animus_network | second vision: exhaustion

If I'm right, it's coming up on a year for me since I arrived. Just about three more months, I think.

So, I'd like to pose a question to anyone who has been here longer than I:

How do you deal with it? How do you deal with the ennui, the endless stretches of nothing when the administrators aren't up to tricks? How do you deal with knowing you might never leave?

I had a purpose back home, but here I do not. I am not even a pawn anymore. It's a sad day when you miss being a pawn, isn't it?

Is this how a puppet feels when its strings are cut and it is thrown into the trash?

...Sorry. I just really needed to vent, in the end. Even if it was just over the network. Then again, it's kind of like the internet in that respect, when you think about it.

Thanks for hearing me out. Well, if you didn't, that's fine too. I know I probably sound like a whiny teenager. (Well, I AM a teenager, but that's beside the point, don't you think?) :)

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I think you're right.

This is just like the Lockdown back home, when we were all trapped in one place and couldn't leave or return to our "normal" lives. The only difference is that it's going on for so long and there's no end in sight.

You've got a point.

Do you think pestering the admins until they give me back that one disabled power of mine would be a good new purpose? :)

That would certainly take up a lot of spare time....

I'm not sure they would give it back, though.

It'd still kill the time, though!

second vision: exhaustion | text

[text] you should be gomen she's got horrible plans now

[text] oh no

[text] oh no INDEED