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animus_network2013-04-21 03:01 pm
slightlyoblivious) wrote in animus_network2013-04-21 03:01 pm
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Hello, everyone. This is Yukiko Amagi.
...I was one of the people that was modified last week. I wanted to apologize to anyone I hurt when I wasn't entirely in control of myself. I know that what happened wasn't my fault, but it still hurt other people. I never wanted to do that, and I'm sorry.
[She pauses for a moment, fiddling with her hair, then takes a deep breath and looks into the camera, to continue.]
Something else that I wanted to say is that I understand what it's like to look at what you did when you weren't entirely yourself and be shocked. It really hurts, and it makes you look at yourself differently. But I want everyone to remember this: we all have our shadows. Those shadows may not be pleasant, and they might hurt sometimes. But they shouldn't hold you back, either. The best thing to do is to find a way to accept your shadows and then move forward.
It isn't the easy path to take, but it's the one where you'll find the strength to go forward. I know, because I've been there, and I'm stronger for it.
[And her expression softens, and she manages a little smile.]
The last thing I wanted to say here is that I'm not angry at anyone who was ordering me around or anyone that hurt me. I know that wasn't really you talking, and I know people do things when they're afraid that they wouldn't normally do. I forgive you. I understand if you don't want to be friends, but if you ever want to talk or anything, you can come find me.
Inaba folks, check-in? Are you okay, after all that?
...I was one of the people that was modified last week. I wanted to apologize to anyone I hurt when I wasn't entirely in control of myself. I know that what happened wasn't my fault, but it still hurt other people. I never wanted to do that, and I'm sorry.
[She pauses for a moment, fiddling with her hair, then takes a deep breath and looks into the camera, to continue.]
Something else that I wanted to say is that I understand what it's like to look at what you did when you weren't entirely yourself and be shocked. It really hurts, and it makes you look at yourself differently. But I want everyone to remember this: we all have our shadows. Those shadows may not be pleasant, and they might hurt sometimes. But they shouldn't hold you back, either. The best thing to do is to find a way to accept your shadows and then move forward.
It isn't the easy path to take, but it's the one where you'll find the strength to go forward. I know, because I've been there, and I'm stronger for it.
[And her expression softens, and she manages a little smile.]
The last thing I wanted to say here is that I'm not angry at anyone who was ordering me around or anyone that hurt me. I know that wasn't really you talking, and I know people do things when they're afraid that they wouldn't normally do. I forgive you. I understand if you don't want to be friends, but if you ever want to talk or anything, you can come find me.
Inaba folks, check-in? Are you okay, after all that?
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Yeah--same here. I'm glad you ain't hurt or nothin'...I dunno what I'd do if I lost any a' you guys.
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[His eyes narrow. It's not something he endured personally, but the idea's still unsettling.]
Still, I've gotta agree that moving forward's the best plan of action. Wouldn't we just be giving them what they want if we cracked?
[After all, Jason's the sick creep who likes putting them through all those messed up experiments.]
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I guess I brought it up because it was the closest thing I could think of, even if it's not a perfect comparison.
[She nods.]
Yeah, I think we would. It was an awful situation, last week. But the best thing to do is to keep putting one foot in front of the other and going forward, to show them how strong we still are.
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But it's easy to blame yourself for that kind of thing. Sometimes it's hardest to accept things as they come. It's kind of a bad habit of mine, actually.
[A habit made worse since coming to the tower, so pardon his sheepish laughter.]
Think what's really tricky is channeling that strength into something productive. Fact is, we are kind of limited. Can't just barge in on the admins and kick them to the curb.
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[She has to stop and think about it for a second. Well, it's not out of the realm of possibility, she doesn't think. After all, the TV world stayed open, so maybe someone just found another way into it from the tower.]
I'm sorry. I wasn't doubting you, I was just surprised! But you're right, it's really not easy to face them.
And it's really easy to blame yourself for something like that. But you should forgive yourself, even if that isn't easy.
[She frowns a little.]
If only. They're just getting even more eager to crack down, as it stands. But I - call me naive, but I still think we can figure out a way around them. They're playing dirty, and people who play like that will slip up eventually. When they do, we'll be ready for them.
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[But he gets by. After seeing how monstrous his repressed feelings became, it's hard not to at least reconsider things a little bit.]
And it's true. Plus, we do outnumber them; we just have to be crafty. Dead-on attacks obviously won't work, so it'll probably take something like recon before we even stand a chance.
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[She understands that completely.]
We'll just have to be a lot more careful now about how we go about it. I should talk to a friend of mine, actually. They're really good at that kind of thing. I don't want to use their name on here, though, just in case it's being monitored.
