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[Well hey it's a bit soon for him to be making another post but he has a good reason for this!! Look he's even going to skip over the formalities this time and get straight to the point to show how serious this is.]

To add onto what Sayaka said, I'm here to send out a warning to be alert as well.

[He crosses his arms]

A few days ago... something happened to me. I was in the cafeteria, and shortly after taking a sip from my drink, I was immediately hit with pain throughout my body. I tried to go to the infirmary... but for some reason I started loosing control of myself and I... [He bites his lip and stays silent for a moment.]

I almost killed someone. [He drops his gaze away from the screen, but continues talking.]

I can't say why that happened, but I can say for sure that it wasn't anything normal. I would never raise a hand to another person, let alone try to kill them.

[He clears his throat and looks back to the screen, a very stern expression set upon his face.]

So be on the look out for things like this happening, keep your guards up, and be careful.

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[He lets out a small sigh.]

It's hard not to.

Would it help if I said it was okay to beat yourself up over it, but only a little bit?

[And she's showing just how little bit with her fingers. Juust about an inch worth of beating up, it seems. She's trying to try to lighten the mood - smaller children should never, ever, have to go through this. Ever.]

But after that, you have to let it go. I'm having to learn pretty quickly here that things like this may just happen. All we can do is give each moment its appropriate amount of thought and feelings, then move on. Otherwise the weight of our actions - whether they're ours or not - will crush us.

I can't let it go, not when my friend is covered in wounds that I've caused. [It only hurts more after learning just how much that friend looks up to him, too... He feels like the worst kind of person right now.]

[Whelp, Operation 'Try to make him feel better' is a bust. Taking a deep breath, Elena leans forward into the feed slightly.]

I...I can understand how you feel. But your friend is alive, aren't they? Scars will heal in time. Perhaps you should try talking to them about it, clear the air. I'm sure they know it wasn't really you who attacked them.

Just barely alive. [He avoids looking at the screen in front of him as he talks.]

I've already talked with him, he knew the whole time it wasn't entirely my fault.

[She's frowning, not quite sure of what to say next. She wasn't...exactly the best at offering comfort. So she's digging in deep to the basic roots of her training for Plan B.]

But alive is alive, no matter at what degree. And at least he knows that you it wasn't you. So here's what you do now:

Take that pain, that anger of what happened, and focus it. Use it as drive to get stronger and better - so that you can protect not just yourself, but those important to you. Being upset is fine and all, but if you let it overtake you without using it to better yourself, then you're just wasting time.