animus_network | ☿ // 005; [text]

[This message flickers onto the network late at night, once Waver's had a chance to both check his mail and read the book delivered to him.]

Who the hell left that in my mailbox.

I am not playing games. I am not remotely pleased. If I ever find out who you are, I'm going to throttle you. And if it was an administrator, I'll do much worse than that.

[Waver didn't linger on the network for very long after posting; he eventually stormed off carrying the book in question and wearing a disturbingly calm expression.]

[action; floor fifty-five]

[Why was there an incinerator here and could it possibly come to life and kill him? Who cared? Certainly not the Clock Tower's favorite professor. Who, by the way, to be slowly coming apart from 'tranquil fury' to just plain fury as he threw his newly received book into the incinerator as hard as he could.]

Fucking tower. [He reached up to something at the level of his collarbone--a pendant hidden under his shirt, apparently. Satisfied it was still there, the magus lowered his hand and turned sharply to head back to the dorm floors.]

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I can't help but notice you seem amused for some reason.

A-amused? What do you mean? I wouldn't be.

[He laughs again.]

There's so much blood...

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You're laughing and holy shit are you alright

[That, ladies and gentlemen, is Waver dropping all pretense of coherent typing out of concern.]

where are you right now

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I'm not laughing.

[Yes, he is.]

I didn't do anything wrong, I promise. I wouldn't... I promised I would do anything to help them.

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look just tell me what you're babbling about and if you're injured or not

I'm sorry they sent you something, too. That isn't right. They should leave us alone. Haven't they done enough? I hope--it wasn't too bad.

I mean--the blood. It's everywhere.

[So illuminating, Kariya. His laughter sounds a bit hysterical now.]

I'm fine. Everything's going to be fine. Isn't it, Waver?

[Frustrated, Waver brought his hand down hard on the terminal and switched to video.]

Will you just talk to me already and tell me what the bloody hell's happened to you?!

There was a picture...

What is the point of me being alive, Waver? If they're dead.

[Waver took a second or two to process that no, Kariya was most likely not bleeding out. Following that, he took a moment longer to collect his thoughts and respond.]

What makes you think there isn't one?

Because there's no other point to me.

Don't be an idiot. Of course there is.

No, I--

[He breaks off to laugh again.]

I'm the one who should be dead. That's how it was supposed to happen.

Don't start that, Kariya. Thinking like that isn't going to accomplish anything. It's not a matter of 'I should have died instead'. What it comes down to is that we're alive, and we need to figure out what to do with that fact.

[There's silence for a while, as if Kariya has stopped responding, or as if the network is glitching.

When he speaks again at last, it's with a new virulence, his voice hoarse and pained, as if his throat can barely support the sound it makes.]

What am I supposed to do? They're dead! They're all dead!

And breaking down isn't going to help.

[Waver barely flinched at the outburst, responding with a steady and severe tone of his own.]

I don't doubt there's a way to reverse all this. There must be some way to restore our worlds and the people in them. I don't know what that is, but until we determine without a doubt whether it is or is not possible, we have to stay calm.

How can I be calm, when they're dead? How can you say that, don't you love anyone? They're all gone! Everything I care about is gone! How can everyone dying be reversed? People don't really come back from the dead--!

[His voice grows more hoarse and more difficult to understand as he continues to rant. He finally breaks off, and there's the unmistakable sound of him coughing.]

...I have enough of an attachment to my world. [The accusation stung, but Waver discarded the sentiment the best he could and continued speaking.]

Think about it. How much of the impossible is commonplace around here? If there's been even so much as a hinted notion that the worlds themselves could theoretically be restored, it may just stand to reason that those in it would follow.

What you're doing is falling to what those in charge of this place want you to believe. They want us to give up and think we can't change the circumstances.

[Waver, as well-reasoned and logical as that was, you are not talking to an actual rational person. Kariya is still coughing. His words come sporadically, between coughs. He's also laughing again.]

It's--

--whoever did this--

--they should die...

[At least he sounds like he wants to change his circumstances.]

Kariya...that's not exactly what I'm driving at here.

I'll kill them!

They killed Aoi, so--I'll kill them.

[His laughter and coughing suddenly turn into what sounds like sobbing.]

You don't understand... they're everything to me.

Why wouldn't I understand? I have plenty to go back to, so of course I'm angry it's gone. But I'm not going to outright assume that's it and I can't get anything back. And I'm not just going to start slaughtering people, administrator or not.

But you don't understand--you couldn't--or you wouldn't talk that way!

I love them more than anything.

I'll kill them. You don't have to.

I understand perfectly well, but this isn't going to solve a damn thing! You need to snap out of it and screw your head back on properly!

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text; kariya pls...

voice;

text; goddammit i'm awake

permavoice;

permatext;

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I'm sorry about him

don't be, being kariya is suffering all around

Thank you for understanding that Kariya's life is pain

it is rule two of the nasuverse after 'zelretch did it'

Kariya's so lucky to have such a high-ranking and prominent rule!

it is a monument to his failure

At least he got a monument!

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