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[But, well, it's too late for that now. Besides, vague discussions would probably net amusement more than anything else from Jason.]
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I... feel the same way about what happened. I'm sorry you had to go through that.
But... shadows? Like the Jungian idea?
[Hallelujah stop laughing dammit.]
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Mm. I tried looking it up in the school library back home once, and it's something like that, though the library resources were pretty limited. That's part of it when you're from a small town, I guess.
[She can't help a bit of sheepish laughter.]
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[He offers her a tiny smile.]
I didn't really get access to information outside of what I was given me until I was thirteen or so... it's not the same but I sort of have an idea.
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[She smiles back.]
It must be hard, in a situation like that...
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[He nods a little, but rubs the back of his neck.]
It was normal for me, I guess.
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S-senpai! That's the spirit!
[A good lesson that sometimes he tends to forget himself. He's glad to have her as a friend, and for Yukiko to be that strong. A beat, and then.]
I didn't get affected, so I'm fine.
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[She smiles really brightly.]
There's no doubt in my mind that even if something had happened, you'd have the strength to get through it. And we'd all have your back, no matter what.
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[Wow that's a little too cheesy. Oh well. IT'S TRUE...but there is something on his mind...]
Hey uh Senpai...c-can I talk to you 'bout something?
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That's exactly right!
Of course you can. What's going on?
Let's pretend it is still the 21st also that Kanji attempted to make this private
If you were her, what would you like best? Or should I just make both?
M-maybe I should just make both...
[Look at him, fumbling his words.]
yes let's roll with this also what is filtering because Yukiko's going to assume it worked
[Sorry, Kanji, your senpai's priorities are...well. She's gonna have words with your girlfriend about not filling her in. But not right this minute.]
Well, I think it would be really sweet if you made her both, but I also know that no matter what you do, she'll love it because it's from you.
Ace filter people, these two
[Wow he should have not realized everyone didn't know now he feels bad. And was also expecting Yukiko to have a magical answer to his question but she's basically saying it like either one is fine but he wants someone to make a decision argh!!
...wait...]
...do you think if I combined both of 'em, that would make it extra-cute?
the very best like no one ever was
[And she is. But she's also going to round everyone up and see what other gossip she's missed, because holy wow she feels out of the loop. Now is not the time for that, though!
She claps her hands and nods enthusiastically.]
I think that would be absolutely adorable! It's definitely what you should go with.
To filter themselves is their real test...
[The teasing freshman part of the trio, and Kanji's greatest fear. Granted he's not exactly freshman age anymore and neither is she.]
T-thanks! I'll make sure that's so damn cute she'll be...nah I can't put lace on it that'll be weird.
To hide things is their cause!
[Or just make herself the target for not double-checking whether this was actually filtered away from her. Something like that.]
I think lace might be a little bit much, but I think it's a really great idea.
Some some something I watched Pokemon in french I mean what
[YOU'LL SEE. Kujikawa antics. He knows they'll happen.]
Yeah maybe something with cotton, I think I have a bit of that left...
Anyway, thanks senpai! You need me for anythin'...well you already know where to find me. But if you need me, I'll be glad to help!
I am a slow threadjacker mah bad
[UH OH THEM FILTERS FAILED.]
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[...give it a second.]
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...right. That is what happened, right.
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[Y-Yukiko-san no don't make that face. D:]
...Filters often fail on this network. I thought you both might want to know.
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[...just she really misses Chie at times like this.
Hold on. Wait a second. WHAT IS EVEN GOING ON WITH YOU GUYS.]
...wait a second here, was this some kind of a secret double-date?! That was totally what happened, wasn't it? Well, then!
...that's what happened, right? I didn't forget about filtering stuff?
[Please tell her the network failed.]
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[Seriously, he feels horrible that he didn't realize until now. And while Yu misses everyone who left, he... doesn't voice it. Tower veteran, your leader is.]
Actually... it was a group movie night several months ago. Most of the group who was here at the time was there.
And more than likely.
[That or Kanji failed for life like he always does
no one is surprised either way.]video; AND NOW WE FILTER PROPERLY
[She smiles, immediately trying to wave it all off. It's probably obvious that she's still a touch homesick, but she's going to try and push past it.]
Ah, really? Sounds like fun. We should do that again sometime, since you said it's been a few months.
Phew! I got kind of worried there for a minute.
video; IT'S A MIRACLE o:
Yeah. We don't have those often enough.
[He manages a chuckle.] Well, it seems to be working now.
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video; private
[your "secret" is safe with senpai.]
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[Shiiiiiiiiiiit.]
video; semi-private - holy shit we bred a new kind of faillock
[IS IT TIME TO CALL ON OPERATION: DISTRACT NAOTO-KUN FROM THE NETWORK?]