Video post: Signless is having some doubts in his old age.

[iron_infidel]

[It has been quite a while since he had come onto the network like this. It seemed that the days had come together into one brief moment. He knew that something was off deep within his gut but he chose to ignore it. He moves to click on the network feed and clears his throat before he begins to speak. His eyes are sunken and it appears as if sleep had been a last thought to him.]

I believe today marks the day of my 100th year here...no wait perhaps it is in nineties. It is hard to make sense of what is truth. I feel...the same as I had when I arrived. Here I thought age was supposed to change a person. While this holds some truth to it I am not sure if this tower has provided anything of value. Though it is only be expected when you consider just what is associated with this tower. I must say it is fortunate that I am not in the ground. That my age has not caught up with me. This I can conclude is probably due to the tower or simply that death will be soon upon me and my hopes, whats left of them, still remain.

I do not fear it. Death has been a constant visitor during my time here. Maybe it is best that it will come for me. I have not accomplished much during my stay here and given my future was only death, if I had returned home, perhaps it is to be. Considering such a situation, I feel as if hope is lost...my time has been useless within this tower. I could not come to protect those around me, or provide new hope for my friends and those who wished to follow my word. If it is to be and death is to be a visitor tonight, then I wish you well. If not I will continue to do what I can to assist you, even if you intend to detour it. I suppose it might be a miracle to some that a mutant has lived this long...heh what a load of hoofbeast shit. I was destined to die, never meant to be. I have always known this and chose to ignore it.

Nothing but words pour from my mouth and yet no one listens. It all ended in failure, here and back on Alternia. I.... I'm not sure what to do anymore.

[Any expression he had drops and slowly he turns his head away from the camera. Brows lowered and his frown was trapped in permanent doubt. ]

I am sorry for all of you.... Thank you for listening.

[With that he clicks off the feed for now, wishing to stare at the absence in the screen. Becoming lost within it.]

Comments

[disgracedvoid]

}↠ Must you, really
}↠ Bugger me for a lark, Signless
}↠ You make the same bloody ridiculous speech every fifty years
}↠ And it gets no less ridiculous each time, given the fact you stubbornly refuse to expire
}↠ Resign yourself to the fact you will damn well live longer than me
}↠ And quit being melodramatic
}↠ It is bloody vexing, is what it is

[iron_infidel]

How can I live longer then you. Such a statement makes no sense.
Also I regret to inform you that I am not being melodramatic, it is just a realization that I come to in my old age.
I am sorry that my words cause you much pain.

[disgracedvoid]

}↠ You are being very obnoxious and it is not even remotely endearing

[iron_infidel]

I am sorry that my words offend you Darkleer.
However if I had wanted such an opinion or rather comment. I would have come to you directly.

[papshooshing]

[ squinting... ]

The fuck... It's only been ten years.

[iron_infidel]

It has not, Karkat I am surprised to see you. It is a good sign.

[papshooshing]

...Why would you be surprised.

[iron_infidel]

After so long...I couldn't but find my mind drifting to the worse possibility.

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[grandhighblood]

Sure look good for a motherfucking 100 whatever the fuck a year is. Must be a lot by the sounds of your pathetic and spineless moaning about losing your precious motherfucking hope.

[Rolls his eyes here, snickering.]

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[iron_infidel]

[Long sigh.]

It is only a further misfortune that you have come into the light at this time. Do tell what allowed you to crawl out of your soiled dark hole for such an occasion? Surely you would know better. Where you getting tired of your constant musk?

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[grandhighblood]

Ugh, you make yourself out to be some motherfucking olden thing when you're barely half MY motherfucking age. Don't give me your moaning and wallowing bullshit!

[Ahem]

And I wasn't holed up in no motherfucking hole. Been getting my lazy wander on of this ridiculous prison.

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[iron_infidel]

Oh is not something you wish to hear? If that is the case then why did you respond. I had no idea you had so much care in your heart for little ole me.

[Yes, he is not dealing with your shit.]

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[snowyvalemaiden]

Oi mon, I didn't tink joo have been here dat long...

But shouldn't dat be a testament to yer perseverance? An' da fact dat joo be, well, seemingly more n' sane dan odas too. Fer bein' dat long here.

Joo gonna be okay mon?

[iron_infidel]

I and glad that you still perceive me as sane, but my doubts remain. One might say that my sanity has left me, since I am no longer who I was. My faith and by following, my hope seems to have left me.

I do not see a point in trying to find a better living space for us.

[snowdriftassassin]

Well, can't say I don't be undahstandin' how ya feel... Dis place, it be drainin' especially when it can give an' take as it pleases.

I tink der still be 'ope. I be one 'a da few tings we can keep. Sure it may wane and it may drop, but it be one 'a da tings dat joo can keep from losin to dis place.

[iron_infidel]

I continue to have doubts and for that I apologize, but I'm not sure how to regain the hope I had.

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[keybearer]

Even if it had been one hundred years, wouldn't you come back to begin with? I kind of figured we were all immortal in this place.

[Then again, death by age could be different.]

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[iron_infidel]

I am not sure what would be the conclusion. Perhaps we are only here until our bodies shut down and die of natural cause, not ones that have influence of the tower.

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[keybearer]

That's assuming the tower doesn't influence that as well. Then again, this whole situation's messy as-is.

[Because everyone and their mother seems to be acting as if they've spent entire lifetimes in the tower.

...Eh. At least it's not another labyrinth incident.]

[calculatedfire]

It can't have been that long.

[iron_infidel]

Aye, it has.

[calculatedfire]

I remember ten. Was it really ninety years that you had been here when I first arrived.

[Had to be another trick of the Tower]

[wweh]

[Remember this little guy? He's a bit more grown up now. At least twice the age he was when he first came here. He's actually gained some respect for you over the years. A mature Eridan? Without a doubt, pigs with all sorts of wings have been added to the tower's bestiary.] You sure it's been 100 years? Doesn't feel like it.

Though you look like you should be needin' some shuteye. Maybe that's why you think it's been that long... Either that or I found the secret to livin' well an' young. Might be the latter.

Also, what I'm callin' bullshit on is how you think everythin here's endin' in failure an' all your despair, an' how no one is listenin'.

I don't think that's the case.

[iron_infidel]

[Ah yes you. The one who...actually for once his memory isn't the best. Who are you again exactly? Rich and privileged high blood?]

The fact that I have not died of natural causes yet, only further concludes that perhaps livin' well and-. Yes, living. Has been granted to be as well. Being what I am it is unlikely that I would have survived the long.

I am curious though, why do you think that is? That no one listens, I dare say that I remember offering help and advice to others only to be taken with a grain of salt, killed or attacked for showing even a slight bit of compassion. Mind you this is common when you extend the hand of assistance to some, but after so many years you begin to question it.

[wweh]

That may have been back on Alternia. This place is a new start for everyone, as far as I'm concerned. Gave me a second chance at life even though I wasn't deservin' a' it. Nor was I deservin' a' the help an' kindness you gave.

You certainly made an impact on me, if that's proof a' anythin, I don't know what is.