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Hey.

[Lancer doesn't care that it's anon. His vision is blinking in and out. It's hard enough to type as is. And videos and voices were out of the question. He was coughing too hard to say anything coherent]

This is Lancer. I've got a confession to make. Haha. Confession. I'm in a Cathedral. Get it? Anyway, if you ran into a blonde girl in armor calling herself Ruler or Jeanne the last few days, it's probably me. If she flirted with you, then it was mostly likely me. If she made out or groped you, then it was definitely me. I got changed into her body and I've been there a couple of days now.

Forgive me, everyone, for doing such things to you.

Forgive me, Ruler, for my crime against you.

Forgive me, God, for Sinning.

Ruler, please be alright. Even if my form is a sinful one compared to your own, it would be best if you could live in it. You are a good person, an important one, and a better hero than I could ever be. I am sure that God will protect you.

[He feels like dying, and at this point, he can't tell which memories are his anymore. So he just wants to get this out while he still can.]

Can you...pray for me?

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Sin? I have no concept of the thing. Lancer, what has happened to you?

Memories...
There are memories that are not my own. Memories of a sinful and blasphemous life. I do not know why God saw fit to bestow them upon me, but I question not His judgement. Perhaps it is a way for me to realize the way I have strayed from Him. For some reason, these memories possessed me to commit mortal sins of Lust and Gluttony and Wrath.

Lancer...

I hadn't thought the divinity that nearly burned me would cause you to act this way. I should have snapped your neck, to save you from this idiocy. Do you not remember? Gods care not for us, the demi and the demonic. They use us.

[Leaning over the terminal, Lancer laughs and shakes her head, even though it hurts her chest and abdomen.]

God cares for all his creatures. He gives different purposes to each of them. Perhaps you do not yet know his way of caring for you, but he surely loves you.
He would have not sent me my mission to save France if he did not love me.
And even if you believe yourself to be a demon, it is not too late. It is never too late to return to his bosom.
Do you want me to pray for you as well?

Do you not remember the parentage I've spoken of? I've never been anything but a demon.

... your name. What is it?

Cu Chulainn
No, that is not my name
Jeanne Romee. It comes from my mother. She went to Rome once.
No, wait, Ruler.
Yes, Ruler.
My name is Ruler.
I think.

[Cu Chulainn. Jeanne Romee. Two names that meant nothing to her. But that last...]

You think. I believe something may be twisting your memories, as earlier you said you are Lancer.

Did I?

Yes. You did. Both while we were together and earlier in this very own conversation. Lancer, you do need to remove yourself from the Cathedral and find a way to regain your true body.

My true body
I do not know where she is
Or was it a he
Lancer was a boy, right?

I am not sure. If your memories seem to lean that way, I would think that to be true.

Does that mean all the memories of Ireland belonged to Lancer at some point?

[Even now, they're hazy in her mind.]

Or I used to be Lancer. Then why do I remember being Ruler?

That body may be giving you memories of who it used to belong to. It seems to yearn to return to the mind it's partnered with.

I am sure God will see to it that Lancer and I will come to some sort of resolution. This switch must be some sort of test.

[OH FOR THE-]

From what the angel has shown me in the time I've been bonded to her, divine loving beings do not test with harm. Only those of my demonic lineage do harm to devout followers of the divine.

Nothing evil can stand in the face of God. A mortal body is not all that there is to a human.
Demon you may claim to be, I do not think you act demonic. After all, it was I who first tempted you.

I have burned myself on the divinity that the angel is, and I have seen her perform great acts in her god's name. I am aware of what divinity is supposed to do, and the acts which my kind perform to lead your type astray. This is one such thing my kind would do, to harm the devout to lead them from the help the divine offer.

However... I rather am intrigued by Lancer, and thus wish to see the divine help you to see where this leads.

I wish I could speak to you as Lancer, but I have little idea what he would say.

Then regain your body as Lancer, and we can see what he would say to me.

I would need to wait for the Lord to supply me with the means.

Was there not one that claims to have figured out how? Can you not make your way there?

But he is a non-believer

And you would not take divine aid just because of the messenger?

How can a non-believer be a messenger of the divine?

How can a demon be seen by a devout as better than she is?

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