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[vestigialdream]

I heard about all the chaos the admins have caused. I hope everyone is all right. I would offer to help, but I cannot fight.

That being said, I have a question: is there anyone else here who cannot or will not communicate verbally?

Thank you for your time.

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[chainsawn]

I can understand it that some people can't talk, but why would someone not want to talk?

[vestigialdream]

[That's actually a really good question, and it gives Platina pause. Why would someone not want to talk? -- Why does she?]

Sometimes there doesn't seem to be a point in talking.

[chainsawn]

But talking is fun, isn't it? It means you're with someone else, and.. not being alone is the best feeling there is.

[vestigialdream]

[Not being alone...She remembers that, yeah.]

I think Master Belenus and Miss Ayaka were my friends. However, they died, and my voice could do nothing to help them.

I'm trying to overcome it now, but it's still easier to write.

[chainsawn]

[ .. Ah. She.. knows that feeling, really. People dying, being unable to help them.. ]

It doesn't matter what your voice couldn't help them, right? I think that means the rest of your body couldn't help them either, but you're still using that too.

[vestigialdream]

I had not thought of it that way. Still, if I had done something instead of just hiding, maybe

[But what could she have done against such a thing?]

That's how I think about it, anyway.

[chainsawn]

...

But it can't be changed anymore already, right?

[vestigialdream]

No, it can't. Especially with our worlds destroyed.

[It was still a terrible shock, though.]

[chainsawn]

You can't change it. You can dream about it, and try to change it that way, but.. there's no other way to change it anymore. It's the past..

[vestigialdream]

I know that, but I still have trouble speaking.

[chainsawn]

Maybe you should practice. Isn't that what people do when they can't do something and want to learn?

[vestigialdream]

Yes. I'm trying. I'm trying, but it isn't coming back as quickly as I thought it would.

[chainsawn]

It's really that difficult? I never could've imagined..

[vestigialdream]

For some reason, it is.

[...It's called being traumatized, Platina.]

[chainsawn]

Would having anyone else's help make it easier..?

[vestigialdream]

I do not know.

Thank you just the same for offering. Please don't be worried, I was just [...Huh. What was this...?]

I wanted to communicate with others, but I didn't want to misuse the network somehow, so I asked a question.

[chainsawn]

If you want to talk to someone, that's fine. I know the feeling. Being alone.. it's sad. It's a worse feeling than anything else in the world.

So if you ever want to talk, you can always talk to me.

I don't mind.