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[vermicompost]

I know what happened. Are you happy with yourselves? Doing things when you don't even know what you're doing, or why. Look what you did... there were people suffering, children crying. Do you know how much pain you caused? It isn't right. It isn't fair.

What gives you the right? You take other people's lives in your hands! Take their choices from them. Deciding whether we should live or die for us. Do you think that we want to die? I don't. While there's life, there still hope. We should keep on living, no matter what. We should always keep--

[After this brief speech, Kariya slumps, breathing heavily. His good eye widens, and the swollen veins in his face seem to pulse for a moment. The effort of speaking has obviously taken a lot out of him. The physical and mental shock of the worms returning has taken its toll on him. He looks as if he's having trouble standing upright at the terminal. A spasm of pain crosses his face. When he speaks again, his voice is weaker.]

I need a healer--is there someone who can help?

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[lightofhumanity]

[Fictive families were still families, in a way. At that information, chaos thought a bit before speaking. Kariya would be right in the fact that chaos was no ordinary child. To be quite frank, he wasn't a child at all, or even human.]

Alright then. If you can, perhaps it is best to state something on the network or through letters that you would be willing to watch over children for a few hours per day to make sure that they were not harmed for most of the time. If an organization similar to that is already in place, you might be able to join it and help it along. This is just a suggestion though. You need not take it if you do not want to.

[vermicompost]

[He nods. It's easy for him to accept chaos as more of an adult than a child, because of his manner and his words. He's easy to talk to, too.]

No, that's a good idea. I might do that. Lancelot and I could look after the children... [He's not sure if people would take him up on the offer, but he could try.] I just want to make things easier for them.

I wish there was more I could do. I mean, about the administrators. To help everyone. [It's just hard to know what to do against such insurmountable odds, especially when he's so sick most of the time.]

[lightofhumanity]

[chaos was like that. Most people, even complete strangers, found it easy to talk with him.]

I know..however..if you are taking care of the young and those who do not have many defenses, those who are fighting against the Administrators would not be that worried about the Administrators or anyone else harming them. You would be fighting back, in your own way.

[vermicompost]

Do you think so? I don't know. It always feels like I could be doing more, like I'm not doing enough.

I could fight, but I don't know how, or where. [And he's ignoring the fact that being in a serious fight could easily kill him, from exertion alone.]

[lightofhumanity]

Even if you could fight with a sword, I am not sure how well you would do. Almost everyone thinks that they could be doing more, even if they are doing their best. It is normal. However..if you can fight with bandages, playing, and a makeshift sanctuary, that will be of great help, even if it does not feel like it.

[vermicompost]

I can fight with a sword. Sort of.

[He has Lancelot.]

But you're right, those things matter, too, just as much. I never wanted to be a fighter. I only wanted to have an ordinary life.

...that didn't work out very well.

[lightofhumanity]

[Inwardly, chaos sighed. If it wasn't for his role, he would have loved to live in peace with the people he loved. There would have been consequences for being human..but there also would have been quite a few good points.]

I imagine that quite a few people wish for nothing but normal lives with their loves ones. I myself know the feeling. However..since it has not worked well so far, we have to make sure that we can make it work well in the future, even if we are not good fighters, healers, or things of that nature.