animus_network | [002 ★ text ★ crazy backdated to before the moving event]

Someone told me that all of the trolls are having trouble sleeping here. I think I can help.

I've made sleep satchets before, these little things that you put under your pillow and guarantee pleasant dreams for a couple months before they run out. The problem is that I only came with so many spell ingredients in my trunk, so unless I can find a way to replace some of this stuff, I can't make these forever.

Not that asking this question will necessarily result in anything resembling the truth, but: does anyone need one more than anyone else?

Asking all this out of the goodness of my heart and preferential treatment, I promise.

[filtered from wwaterboy]

And now to the other part of this post. Also to trolls, sorry. If someone could explain how this matesprit thing actually compares with the human concept of romance, that would be seriously of the good, because I don't know what I'm doing here and I think I need more than the ten second summary if I am going to be doing this.

Which, let me repeat, since I don't know what I'm doing, no judging or yelling at me! I will yell back. That is so not what I need right now. I'm trying to do the right thing and honor my feelings and not stay all hung up on people that have died, which is difficult! But I've never done this "oh, and he also hatesexes someone regularly, but that's not cheating" concept before, and I want to get it right.

It seems bitchy to ask him to explain this stuff to me himself, so... advice. Please? And if you could honor the incredibly obvious filter, that would be great. Don't make me go hacker on you.

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[...hm. He doesn't think the first bit needs responding to. If she knows him at all, she'll know he's agreeing wholeheartedly if perhaps with a grim sort of determination]

yOU DON'T,
hAVE YOU, tOLD HIM YOU'RE FLUSHED FOR HIM, yET,
tHAT MAY BE A GOOD THING TO, fIGURE OUT FIRST IF NOT,

i GUESS, i WILL TAKE YOUR WORD, fOR IT,
sINCE i THINK PERSONALLY, tHAT WOULD FEEL THE, oPPOSITE OF SAFE, tO ME,

[For reasons mentioned previously...]

dO YOU KNOW WHAT YOU WOULD DO,
iF SHE ENDED UP HERE,

I've told him I'm thinking about it, and that I don't really know what I'm doing, and it's pretty obvious that he's interested. But he said he was willing to wait for me to figure it out. He didn't even say that like he was just saying it to say it, but like he really meant it, too, which is just... wow. Major wow.

There's just a lot of expectations with romance. Not that it isn't great, but it does get complicated.

If Kennedy ended up here? I don't know. She was there for me when I was going through something really hard, but... I don't think of her and my heart flutters. I was so lost in grieving Tara when we met that I feel like how I think of her is all wrapped up in that.