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I apologize for this in advance, but I feel like I'm having a hard time fitting in here.

I don't think I do enough to help everyone here. I can't save anyone. Half of my abilities don't work for me anymore.

I am a liability. Several people waste their time keeping me safe even though I have nothing to contribute.

I don't know what to do anymore. Even asking for advice like this is selfish of me, I know, but I can't think of anything else to do. I don't want to sit around and do nothing but it feels like that's all I've been doing, and whenever I turn to action, it just causes grief.

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Housework and food are what I want most.

That's just what I've been doing! I know people need to be fed properly, but that isn't keeping anyone safe either!

If I don't get food, I'll starve, which means I can't protect people. So you'd be keeping people safe.

I used to make meals everyday in the cafeteria for all three mealtimes. It's enough to feed as many people as possible.

But after what happened, I've been neglecting that duty. I will take it up again.

What do you want me to do for you? ...if you save me a portion every day.

Just protect as many people as you can. Do what I can't.

I can save you a portion, that isn't a problem.

I might be lazy but I'm not going to play that kind of unfair game either. So what do you want? Good luck? Some kind of holy weapon?

I don't need anything like that. Everything that I really want are things I have to do myself.

If you say something like that again, I'll have to punch whoever I find in the kitchen cooking until I get the right person.

I apologize for making you feel that way.

But I know that I have to improve my situation on my own. I can ask for advice, but no one can do it for me.

And that's stupid. Only the worst kind of friend would say they can't rely on their other friends.

I don't know if I've ever had a friend.

[ She's had a lover, a sister, servants, acquaintances, but never any real friends. ]

If you work for me, you'll be my friend. What about that?

It's a bit embarrassing, but you already hate me, so I doubt that.

... You thought that I tried to hurt you with the terminal when I turned it on.

Huh? Oh you. Why would I hate you?

[Reimu is the queen of not holding grudges unless its fairies.]

You were fairly angry with me.

I get angry all the time. Hell, I fight most with my best friend than anyone else.

I can't say that I understand, but if you're alright with it, we can be friends.

Now you can stop saying stupid things.

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