battle we were never expected to win. Anyways it was probably best we fell when we did...

[Because of they had gotten further, if they had gotten to the end, they would have been forced to turn on each other by their captors.] I would be honoured to fight with you again, and to train with you, we can both get stronger.

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