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[reversedestiny]

Why do we depend on others? And I don't mean for survival. I get that. Why... Do we need friends? Emotional attachment? I think I get it sometimes, but... I'm tired of being alone, but when I try to find people, that's how I almost always end up. A lot of people I've become close to have disappeared, and I only have a few I've known for a long time or been close to. I'm starting to wonder if emotional attachment is even worth it.

So really, why do we bring this hurt on ourselves?

[For those who want to seek out the boy, he's curled up in the library near the computers so he can check periodically. Otherwise, he'll only respond in text.]

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[autopsic]

It is best to be alone, as you cannot hurt someone that way. Plus, you will only have yourself to look after.

I do not doubt the feeling is admirable, but I would rather carry on without the feeling of guilt.

Or what could have been.

[ Which is a big fat lie, but she'll humour the tower residents some. ]

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[reversedestiny]

I don't feel guilty because I don't think I've ever been the one to hurt someone.

But I'm always the one who gets left behind.

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[autopsic]

No matter how hard you try, you will always find one you have hurt.

How so?

Re: text

[reversedestiny]

I don't think I've hurt anyone like that.

They all leave and I'm the one who stays.

[text;]

[wegotlucky]

I relied on myself for a long, long time. Not trusting people, not wanting to get hurt.

Being alone sucks.

Friends are important. People you love are important.

When we lose those that we care about, when we are separated from them, even if it's for a hundred years, we cannot lose hope.

[text;]

[reversedestiny]

I've never had anyone but the Heartless. I didn't have friends growing up. Me and my dad lived in isolation. I know that people are supposed to be important, but what's the point if I'm just going to be left behind again and again and again?

[text;]

[wegotlucky]

You don't have friends here?

[text;]

[reversedestiny]

...Not many that're left. The rest have all left.

[text] I regret everything

[looselips]

bawwwwwwwww

[text]

[reversedestiny]

Thanks for the advice. It was great. Really.

[looselips]

I know.
glad I could enrich the quality of the discourse for you.

You realize they room together, right...

[reversedestiny]

Are you always so nice?

[justabignobody]

It's better to hurt than to feel nothing at all. And to treasure the times we spend in company and hold them close when they are gone, than to never have known any at all.

There is nothing worse than to suffer loneliness forever.

[At least that's what Riku thinks.]

[reversedestiny]

But I'm always left behind in the end. I'm not sure that's worth it. I'm tired of being left behind.

[justabignobody]

[...Being left behind, eh?]

Where are you right now?

[Because yeah, he refuses to discuss this any further over the network. It won't lead them anywhere.]

[reversedestiny]

Library.

[Text]

[lethechained]

[... There is basically no way she can ignore this, not that she'd actually intend to.]

It's hard to say for certain why. There could be a lot of reasons why people are the way they are but the fact is that it is what it is and that stays the same. Relationships are important no matter who you are or how hard it is to stay together.

[....]

It will always be worth it. [-- Well.] There are other opinions I know but I think that it would hurt you more to stay alone.

Your heart is precious. All of the feelings in it good and bad are worth experiencing. So please don't throw away that part of it.

[There are those who don't even have that choice, themselves.]

[Text]

[reversedestiny]

But I'll still be left behind in the end. And I don't know if I can take any more of that.

[Text]

[lethechained]

You don't know that for certain. There may be a chance that things will happen that way but there's also a chance that they won't.

I know it's hard. It's a terrible thing to be separated from a friend. But they're in your heart and you're in theirs. Memories can help you if you let them even if it's not the same. [She knows a thing or two about having to be satisfied with the shades of past moments, after all.]

[Text]

[reversedestiny]

I'm tired of taking chances when I still have so few people. Everyone keeps leaving, just like my parents did.

[Text]

[relinquishing]

Because, really, there's only so much we can do by ourselves. As much as it hurts to be left alone.

[He spent a good time of his life feeling the burden was all on him, that he had nothing, that it wasn't worth it to make friends if he was going to lose them.

How wrong he'd been.]

[Text]

[reversedestiny]

I've been doing a lot alone my whole life. I just need the Heartless. They won't leave me.

[Text]

[relinquishing]

[...

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Qué???]

The Heartless?

...

I'm guessing they aren't things you'd consider "friends."

[Text]

[reversedestiny]

They're creatures I can control.

[warriorscribe]

Because it is a worse pain to be completely alone, no matter how much separation hurts. I tried to be alone once, a long time ago, and nearly lost my sanity for it.