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[reversedestiny]

Why do we depend on others? And I don't mean for survival. I get that. Why... Do we need friends? Emotional attachment? I think I get it sometimes, but... I'm tired of being alone, but when I try to find people, that's how I almost always end up. A lot of people I've become close to have disappeared, and I only have a few I've known for a long time or been close to. I'm starting to wonder if emotional attachment is even worth it.

So really, why do we bring this hurt on ourselves?

[For those who want to seek out the boy, he's curled up in the library near the computers so he can check periodically. Otherwise, he'll only respond in text.]

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[justabignobody]

It's better to hurt than to feel nothing at all. And to treasure the times we spend in company and hold them close when they are gone, than to never have known any at all.

There is nothing worse than to suffer loneliness forever.

[At least that's what Riku thinks.]

[reversedestiny]

But I'm always left behind in the end. I'm not sure that's worth it. I'm tired of being left behind.

[justabignobody]

[...Being left behind, eh?]

Where are you right now?

[Because yeah, he refuses to discuss this any further over the network. It won't lead them anywhere.]

[reversedestiny]

Library.

[justabignobody]

Wait there for me.

[And about two minutes later, a Dark Corridor opens on the Library floor and Riku steps out, a troubled frown on his face.]

...Hey.

[reversedestiny]

Hey.

[Sora's moved to sit on the floor, back to a bookshelf. He's not really looking up, but he has acknowledged Riku.]

[justabignobody]

[Riku moves to stand right next to him, leaning back against that bookshelf, his arms crossing over his chest.]

...Do you want to talk about what's really bothering you?

[reversedestiny]

...A lot of people I was friends with are gone. ...I don't want to be alone again. I can't go through that all over. I don't... I don't want to be the only one left behind.

[Because that is his worst fear, reinforced by the words of a man he once called his father for much of his life. "Most wouldn't have taken in a boy wandering alone in darkness. Anyone else would have left you to the Heartless while fleeing for their own miserable lives." Those are words he'd heard often enough, to remind him to be grateful.]

[justabignobody]

[He keeps his eyes on Sora, frowning lightly as he tries his best to find a way to address this a bit more careful...

Ultimately the reply still ends up being blunt.]

You've been even longer here than me; I don't need to tell you that nobody has a choice in arriving here or being sent away again. Nobody has any intention of leaving anyone behind.

[This is just the facts. He knows that doesn't help the feeling of abandonment though... he knows it all too well.]

Look... you can... should mourn when a friend disappears. But I doubt that any of your friends would want that to cripple you.