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animus_network2012-03-15 05:53 am
nobirdie) wrote in animus_network2012-03-15 05:53 am
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Does... anyone feel like they've forgotten something... important? And like they don't really... belong in their body?
... I was just wondering, since everyone seems to be having problems with the collars, if it was just me.
[ ooc; Nageki happened to be in radius of Naminé's powers without actually BUMPING INTO her, and has had his collar downgraded from Violet all the way to Yellow, so he's basically back to how he was during his game. He only remembers the Tower at this point and half of his name. And a few other things.
Also, Hatoful spoilers, hurr derp, if you mind that, anyway. ]
... I was just wondering, since everyone seems to be having problems with the collars, if it was just me.
[ ooc; Nageki happened to be in radius of Naminé's powers without actually BUMPING INTO her, and has had his collar downgraded from Violet all the way to Yellow, so he's basically back to how he was during his game. He only remembers the Tower at this point and half of his name. And a few other things.
Also, Hatoful spoilers, hurr derp, if you mind that, anyway. ]
YAR HAR FIDDLE DI DEE
Are you feeling okay? You sound like something's troubling you!
And you know you can always tell me anything.
[Even if you don't like him, Pipit will always be there for you, dude. Always.]
A PIRATE'S LIFE IS THE LIFE FOR ME -- I should edit eyepatches onto all your icons
... I think I remember you.
[ He's so confused... but anything he actually remembers that his poor, fractured mind can presently think of is something to cling to. Unbeknownst to him, certain memories have been... altered, slightly.
He stays sitting where he is, but looks like he's going over something, mind running at a furious pace. ]
There was an older boy. We're in the same room. I think that's happened before, too. Maybe... no, it was probably someone like you. Maybe it WAS you. You said 'Nageki', that feels familiar...
[ ... Is he talking to Pipit or himself at this point? It's hard to say. Probably both. And as his mind slowly, but surely runs the conclusions that it can make... he looks a little startled.
And blinks. He looks a little hopeful, almost, as he asks. ]
... I had a brother. Are you him?
LMAO SOB...
He lays his chin on his arms then, still smiling warmly.]
... I could be, yeah!
[Did Nageki really think of him that way? Is that why he was so worried?]
IS THAT A "YES CHAR PLEASE EDIT ME PIRATE PIPIT ICONS" OKAY SURE
... You don't remember, either?
[ That's kind of... well, it makes him sad. Because right now he feels pretty sure Pipit COULD be his brother.
Pipit liked birds, right? His brother was something to do with birds, he KNEW it. His life had lots to do with birds, even. ]
Or is it... [ Pause. ] I'm wrong, aren't I. Sorry, I... don't remember much else. Except you, and a few other things.
[ That's it. He feels really, really confused, and a bit sad, so he frowns. Was he wrong? It was probably a stupid hope, anyway, but he remembers feeling elated he was alive, and when Pipit got hurt, he remembers worrying, too... maybe... that was why?
It made sense to him. ]
LMAO NO I JUST. *PIRATE PIPIT*. THE IMAGE OF PIRATE PIPIT SOB.
complete opposite.
But he can't lie to the kid... It goes against the Pipit Way.
But at the same time, leaving a kid like this - sad, confused, distraught - isn't that against the Pipit Way, too?
Yeah, there's some heavy moral dilemmas going on in this bird addled head of his.]
... What I meant was - of course I am!
How else do I know your name, huh? You don't... seem to remember it, after all.
Nageki!
[He can hate himself later. Whatever helps the kid out now is best.]
CLEARLY THIS MEANS I MUST MAKE IT HAPPEN
Finally, something he can hold on to with two hands. Something he can feel sure about. Because everything else, right now, is just confusing. ]
... No, I honestly... don't. I knew it started with an N, but I couldn't remember.
[ But it's okay, right? If this IS his brother, then he's not afraid to talk to him, because he DOES remember talking to his brother a lot. Even though they were adopted. It fit, right? They didn't look the same, so they were sort of made up family. ]
I was worried that I might not be right about anything, it all seems really... foggy.
