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[guiltapalooza]

You know what, I am so sick of this. Completely sick of this!! And look at me, repeating myself and using multiple exclamation points (two!) like a rebel. Because I am a rebel!

I'm tired of all these embarrassing personal incidents. When they aren't embarrassing, they're deeply horrifying and disturbing. I just want regular old test taking anxiety again! I want worrying about whether Anya is going to ask Giles if he has a new orgasm friend yet in public! And all that demon stuff, even that was familiar.

But here it's like, oh, here's that troll kid I'm friends with and he got his arm torn off. Here's me turning myself into a troll and going creepy stalker over Aradia. (Which by the way, oh Goddess am I sorry for and eternally mortified about.) Or here's me picking up the bloody scraps of the clothes of the double of someone I'm friends with!

And don't tell me I'm using too many of's there, I told you I'm a rebel today! I just want my test taking anxiety back, darn it. I'd even take worrying over when I'm going back to college, and that was a lot of worrying.

... Okay, whining done. End whining. In other news, who's still having wacky collar-induced sickness and power-tampering shenanigans? Cause frankly I'm finding this really worrying and I want to get to the bottom of this.

Comments

[chronomancer]

you
could say that

really?
shes pretty nice

[guiltapalooza]

I do say that. If you have anything else in common, I bet it's that you're endlessly devoted to her, isn't it?

I think I didn't meet her under the best circumstances, her having just gotten here and all.

[chronomancer]

like any moirail should be

yeah
she wwasnt
havvin a vvery good day
ill introduce you to her properly some time
i think you twwo wwould get along

[guiltapalooza]

Well yeah but that doesn't make it less endearing and adorable.

I'd love to meet her properly! I think that'd be great. Aradia and I are going to host a friendship affirmation party for whoever wants to come, and you should bring her and drag her along with you.

[chronomancer]

maybe
ill ask her about it

[guiltapalooza]

Just let me know.

Also, um... that reminds me. If I tell you something I've been meaning to tell you, would alpha-you find out too or would I have to say it to him all over again? Because I think one potentially awkward conversation would be enough for me.

[chronomancer]

uh
...wwait
please
because if this is gonna be awwkwward
i think itll be better if theres only one a me left
so i dont accidentally make the awwkwward wworse

[guiltapalooza]

I don't see how you could make the awkward worse, but I can wait. But I should probably tell you before we have our party, or then it really will be awkward instead of just me perpetuating my own blundering.

[chronomancer]

i wwill find you
then
i promise ill seek you out once i stop being doomed
ill let the others knoww

[guiltapalooza]

Geez, don't be dramatic about it. It's not anything bad! It's just something you should know that hasn't really come up yet.

But I promise it has nothing to do with doom.

[chronomancer]

im not bein dramatic
thats just wwhat its called

but alright
you can tell me later
before the party

[guiltapalooza]

I don't know, the way you said that was pretty dramatic.

It's a plan, then.

[chronomancer]

wwhat do you wwant me to do
paradox space is dramatic about these things

alright

[guiltapalooza]

I know this is probably a hopeless, um, hope, but I'd just like to see you be happy sometime. That's all.

[chronomancer]

im happy
sometimes

[guiltapalooza]

Yeah? Can I schedule in a showing of that sometime? I think it'd be nice to see.

[chronomancer]

i think ill havve to devvice a signal
to let you knoww wwhen the magical moment comes

[guiltapalooza]

My eyes are pealed for this signal. Whenever it arrives, I will be completely ready, books dropped to the ground, out the door. Cause I definitely don't want to miss the moment.

[chronomancer]

ill be sure to let you knoww
the moment i figure it out

[guiltapalooza]

I look forward to it.