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animus_network2012-05-25 08:39 pm
guiltapalooza) wrote in animus_network2012-05-25 08:39 pm
[006 ★ voice] backdated to yesterday
I've been thinking about what to do about the giant spider everyone's been getting eaten by lately, and I think I came up with something. I'm going to ask the admins to get rid of it in the suggestion box. They keep saying they want to help us, so they should put their money where their mouth is.
To anyone that was wondering what it is, someone posted saying it was a lusus? Which is like a big animal thing that acts as a guardian for a troll. Not that that explains why it was eating people, which brings me around to--
Okay, I hardly know you, but Vriska Serket, what the heck where you thinking?! If it's your lusus, you can't exactly have missed what was going on! How could you just let it eat people? I don't care if they came back, it still ate them.
Are all of you that got attacked okay?
To anyone that was wondering what it is, someone posted saying it was a lusus? Which is like a big animal thing that acts as a guardian for a troll. Not that that explains why it was eating people, which brings me around to--
Okay, I hardly know you, but Vriska Serket, what the heck where you thinking?! If it's your lusus, you can't exactly have missed what was going on! How could you just let it eat people? I don't care if they came back, it still ate them.
Are all of you that got attacked okay?
Hahaha yeah, it could always be worse. It could be LJ.
Cause... you getting hurt, would be bad. I can help you with the healing, if you still need it. We're good at that. Teamwork.
[That's probably crossing that aforementioned line a little, but Willow can't bring herself to care. Not when Tara might be hurt.
And though she appreciates Tara trying to make her feel better, she just wilts.] No, I-- okay, I repaired the Buffybot when it needed repairing, but the time while Buffy was dead wasn't exactly my most stunning display of maturity. You don't even want to know what I said to Giles.
All I've done since I got here is get into fights and make bad choices, and... and miss you, and everyone else. I'm not doing so hot on the scale of great things.
I still stalk the news page. Trainwreck. Also, /high five~
...even so, at the offer, she hesitates. She considers. Willow could probably help her along a bit, and it would be nice, the feeling of being able to ask her to help and get it.
And then she mentally kicks herself for considering.]
Y-You getting hurt, um, w-would be bad, too. [There are words unsaid, in that. Eridan's words unsaid, because Willow's new boyfriend had been more than willing to share all the things that made the tower gruesome.] Um, I-I'm okay. Just...kind of stiff. But I'm working on it. I, I should be okay in a few days.
...but, um, m-maybe you can just...check. M-Make sure I'm, um, doing it all right.
[Tara is just as unfamiliar with the boundaries as Willow. She found herself not hating Eridan, even seeing bits of why Willow might love him, die with him, and she doesn't want to cross any lines and make them unhappy. Even so, she finds herself unable to entirely push Willow away. Not when it comes to magic. Magic is intimate, yes, but it's intimate on a different level.]
No, it wasn't. [And the very least she still owes Willow is her honesty. But then, hastily, remembering their situation:] I-I mean...if you were anything like w-what you were with me. I, I-I don't know. But, um...y-you were trying. Before everything. And you did keep us all safe. And here, you're already trying to figure this place out. I heard.
And you know you've made bad decisions, which...you didn't, before. And it's okay to miss us. I, I-I've missed you. And Dawnie.
...i-it's a good start. I mean that.
[voice / private] I get so much secondhand embarrassment from the LJ news. o/
I'd be happy to check, [she says in relief, not just to have the topic change but to have an excuse to see Tara. Which is bad of her. Very bad. But she does want to see her, as much as she can. It still feels like any day she'll disappear, and she'll only have her memories again.] When should I come up?
And I think aside from... who died... our lives went pretty similar. Safe to say. [She's reluctant to accept any credit, but for once the person telling her is someone who knows. And Tara, of all people, would say if she was doing wrong. Willow trusts her completely for that.] It means a lot, that you-- think that. That I'm doing well. [This is so awkward, and stilted.]
But everyone is freaking out about this so much, thinking they have the right answer or that I'm trying to be some big overbearing in charge lady, and I'm not. I don't want to be. I just want there to be no more killing. Why does this have to be so complicated?
Re: [voice / private] The Scrapbook debacle was painful. We got out just in time!
[Tara finally feels as though she has a decent enough mental map of the floors, including the truly dangerous ones, to bring up what Minami mentioned to her. Besides, now she knows that the Willow the other girl mentioned is her Willow. How can she turn down the chance to research and learn with her again? They're stronger now, and...teamwork. Maybe they'll be okay, together.]
I do think that. I mean, obviously, I-I haven't seen a lot, of anything, but...y-you seem, um, calmer. If that makes sense. That's how it feels, to me. [Tara doesn't sense her psychically twitching due to magic addiction. She can tell that there are still scars there, on some level, but if Willow is still an addict, she's obviously one firmly on the road to recovery. If Tara hadn't spent quite so long by herself, she could probably say for certain that Willow was doing better on that front that she was.]
...i-it, it seems like there are a lot of leaders. I mean, I've met a couple. One who's, um, trying to start a council, a-and another who runs the watch, and then those people, w-with the red collars. I mean...I, I don't know if that's good, or bad, but...th-that's what I've seen.
[She sighs sadly, thinking back to Sunnydale. She and Willow certainly have experience with horrible places trying to do horrible things to innocent people. But, when all is said and done, neither of them are leaders.]
It was back home. Not just vampires. Everything. Adam making his, his demon army, and Glory, and...everything. I don't know why it is. You're right. It, i-it shouldn't be. We should just be able to...t-to kill the big white spiders so no one gets eaten and celebrate with milkshakes.
[Then, hastily:] But, um, n-not, not specifically 'we'.
[voice / private]
[There's this strange feeling that reminds Willow of how it was before they'd dated, back when they were still dancing around each other and feeling out the boundaries. They'd been almost overwhelmed with how immediate and easy their connection was, how comfortable, and in the time since Tara's death that sense had turned to nothing more than a hazy memory. Having it crop up again is like their first meeting all over.]
I am calmer. I hope. I'm trying to be calmer. It's... been really hard, but I want to be someone I can be proud of. [It had used to be someone Tara could be proud of, but Willow had grown since then. Realized what it was Tara had been trying to tell her all along: to be strong and good for her own sake, not just for hers.]
--Right, not specifically we, [she says quickly,] just, you know, in general. Milkshakes for everyone. A victory killing party only not about the killing cause, wow, morbid, but just a plain old victory party? [She wonders if they'd have had something like that after the First, if they'd won. If she hadn't come here.] Except we can't. It's so much, like this. So much to deal with.
Re: [voice / private]
[Not that Tara is looking forward to eating. The food here is so relentlessly bland that it's even resisted her efforts to magic herself into believing that it tastes more interesting.
Speaking of which...]
Do, um, do they even have milkshakes, here? Probably not. They're feeding us...well, dorm food. The, the kind you buy in bulk because you can't afford anything else.
Probably easier for them to, um, to take away a giant spider than give us milkshakes.
But we could have a party. I-If we wanted. I mean, some floors are safe, right?
[It's equal parts legitimate curiosity and Tara's attempts at levity. She's found what she thinks are safe floors, but she knows she hasn't been here long enough to say for certain.]
Re: [voice / private]
I think the restaurant might have them sometimes? But I never go there cause they make you do a dangerous task for the food, and, well. It seems a silly reason to risk it, just for more variety. No matter how desperate I get.
And, actually... I had a party a couple months ago, to cheer everyone up. A friendship affirmation party. We probably shouldn't overload the tower with partying. Could turn into a crazy frat house before we know it. --Some floors are safe, though, totally! The one we met on, the meadow? That's safe.