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[While he usually uses audio settings back home, this time he's going to use video. It might help if someone recognizes him, and not just by voice. Which is why everyone can see that he opted not to use the white jumpsuit (because who really would?), and instead used the clothes that he had found in the trunk. Thank god they gave him brushes, too, or his hair would be a mess.]

This connects to the network, yes? This is Tseng, Director of the Department for Administrative Research. ID Number 46952. [There's no confirmation after that, of course, and his eyes narrow.]

After awaking in room 03-04, I found the letter stating that Gaia had been destroyed. Unbelievable, of course, and whoever has decided to play this kind of prank can be assured that their pay will be docked.

[The collar, too, is a nice touch; just enough that it's annoying, and such a garish color.] I'm more concerned with someone touching my things, and somehow knowing what to pack in that trunk. They also left me without a lighter, if there is anyone willing to lend me one for a moment.

Any and all information from a reliable, spoken source, would be appreciated.

[End transmission.]

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[Spooky and Veld. That got him to give a hint of a smile. Veld would have approved.]

I'm sure they were appreciated. [Sephiroth. He can feel the scar throb just at the name; not that it's anything more then a normal scar, but the name brings up the memory of cold steel going through him.]

Like me. I'm afraid there are some discrepancies in our memories. [He glances to the kitchen.]

Is there anything I need to know before eating?

Yeah, I figured. Spooky was here, but... he didn't remember either.

[He's gotten used to it, more or less. Though it's still an odd hollow feeling when it crops up.]

You have to eat the oatmeal first, there aren't any rules here and the people in charge are worse than the Science Department in what they do to people.

[Oatmeal? Could be worse.] Give me a moment, then.

[So long as the oatmeal isn't poisoned, or worse. He wasn't in the mood to deal with that. Coming back later, he has a bowl of oatmeal and a cup of tea for later.]

The smell is much like something from the mess hall. [He takes a bite. Yeah, it tastes worse then it, too. Swallowing, he dabbed at his mouth with a napkin.]

What have they done to people so far?

Never ater there if I could help it.

[There's a tiny grin at that, something of a joke he'd had running.]

Let's see... there was the death tournament, insomnia, some sort of... contest between the jackasses running the joint that involved Science Department level fucking with people from what I've gathered, everyone's abilities going haywire, no food for a month... and that's all I've seen.

There isn't even a bar.

[He contains a grimace, taking another bite.] I suppose it could be worse.

[He means the food.] Dealing with some psychotics, and the chance of death every day. It is fairly reminiscent of points in the past, and I am not such a fan.

[The look he does give Reno is a mixture of amusement and annoyance.] Is there any alcohol in this place?

Dying isn't as much of a problem as it was back on Gaia.

[There was a sigh at that.]

You don't stay dead, no matter what happens or how you die. Even if there shouldn't be anything left to bring back, you still come back.

[It was twisted in ways that even Hojo couldn't possibly achieve.

There was a small grin at the question, and he pulled a bottle with a handmade label with 'ShinRa's Finest' written on it.]

Me and Sparky've been making it. Better than nothing which is what there was.

And people come to this place even if they're dead. Like First Class SOLDIER Zack Fair.

[Unsure if he needs to finish the oatmeal or not, he goes to take a sip from his cup of tea. At the sight of the bottle, he couldn't help but give a genuine laugh at that. He should have known.]

Much better then nothing. I am impressed.

[He'll just reach out to take, if that's okay, wanting to inspect the label.]

...What happened to you? What was it that had you become director? This is not an insult, but despite all we had been through, you had never changed this much.

[A sigh. He knew he'd have to explain better at some point.]

The last thing I did back on Gaia was drop the plate. I personally haven't been through anything that happened back there after that point. Instead I spent nearly six months with Vince and Veld as the only people I knew from Gaia. Sure you were there but... we had a bit of an arguement after the first time I died.

[Rude hadn't been there to be the voice of calm reason to keep him from making stupid descisions. Hell he hadn't even seen the man alive until recently.]

I know the most about how these places work and what's going on outside of it. Sparky isn't ready to be Director and I doubt any of the others want it.

[He didn't have anything waiting for him back on Gaia.]

I'm not the guy you knew anymore, I'm not afraid of the responsibility involved or having to make the hard descisions.

[Frowning, he looked down into his cup of tea for a moment. It wasn't the kind he usually liked; there were no tea leaves floating around in it, and the bag couldn't steep long enough to be anything other then dirty water.

While he would never admit it, there was a part of him that felt all of this was too much. He still felt like he hadn't slept in days; he'd come here straight from being tortured, to saving the president, to now being in this ridiculous tower. Yes, he'd "woken up" in his room, but it wasn't the same thing.]

No. He's not ready to be director. At the point we're from, I would not wish him to become it.

[You could be, he thought, knowing that this Reno had, in fact, become it. It still did not sit right with him, though. No.]

What was the argument about?

