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[The feed flickers later on in the morning in midst of the creeping fog settling within the lower levels (for now) of the tower before a clear voice speaks through. Despite the growing difficulty to see through it, he seems to have no trouble?]

Everyone, stay calm and listen. If my hunch is right, this fog is different from the kind that lingers outside this tower and if that's the case, there are some things you should know about it. You see... this fog is similar to the fog in a world I know.

For those who can't read well, I'll read it aloud... but the basics will be here in text.

[He pauses before speaking again, having only stopped to compose himself.]

How to Survive Your Shadow Self and Basic Information

What's with all this fog?

First of all, this fog is originally from a world made of unconscious thought. This fog also tends to obscure not just sight, but make it harder to think straight if you haven't accepted the part of you that you hide from yourself. Where I am from, that usually causes every being with a heart and ego or ability to feel emotion and to think for their own to spawn a creature from this. We call them a Shadow self.

What is a Shadow self?

A Shadow is the suppressed parts of ourselves we try to hide from ourselves and others for one reason or another, but greatly amplified. This doesn't exactly mean that they're all negative, though. It could be loneliness, a fear of something, emptiness, or maybe even a strong desire we never or rarely disclose. Sometimes it can even be a monster of who we fear we are.

What do they look like?

Shadow selves look almost identical to the real person... at first. After all, they are a part of us. The only differences are normally eye color (they usually have menacing, glowing yellow irises), and sometimes different clothing. However, that changes once they are denied by the original self.

Why shouldn't we deny them? What happens if we do?

The first thing you should know about Shadows is that they always want to take the originals' place. When they're denied, they go berserk and transform into a monstrous form before attacking who they come from. This is extremely dangerous because, if they are not stopped, they will kill the original.

So how do we stop them?

The only way to stop them before they go berserk is for the original to hear them out and let them say their piece before accepting or at least acknowledging them.
If they have already gone berserk though, they need to be beaten down and tamed the hard way so the original can face them. The only time they will stop is when they are accepted or outright rejected. The latter is not advisable because it causes more pain to the individual.

What happens to us when it goes berserk?

Most tend to faint because when they go berserk, the Shadow self usually drains power from the person they originate from. Though I have no idea if it will be the same way, here.

What if we can't accept it?

There are always others who will help you. Even if it's a weakness too painful or if you're ashamed of it, there are people who will accept and help you through it.

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His head feels like it's in a vice right now, but he nods- still keeping that blank look on his face. Though for a moment, his eyes may just flash pure red...]

A little too familiar, really. [Son of a bitch, why can't he stop himself? He... has to protect them...

Izanagi, stop that.]

[The order was working.

Too wonderfully, in fact. To what extent will this person do to protect his loved ones? He hadn't really the time to experiment on what an order will do to a person if it really matched their personality, and to see it happening before his eyes was... a bit bewitching, he admitted.

But nevertheless, now's not the time to be elated at a new discovery.]

They were a headache to you back home, weren't they?

[Lelouch, he is going to punch you so hard when this is over you have no idea.

Yu glares at the monitor, but to which extent is it him... and which is it Izanagi... is anyone's guess.]

You don't know the half of it, Lelouch.

[...Which is far too true, to be frank.]

[...Hm, it appeared there's something wrong with how he is acting. Perhaps it was related to the a actual figure he Geassed as opposed to the person. No matter, as long as the command still stands, he can't harm him at all, unless he figured a loophole of some sorts to the command.

...

Frankly, it was ironic that he realized that he had been anticipating other moves no thanks to his own set of bad lucks regarding plans.]

I assume it was related with the search for the truth, wasn't it?

[It was a bit difficult, but nonetheless, it'd have made sense with the nature of the Shadows running amok as of the current moment.]

[Or it could be due to the fact that they are the one and the same; two sides of the same coin. Whereas Yu is not consciously aware of it, Izanagi is. That in itself was likely a recipe for disaster, considering what his real self has locked up deep within the void in which all things begin.

He frowns, the pain seemingly alleviating itself for the time being. However, the coldness of his vaguely-red gaze does not relent. He-it-they know far too well what most who share their voice could do... especially given this line of questioning.]

Whether it was or not does not matter at this point. People will die if this is not stopped...

[...what happened to his voice. No, seriously.]

Edited 2012-09-07 08:18 (UTC)

[There's no reaction at all, if there's any to be given by him. He had grown quite used to the weirdness of the tower, in essence, and his frayed mind had just learnt to accept whatever happened with a simple shrug.]

That's kind of obvious, isn't it? Though, isn't death not permanent in this place?

[Ah, the curse of having to protect everyone.]

The lack of permanence does not fully remove the sting. Surely you realize that?

[Screw you, he does what he wants... Geass-effect be damned.]

Wouldn't know, I have not truly died in this place after all.

[Y e p.]

Then here's hoping you don't.

[Despite his anger, he's still sincere about that wish.]

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