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[Filtered from the Condesce, Dualscar and Grand Highblood]

HEY, THIS IS THE SIGNLESS.

I HAVEN'T REALLY POSTED TO THE NETWORK IN A WHILE, AND I'D APOLOGIZE, BUT I REALIZE THAT NONE OF YOU PROBABLY TAKE MUCH JOY IN SEEING MY EYE-BLEEDING BIG-LETTERED CANDY RED TEXT, ANYWAY. SOME OF YOU, PARTICULARLY THE TROLLS, ARE PROBABLY WEEPING FROM YOUR OCULARS ALREADY, REACHING FOR THE KEYBOARD TO SPEW YOUR VITRIOL AT ME FOR EXISTING.

BUT DON'T WORRY. YOU'RE SUFFERING FOR A REASON.

Her Imperious Condescension
Orphaner Dualscar
The Grand Highblood Subjugglator.

If you know these names, then you know that to encounter any of these trolls is dangerous at best, and very likely to be fatal.

To be honest, I feel partly responsible. Since they arrived in the tower, I have tried to show them that the hemospectrum doesn't give them the right to cull indiscriminately, that there are other ways of dealing with people that are more constructive, and even beneficial to them. All three of them have rejected this notion, and while I do have hope that they might come around eventually, we cannot allow them to simply continue to treat the tower - and the people here - as their own personal sporting arena.

But I'm just one troll, and I'm not a very big one. I need help, I need a plan. And taking revenge upon them is not going to make a positive difference in this situation.

So please. Is there anyone here who can do something to, at least temporarily, make them stop killing? Maybe if they can start to feel what it's like to be powerless, they can begin to relate to those of us whom they have held down for so long.

I don't want to hurt them, and I believe anyone else in this tower who engages in violence should be dealt with in the same way. This tower is our home, at least for now, and if we are all going to live here, I think it's time to lay down some groundrules, and figure out how to enforce them.

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I wish I could help, but I'm pretty much useless right now. If my magic comes back, I'll let you know. We can't just let them keep killing people and hoping that one day they'll figure out they're wrong. That's probably never going to happen.

And for the record, there was no suffering involved in reading your text at all. Not from me, anyway.

YOUR MAGIC IS GONE?
WHY, WHAT HAPPENED?

I'M GLAD TO HEAR IT.
I ALWAYS SEEM TO GET SOME COMPLAINTS.

I'm not totally sure, and I don't really want to talk about it. But it can't stay this way forever.

They're just grumpy. Not that I'm not biased to like red in the first place, but you always have something worthwhile to say.

WELL IF YOU DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT, I WON'T FORCE YOU.
I HOPE YOU'RE ALL RIGHT, THOUGH.

THAT'S PRETTY KIND OF YOU.
I SEEM TO REMEMBER YOU SAYING THAT IT SEEMED LIKE I WAS YELLING AT YOU BEFORE.
BUT I'M GLAD WE'RE OVER THAT NOW.

I'm not alright, but I sort of feel like I've done all the moping about it I can handle for one day, if that makes sense?

That was more in the friendly teasing order of things. Now it's just... the way you are! Like Eridan and the way he always trips over the W in my name. It's cute and endearing.

Edited 2012-04-12 05:00 (UTC)

MAKES TOTAL SENSE.

AND WOW, THAT DOES SOUND PRETTY ADORABLE.
THE TWO OF YOU SOUND HAPPY TOGETHER.

Okay, good. Even if the other thing I'm thinking about is trying to prevent more killing, at least it's something. Have you come up with anything yet?

I think it might actually be reaching sickening levels of adorable and happy for onlookers, but luckily for me I am not an onlooker. I'm really lucky to have him here, especially with... everything.

NOTHING GOOD, YET.
ONE PERSON OFFERING TO TEACH SOME SKILLS AND A HEALER WHO CAN HELP WITH THOSE THEY DO DAMAGE TO.
I'D REALLY LIKE TO HOBBLE THEM FOR A WHILE, THOUGH. I'LL KEEP ASKING AROUND.

YOU'RE BOTH REALLY LUCKY, THEN. AND THAT'S NOT A BAD THING.
NO ONE CAN BEGRUDGE YOU THAT.

Hobbling would be much better. I think so, too. If you're still looking for something when my magic comes back, there's a whole range of things I could do, depending on what doesn't give me too many skeevies to try. I don't know when that'll be, though.

They better not, or they're heading for a very stern lecture. No one's allowed to question excessive romantic joy.

I DOUBT THIS NEED IS GOING ANYWHERE.

RIGHT, BEING DISGUSTING IN FRONT OF OTHER PEOPLE IS PART OF BEING IN LOVE.

Yeah. Unfortunately not. We could get a rough plan for when I'm not useless again? Do you have anything in mind for how exactly the hobbling should work?

Is that something you have experience with?

IT'S HARD FOR ME TO MAKE SUGGESTIONS WHEN I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU CAN DO.
IDEALLY I WANT THEM TO NOT BE ABLE TO HURT OTHERS, BUT OTHERWISE OPERATE NORMALLY.
BUT I HAVE NO IDEA IF THAT'S POSSIBLE.

WHAT DO YOU THINK?

Most of the time I can do pretty much anything. The question is what we're willing to do; anything too dark can mess with me, and I'd rather not go there. I mean, theoretically I could remove every violent impulse from their minds to start with, but even thinking of mind control like that is something I try not to do.

Oh no, I'm asking you about your quadrants. I want the relationship gossip. I am a depressed girl and that is what cheers me up.

OH NO, NO, I DON'T WANT TO GO THERE, EITHER.
NOT JUST BECAUSE IT'LL MESS WITH YOU, THOUGH THAT'S PART OF IT.
BUT FRANKLY, I WANT THEM TO LEARN FROM THIS.
I WANT THEM TO BE THEM, YOU KNOW?