You never telling anyone what you're up to, the plate and the ball of inefficent that was. You and I never teaming up. It didn't help that I was drunk off my ass and had just died. We didn't talk for a bit then I broke your nose and it was better.

[You're not Rude, Tseng and neither was Vincent. He'd felt like you couldn't trust him, that no matter how hard he'd ever work he would never be good enough.]

... I get it now though. You had to keep the lot of us safe, and while you still could've told me what you were planning I get it.

[Sometimes having people know can fuck things up.]

[He didn't really trust anyone. Not after everything that had happened with Veld. Trust was not an easy thing to come by, in their world.]

Something as easy as a broken nose seems to fix things, doesn't it? [He took another sip of tea, putting the mug down.]

As you may have noticed, teaming up with someone was never an easy thing for me to do. You worked more effectively with other people then with me.

[He spun the mug around slowly.] That does not mean you were never good enough. Validation might not be something you even want, right now, but I do need you to understand that, if we're to work together, here.

[There's a small laugh and a shrug.]

I'm over it Tseng. Shit like that isn't what really matters, impressing people isn't what being a Turk is about and neither is life. Too much ego gets in the way of being able to do what needs doing.

Don't worry about taking the reigns, I've got things pretty handled.

[He raises an eyebrow at that.]

You have things handled? I'm sorry, but while you may have been director back in your home, I am mine in my own.

Which is to say, while your input would be helpful, I will be handling things from this day forward.

This isn't Gaia Tseng.

[There's a bite of angry venom at that, have you been paying a note of attention to anything?]

But fine. You want to deal with the bullshit and madness this place has to throw at you? You want to deal with the fact that everyone here is about five minutes from descending in to total madness and slaughter? You want to watch everyone lose their Shiva-damn mind when there's nothing you can do to help? You want to try to give the rest of us hope when there's none?

Fine.

Just say the word Tseng and I'll just walk away. I'll walk away and never look back because I don't have a reason to stay other than that they're Turks and they need someone who knows what the fuck is going on to be Director.

[He's angry, so angry Tseng.]

Just say the word and I won't bother any of you again. I know... I know I'm not who any of you want around anyway. I'm not... the person any of you think I am.

[the next part is quiet, barely breathed out.]

I'm not your Reno.

[Oh, Reno. You might not be his Reno, but that doesn't mean you don't still act like him. Not what he's going to bring up, though. Instead, he's just going to hope you'll calm down for a moment, while he checks to see if his tea has steeped some more.]

You jump to conclusions very quickly, none of which are the right ones.

[Nope, the tea hasn't, but he's thirsty enough that he'll take a sip from it anyway.]

It's not about wanting, Reno. I would have hoped that you'd come to understand that, as director. No one wants to be in that position. We don't want to be the one giving others hope, and in fact, we're not supposed to be. We're Turks, we're not Cloud Strife and his friends. Their job is to save the world. Our job is to survive it.

I'm not asking you to walk away. In fact, I'd much prefer that you don't. You may not be my Reno, but that doesn't discount what you've already done here, what you know about this place and what has happened here.

[He took another sip before setting aside the cup for good.]

You're a Reno. Which means the same thing to me as my Reno.

And you're a fucking hypocrite.

[it's a snapped response, cold and harsh.]

If our job is to just survive we would have just let Jade WEAPON destroy things. If you didn't want to give people hope you wouldn't have tried to save Zack.

[and this is where it gets even colder.]

If it was only ever about survival you wouldn't have bullshitted around for ten fucking years to avoid bringing Aerith back in to the labs.

[a snort]

You haven't been listening to a goddamn word I've fucking said Tseng, so may be I need to just fucking spell this shit out for you so it can get through your thick goddamn skull.

Gaia isn't my home anymore. I may be a Turk, but I'm not going to roll over like some goddamn dog for the company. President Fucking ShinRa could walk in to this room right now and order me to do something? And I'd fucking laugh in his face and walk away.

My goal here isn't to go back home, I don't want to and I will fight anyone that tries to force me. I know what happens and there's nothing for me there anymore. What I want is to get you guys back home, where you belong.

You asking me to step aside so you can do whatever the fuck you think I need is essentially telling me to walk away. I don't have anything else Tseng.

You don't know what you're talking about, Reno, so shut the fuck up. Just shut up. You think you've changed, that you're not much different then how you were back home.

You're wrong. And if your goal is to get us back home, then stepping aside and letting me lead my people wouldn't affect you in this way.

This isn't about you, Reno. It never has been. I'm telling you to step aside so that I can lead my people in whatever they might need. I'm not doing any of this so you stop looking for a way home. For our home. I'm just letting you know that you don't need to worry about keeping the group together. I am capable of doing that.

Fine.

[And with that Reno just turns and stalks away. He can't bring himself to care anymore, if this was how things were going to be then he wouldn't be a part of it.

He had his own survival to worry about and Tseng could just go and fuck himself at this point.]

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[offline] ffffff i am so sorry about this mess of renodramas you've been thrown in to.