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010 ❀ I'll burn your name into my throat

Sickness and a month of Jason. Lovely. I would say I plan to file a complaint, but we all know how much good that would do.

Instead, a question to old and new residents alike.

"Is getting attached to anyone here worth it?"

Though perhaps "Do you feel such a foolish endeavor is worth the resulting pain when you're left behind?" would be a better phrasing. Regardless- your thoughts?

[Not that she really cares, of course- she just wants to verbally punch optimism in the face if it's presented.]

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knowing people were going to go away doesn't stop me at home so I think it's worth it

Is that right? And why doesn't it stop you there?

why should it?

Some people get tired of it.

I don't! I like meeting people and theres lots of people to meet

[Well hello there. You've caught the attention of the resident widow.]

That's a rather difficult question to answer and is very subjective; so the best answer I can provide would be 'I don't know'.

The Tower is cruel and dangerous, but if you should find somebody that you can connect with and ~~love~~ build a relationship, you will have to accept that things will happen. Death. Torture. Bouts of in-explainable actions that could be used against your partner. IF you can accept that, then maybe it would be worth it.

But once one of the pair is gone - that pain is both horrible and humbling. It reminds you that you're still alive - still human because you can feel. Will that loneliness ever go away? Only time will tell.

Of course the tower is cruel and dangerous- one would have to be incredibly foolish not to know that.

But you're saying it depends upon the person whether or not the pain is worth it, correct? But in that case, wouldn't it also depend on the sort of relationship it is? Some are, after all, easier to get over than others.

It's always been a foolish endeavor, situation and location change nothing. It would be just as stupid if we were in our original homes.

What do you mean by a "month of Jason"?

Perhaps, perhaps not- however, I was specifically looking for answers from some who might be bothered with the endeavor- it doesn't seem as if you would be, at least.

Usually heralded by the lack of food other than those vile nutrition bars, a month of Jason means a month where that bastard is in charge of what happens to us.

And how badly we are injured, maimed, tortured or otherwise 'experimented' on.

It is usually far more intolerable than the average.

What, are you just baiting people, then?

... the average is already miserable enough, from what little I've been through. How often does he end up in charge of things?

A bit, perhaps. Call it more curiosity.

There are three admins, and Ruana. Do the math.

Ah.

And there is reason for this "Ruana" getting a separate mention from the other admins, I take it.

of course it is
even if it hurts later it can keep you alive now

Oh? How so?

i wouldn't have much to live for if it wasn't for my friends
especially my brother

besides it's just natural
isn't it
people get attached to each other
even if they have to separate in the end

Family is different, in my opinion. If you won't at least die for them, then you don't deserve to have them.

It is, of course- but some people stop themselves, and others would prefer not to have to.

sounds like a lot of work

Those who do it tend to believe it's worth it.

i'd never understand that
why spend so much effort to make yourself miserable

Because they're good at convincing themselves that they're actually happy.

whatever
they can do whatever suits themselves
as for me, i'll just let attachments come and go naturally

And you'll make no effort to change whether it happens or not?

come up with a good plan that has a chance of working and i'd follow it

A pity I'm not very good at planning, then.

i know some people are
i'll just wait for them

i say it is
sometimes friends leave but that doesn't mean you were never friends
you have to fight the pain because that's what they'd want

And how can you be so sure?

because friends always want the best for each other

But what if 'the best' they should want is for you to remember them being taken from you so that you have the will to keep fighting?

but just because you're fighting doesn't mean you won't find new comrades to fight with

That's not what I mean.

then what

That you need a reason to keep fighting, and the friends you've lost might be good incentive.

yeah i'd fight to get them back
so i can show them my new friends
because they'd like my new friends too

I don't think anyone is going to be 'gotten back' if they're gone.

you sure?

Of course it's worth it. If you were by yourself all the time I think this place would be even more horrible to live in then it already is.

Some things are easier to handle without the thought of those you care for having to suffer the same though, don't you think?

i think it's worth it. to a degree, at least.
it's better to have friends then to spend all your time alone, but at the same time it really does suck when they leave.
so getting super attached to one person probably isn't the best idea. but spreading that attachment out between multiple people isn't foolish at all.
you're going to be in pain if you just spend all your time alone too.
so...why not at least get some memories and happy times out of the deal?

An interesting answer.

How can you be sure it's worth it though?

because if i don't believe that it's worth it, then it isn't. and what would be the point in that?
believing in something makes it slightly more real, after all. or in this case, slightly more worthwhile.

i've tried doing the thing where you cut yourself off from people so that you don't have to feel sad when they leave.
there was a time in johto when it felt like someone i cared about was disappearing every other day. i thought for sure that if i didn't get attached to people, i wouldn't feel as bad if/when they finally were sent back home.
seemed like a winning plan to me.
but i was wrong, it was actually the biggest loser-y idea i ever came up with. i wasn't any happier that way, in fact, it honestly made me feel even worse.
it still sucks if someone leaves. it sucks a whole fucking lot but it's something that you can't let get to you.
it's kind of like that one saying.
"it's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all," only it's not love in the romantic sense.

[ .. welp, sort of an awkward question after her boyfriend disappeared for a momth and only just came back, huh.. otherwise her answer might have been different. ]

You just have to try to keep them close to you.

Isn't that the problem to begin with? Besides, it isn't as if we can dictate who comes and goes, right?

We can try. I won't allow them to take away what's important to me. I won't.. [ as if repeating it like that gives her more confidence. ]

How often do people disappear from here to make that a concern?

[ He is quite aware that no one really dies here, but... ]

Often enough, unfortunately.

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