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animus_network2013-04-21 03:01 pm
slightlyoblivious) wrote in animus_network2013-04-21 03:01 pm
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Hello, everyone. This is Yukiko Amagi.
...I was one of the people that was modified last week. I wanted to apologize to anyone I hurt when I wasn't entirely in control of myself. I know that what happened wasn't my fault, but it still hurt other people. I never wanted to do that, and I'm sorry.
[She pauses for a moment, fiddling with her hair, then takes a deep breath and looks into the camera, to continue.]
Something else that I wanted to say is that I understand what it's like to look at what you did when you weren't entirely yourself and be shocked. It really hurts, and it makes you look at yourself differently. But I want everyone to remember this: we all have our shadows. Those shadows may not be pleasant, and they might hurt sometimes. But they shouldn't hold you back, either. The best thing to do is to find a way to accept your shadows and then move forward.
It isn't the easy path to take, but it's the one where you'll find the strength to go forward. I know, because I've been there, and I'm stronger for it.
[And her expression softens, and she manages a little smile.]
The last thing I wanted to say here is that I'm not angry at anyone who was ordering me around or anyone that hurt me. I know that wasn't really you talking, and I know people do things when they're afraid that they wouldn't normally do. I forgive you. I understand if you don't want to be friends, but if you ever want to talk or anything, you can come find me.
Inaba folks, check-in? Are you okay, after all that?
...I was one of the people that was modified last week. I wanted to apologize to anyone I hurt when I wasn't entirely in control of myself. I know that what happened wasn't my fault, but it still hurt other people. I never wanted to do that, and I'm sorry.
[She pauses for a moment, fiddling with her hair, then takes a deep breath and looks into the camera, to continue.]
Something else that I wanted to say is that I understand what it's like to look at what you did when you weren't entirely yourself and be shocked. It really hurts, and it makes you look at yourself differently. But I want everyone to remember this: we all have our shadows. Those shadows may not be pleasant, and they might hurt sometimes. But they shouldn't hold you back, either. The best thing to do is to find a way to accept your shadows and then move forward.
It isn't the easy path to take, but it's the one where you'll find the strength to go forward. I know, because I've been there, and I'm stronger for it.
[And her expression softens, and she manages a little smile.]
The last thing I wanted to say here is that I'm not angry at anyone who was ordering me around or anyone that hurt me. I know that wasn't really you talking, and I know people do things when they're afraid that they wouldn't normally do. I forgive you. I understand if you don't want to be friends, but if you ever want to talk or anything, you can come find me.
Inaba folks, check-in? Are you okay, after all that?
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I... feel the same way about what happened. I'm sorry you had to go through that.
But... shadows? Like the Jungian idea?
[Hallelujah stop laughing dammit.]
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Mm. I tried looking it up in the school library back home once, and it's something like that, though the library resources were pretty limited. That's part of it when you're from a small town, I guess.
[She can't help a bit of sheepish laughter.]
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[He offers her a tiny smile.]
I didn't really get access to information outside of what I was given me until I was thirteen or so... it's not the same but I sort of have an idea.
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[She smiles back.]
It must be hard, in a situation like that...
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[He nods a little, but rubs the back of his neck.]
It was normal for me, I guess.