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animus_network2013-02-28 12:37 am
cullscuttlefish) wrote in animus_network2013-02-28 12:37 am
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[Feferi's gray skin looks pale as she steps forward, and it's clear that she's shaking. But she takes a deep breath, because this is too important not to tell everyone.]
My name is Feferi Peixes. Anyone who knows me knows I'm infamous for fish puns, but I'm going to hold off on them here, just so the message is as clear as possible. I don't want it to get twisted by a bad turn of phrase.
The message you all saw about the soul thing...it's true. I know, because...
[She takes another deep breath, swallowing hard.]
I went down the elevator, with some others, when we saw it open. We had to take the chance. We needed to know what was down there.
When the group I was with saw a soul being extracted from a dead person, we couldn't believe what we were seeing. More than anything, we knew what a precious thing that was. We didn't want it to be harmed, and so we followed where the retrieval unit was taking it.
...we didn't expect that it would be carrying the soul straight to Jason. We confronted him, we refused to give up the presence of the other groups that were in the administrators' area, and he punished us by forcing us to go through the soul extraction and re-implantation processes while we were still conscious.
Before I go on any further, I have to stress this point: DO NOT TAKE THIS AS AN INVITATION TO CONFRONT JASON. He will not hesitate to put you through that process, and no one should ever have to experience a thing like that. I don't want anyone to consider this as an invitation to take some kind of vengeance. That path only leads to pain.
I didn't think that he was actually capable of anything close to mercy until I went through that. Everyone in this tower has been through it while unconscious, and that is truly a mercy. When it happens, your body is taken downstairs and placed into a sphere. That sphere fills with a violet liquid, and then it begins to contract.
[Tears start to run down her cheeks as she remembers, and her voice cracks.]
It quite literally squeezes your soul out of your body, and that is like no physical pain in this or any other universe. I don't think there is a single word that is capable of describing it. Agony isn't strong enough, because the pain keeps going while you feel your body stop working.
And even when you are only that shining light, the pain doesn't fade immediately. It takes time.
Then, you're surgically put into - into a...a new body. I...
[She can't keep talking. She breaks down sobbing, and then the feed cuts.]
My name is Feferi Peixes. Anyone who knows me knows I'm infamous for fish puns, but I'm going to hold off on them here, just so the message is as clear as possible. I don't want it to get twisted by a bad turn of phrase.
The message you all saw about the soul thing...it's true. I know, because...
[She takes another deep breath, swallowing hard.]
I went down the elevator, with some others, when we saw it open. We had to take the chance. We needed to know what was down there.
When the group I was with saw a soul being extracted from a dead person, we couldn't believe what we were seeing. More than anything, we knew what a precious thing that was. We didn't want it to be harmed, and so we followed where the retrieval unit was taking it.
...we didn't expect that it would be carrying the soul straight to Jason. We confronted him, we refused to give up the presence of the other groups that were in the administrators' area, and he punished us by forcing us to go through the soul extraction and re-implantation processes while we were still conscious.
Before I go on any further, I have to stress this point: DO NOT TAKE THIS AS AN INVITATION TO CONFRONT JASON. He will not hesitate to put you through that process, and no one should ever have to experience a thing like that. I don't want anyone to consider this as an invitation to take some kind of vengeance. That path only leads to pain.
I didn't think that he was actually capable of anything close to mercy until I went through that. Everyone in this tower has been through it while unconscious, and that is truly a mercy. When it happens, your body is taken downstairs and placed into a sphere. That sphere fills with a violet liquid, and then it begins to contract.
[Tears start to run down her cheeks as she remembers, and her voice cracks.]
It quite literally squeezes your soul out of your body, and that is like no physical pain in this or any other universe. I don't think there is a single word that is capable of describing it. Agony isn't strong enough, because the pain keeps going while you feel your body stop working.
And even when you are only that shining light, the pain doesn't fade immediately. It takes time.
Then, you're surgically put into - into a...a new body. I...
[She can't keep talking. She breaks down sobbing, and then the feed cuts.]
[action]
But he knew he had to comfort Feferi, in the least. She was his friend and she was absolutely upset, this month has been even harder for her than it has for Kidou, after all.
He learned of her location after looking back on some of the messages on her post, and quickly made his way up there, where he immediately gathered Feferi into his arms without saying a word.
Shh, big brother Kidou is here.]
[action]
She'd known the entire time she was down there that she couldn't break down. That she needed to get the information out, one way or another. She hadn't expected to have that - that thing tell everyone first, and being the one to confirm the news, and not break it, had made things harder. Until that point, it could have just been explained away as a monster's lie.
But it didn't seem fair to anyone who had been there to let them keep living a lie. Feferi didn't want that. After seeing what happened to Dax - and realizing how much she'd really misunderstood him - she felt, deep-down, that he wouldn't want them living a lie like that either.
That still didn't make telling the truth any easier. Experiencing it had been one thing, but telling it, another entirely.]