I apologize for this in advance, but I feel like I'm having a hard time fitting in here.

I don't think I do enough to help everyone here. I can't save anyone. Half of my abilities don't work for me anymore.

I am a liability. Several people waste their time keeping me safe even though I have nothing to contribute.

I don't know what to do anymore. Even asking for advice like this is selfish of me, I know, but I can't think of anything else to do. I don't want to sit around and do nothing but it feels like that's all I've been doing, and whenever I turn to action, it just causes grief.

[For a moment, the video shows Meiling looking off into the distance and looks quite angry. She's leaned back in the chair in front of the terminal, twirling a knife with a blue handle in one hand.

It almost seems as if she's forgotten she turned this on or it was on accident until she suddenly sits up and taking a deep breath.]

Alright....So just because things happened does not mean we can just give up on everything.

I know I'm not the best of examples right now but..I'm done sitting around. I want to help.

[She shifts and shrugs a bit, calming herself for now]

I know the Admins can see this so if you don't want to reply here...come find me.

Also..Does anyone know how to fight with or throw knives...Or even without..I kinda want to learn if anyone is willing to teach me.