OH!
WELL DISCIPLE IS MY MATESPRIT. WE'RE DEFINITELY PRETTY DISGUSTING AND CUTE, THOUGH SHE KEEPS SHOWING UP AND THEN DISAPPEARING, SO I'VE BEEN TRYING NOT TO THINK ABOUT IT TOO MUCH.
BUT SHE JUST GOT BACK, SO I'M HAPPY ABOUT THAT.
AND PSIIONIIC IS MY MOIRAIL.
HE'S AN IDIOT SOMETIMES, THOUGH, AND THINKS IT'S ONLY ONE-SIDED.
BUT I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT I'D DO WITHOUT HIM.
I'VE NEVER HAD A BLACK QUADRANT, BUT UH.
WELL, I'M NOT SURE WHAT TO SAY ABOUT THAT, ACTUALLY.

Yeah, I get it. It could be something more like... they can't hold a weapon, or whatever they do to someone else gets done to them at the same time, something like that. The more complicated it gets the more likely it is that they could disrupt it, though. They're a lot of things, but they aren't weak-willed.

Oh, I'm happy she's back, too! Not that I know her, just, for your sake. I can't be the only disgusting and cute one around here. Psiioniic is kind of an idiot about it, but I told him to stop doubting you and maybe he listened a little, I don't know.

As for black quadrants... I think I kind of get it, but it still seems pretty confusing to me, so I can't say I feel like you're really missing anything.

NOT HOLDING A WEAPON MIGHT NOT BE ENOUGH.
FEELING WHAT ANOTHER PERSON FEELS, THOUGH.
WHAT IF THEY COULD DO THAT?
NOT JUST PAIN, BUT OTHER EMOTIONS, TOO, EVEN JUST FOR A LITTLE WHILE?

IT'S ALL RIGHT, I'M USED TO HIM.
AND HE'S HAD A REALLY HARD TIME LATELY, TOO. HE FEELS LIKE I'M HELPING HIM ALL THE TIME AND NOT GETTING HELPED, BUT IT'S REALLY NOT TRUE.

MAYBE NOT. I MEAN, IT'S A TROLL THING, NOT A HUMAN THING.
I NEVER FELT LIKE I WAS MISSING ANYTHING.

I did that to Dualscar for a day already because he ripped the green Eridan's arm off and just left him there. I gave him empathy, I mean. He was none too happy about it.

It's hard when their insecurities aren't really about you. It means you can't fix them with some well-placed words, and really, you just want to fix them. Or that's what happens to me.

At first I thought it was abusive and horrible, but it seems more like a way to get aggression out in a controlled way? Without just going around hurting people at random. You don't seem that aggressive in the first place, so you might just not need it.

REALLY?
HOW DID THAT GO?

I'M NOT ALL THAT AGGRESSIVE, NO.
I HAVE A HARD TIME REALLY HATING PEOPLE BECAUSE I KEEP THINKING I CAN UNDERSTAND WHAT THEY'RE GOING THROUGH.
BUT I DON'T KNOW, MAYBE I CAN HATE SOMEONE IN THE RIGHT WAY.

Aside from making him want to kill me, I'm not too sure. But it definitely affected him.

... That sounds like a leading statement. Also, by human standards, that's a good thing. We think forgiveness is an ideal.

OKAY, WELL I THINK I HAVE ANOTHER AVENUE TO TRY WITH DUALSCAR.
BUT MAYBE SOMETHING LIKE THAT WOULD BE EFFECTIVE ON THE CONDESCE OR GRAND HIGHBLOOD.

I'M SORT OF THINKING ABOUT DUALSCAR, ACTUALLY.
HE CAME ON REALLY STRONG A COUPLE OF WEEKS AGO, IF YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN.
SPEAKING OF THAT OTHER AVENUE I WANT TO TRY.

I wouldn't mind giving it a shot on them when I can, but they're all pretty strong willed so I don't know how long it would last, realistically. I'm a witch, not a goddess. What avenue are y--

That avenue?? He did??? Wow! I'm not sure how I feel about that. And you really want to...?

UM, YEAH, THAT SURE WAS A THING THAT HE DID.
I THINK I WAS TERRIBLE, TOO.
SO IT MIGHT NOT WORK OUT, BUT I'LL GIVE IT ANOTHER SHOT.

I KNOW THEY'LL BE RESISTANT, BUT I'M SORT OF HOPING THAT IF WE GIVE THEM ANOTHER PERSPECTIVE, YOU KNOW, LIKE GET THEM TO REALIZE THAT PEOPLE ARE MORE THAN JUST TOOLS AND HAVE FEELINGS, TOO...
IT'S PROBABLY DOOMED.

I hope you're happy however it ends up? I think that's a safe thing to say.

Well. I did have an idea that I mentioned to Sollux. Maybe they just need to see how the other side lives and be, you know. Lowbloods for a while. I at least was thinking of making Dualscar type in red for some petty vengeance next time he ticked me off.

I'M SURE IT'LL WORK OUT EITHER WAY.

THAT WOULD BE FUCKING AWESOME, I HAVE TO SAY.
CAN YOU DO IT TO THE CONDESCE? MAYBE NOT RED, BUT RUST. GIVE HER A TASTE OF REAL LOWBLOOD, NOT JUST A MUTATION SHE CAN DISMISS AS JUST THAT.

I haven't exactly gotten a stellar impression of him, but if it's what you want, then I hope so.

Just changing a color isn't too difficult, especially if it's an act of poetic justice in any way (which it is, and goddesses love that stuff, trust me). I'll have to get back to you, um, whenever it is that I have my magic back.

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