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animus_network2013-04-21 03:01 pm
slightlyoblivious) wrote in animus_network2013-04-21 03:01 pm
three ✾ video
Hello, everyone. This is Yukiko Amagi.
...I was one of the people that was modified last week. I wanted to apologize to anyone I hurt when I wasn't entirely in control of myself. I know that what happened wasn't my fault, but it still hurt other people. I never wanted to do that, and I'm sorry.
[She pauses for a moment, fiddling with her hair, then takes a deep breath and looks into the camera, to continue.]
Something else that I wanted to say is that I understand what it's like to look at what you did when you weren't entirely yourself and be shocked. It really hurts, and it makes you look at yourself differently. But I want everyone to remember this: we all have our shadows. Those shadows may not be pleasant, and they might hurt sometimes. But they shouldn't hold you back, either. The best thing to do is to find a way to accept your shadows and then move forward.
It isn't the easy path to take, but it's the one where you'll find the strength to go forward. I know, because I've been there, and I'm stronger for it.
[And her expression softens, and she manages a little smile.]
The last thing I wanted to say here is that I'm not angry at anyone who was ordering me around or anyone that hurt me. I know that wasn't really you talking, and I know people do things when they're afraid that they wouldn't normally do. I forgive you. I understand if you don't want to be friends, but if you ever want to talk or anything, you can come find me.
Inaba folks, check-in? Are you okay, after all that?
...I was one of the people that was modified last week. I wanted to apologize to anyone I hurt when I wasn't entirely in control of myself. I know that what happened wasn't my fault, but it still hurt other people. I never wanted to do that, and I'm sorry.
[She pauses for a moment, fiddling with her hair, then takes a deep breath and looks into the camera, to continue.]
Something else that I wanted to say is that I understand what it's like to look at what you did when you weren't entirely yourself and be shocked. It really hurts, and it makes you look at yourself differently. But I want everyone to remember this: we all have our shadows. Those shadows may not be pleasant, and they might hurt sometimes. But they shouldn't hold you back, either. The best thing to do is to find a way to accept your shadows and then move forward.
It isn't the easy path to take, but it's the one where you'll find the strength to go forward. I know, because I've been there, and I'm stronger for it.
[And her expression softens, and she manages a little smile.]
The last thing I wanted to say here is that I'm not angry at anyone who was ordering me around or anyone that hurt me. I know that wasn't really you talking, and I know people do things when they're afraid that they wouldn't normally do. I forgive you. I understand if you don't want to be friends, but if you ever want to talk or anything, you can come find me.
Inaba folks, check-in? Are you okay, after all that?
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I guess I brought it up because it was the closest thing I could think of, even if it's not a perfect comparison.
[She nods.]
Yeah, I think we would. It was an awful situation, last week. But the best thing to do is to keep putting one foot in front of the other and going forward, to show them how strong we still are.
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But it's easy to blame yourself for that kind of thing. Sometimes it's hardest to accept things as they come. It's kind of a bad habit of mine, actually.
[A habit made worse since coming to the tower, so pardon his sheepish laughter.]
Think what's really tricky is channeling that strength into something productive. Fact is, we are kind of limited. Can't just barge in on the admins and kick them to the curb.
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[She has to stop and think about it for a second. Well, it's not out of the realm of possibility, she doesn't think. After all, the TV world stayed open, so maybe someone just found another way into it from the tower.]
I'm sorry. I wasn't doubting you, I was just surprised! But you're right, it's really not easy to face them.
And it's really easy to blame yourself for something like that. But you should forgive yourself, even if that isn't easy.
[She frowns a little.]
If only. They're just getting even more eager to crack down, as it stands. But I - call me naive, but I still think we can figure out a way around them. They're playing dirty, and people who play like that will slip up eventually. When they do, we'll be ready for them.
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[But he gets by. After seeing how monstrous his repressed feelings became, it's hard not to at least reconsider things a little bit.]
And it's true. Plus, we do outnumber them; we just have to be crafty. Dead-on attacks obviously won't work, so it'll probably take something like recon before we even stand a chance.
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[She understands that completely.]
We'll just have to be a lot more careful now about how we go about it. I should talk to a friend of mine, actually. They're really good at that kind of thing. I don't want to use their name on here, though, just in case it's being monitored.
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[But, well, it's too late for that now. Besides, vague discussions would probably net amusement more than anything else from Jason.]