Thanks for bringing it back, though.
[ --Oh, right. Clarify. ] The book, I mean.
YES CLEARLY
It's no problem; books are important to you! Like I said - it'd be better to have it here with you, than somewhere else in the tower with me; right?
[A pause -]
... Is there anything else you need, Nageki? You can always talk to me, you know!
... This will be my next art project
[ He repeats it back slowly, as if unsure.
Finally, he decides Pipit is right, and that has to be his name, so he files that away in his mind. That's one thing solved, at least!
Truthfully? He feels safer, at least, even if his body kind of feels super disconnected from everything, he can still be a little happy. He knows more than he did, after all.
Nageki can manage a smile, now, despite if it's sort of hard and he feels mechanical and... distant. ]
... Thanks. I don't want to be a burden, though. I'll be fi--
[ Don't say you're 'fine' anymore, okay? Oh... he remembers someone telling him that. His brother? Was it Pipit?
... He isn't sure, but he pauses, cutting himself off. ]
I mean, I won't push myself too hard. Though I think... I've been like this before. Numb, I mean. I can't really feel much... it's sort of like my body isn't mine at all.
Do you think that's weird?
... Nageki is so precious omg
Should he tell the kid he used to be dead? Lying's terrible, but again...
Well - it's not so much lying as hiding, right?]
Nah! I don't think that's weird; everyone feels like that once in a while.
Do you know why you feel like this though, Nageki?
[... Didn't he have a violet collar the last time they spoke?]
HE IS, I CANNOT HANDLE IT
[ He's quiet for a little while, considering it. ]
Though... I've been reading the backlog on the terminal, and it sounds like people are having problems with things after they had their collar's fluid changed. I think mine was violet before.
[ That... makes no sense, though? ]
But I didn't hear about anyone else forgetting anything. And I don't remember what I was doing when it happened...
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[He hates to admit it, but this place is really, really terrible.]
But hey - no matter what happened, it's just a matter of waiting it out! I'm sure whatever you forgot will come back in no time.
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[ He sighs. ]
It's kind of frustrating. Everything I can remember is really... fragmented.
[ But... ]
I guess it's okay, though. I'm not alone. I don't... feel really sick yet, or anything, so I'm sure I'll be fine. I just need to remember on my own again, maybe.
whoops finally tags this back -
[... He feels so bad for this kid. Suddenly can't remember a thing. But he has to admit, maybe it's for the best? He's had a hard life...]
And you know, if you do start feeling sick, tell me, yeah? I can help you out then, too.
still adorable
More than he usually does, even if it's small, it's obviously important to him. ]
... Right. I don't want to be a burden or anything, though. I promise I'll try to stay out of your way...
always adorable
[Pipit returns that smile then, with a big, sunny one of his own. It's nice to see him happy for once!]
they are like adorable squared... twice. ADORABLE TO THE 4TH POWER?
Are you sure? I can't do very much, but if there is something I can do to help you...
[ Tell him? ;; He hates feeling useless. Though, come to think of it, he should probably do his librarian duties soon. They're a real pain. ]
Though, I should probably work on the books soon... there's a lot of them that need to be sorted.
[ IT'S ACTUALLY EXTREMELY DANGEROUS AHAHA... ]
ADORABLE x INFINITY?
But hey - how about I help you out?
[IT'S A BIG BROTHER'S JOB TO HELP ISN'T IT...]
... YEAH THAT SEEMS ABOUT RIGHT
Is that okay? Are we allowed to be helped on our jobs...? I don't want you to get hurt...
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[What's so bad about sort books? Gosh!]
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If you don't get them all sorted quickly enough, though, they might crush you.
[ BUT THAT'S OKAY he and the others have managed all right so far...!! ]
... Now that I think of it, that's a very unreasonable way to run a library, but I guess this one is fairly large.
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[He's used to it anyway - he likes helping out the instructors after all.]
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But... you're missing an eye! What if you get hurt?