second vision: exhaustion | text

[sawthelockdown]

If I'm right, it's coming up on a year for me since I arrived. Just about three more months, I think.

So, I'd like to pose a question to anyone who has been here longer than I:

How do you deal with it? How do you deal with the ennui, the endless stretches of nothing when the administrators aren't up to tricks? How do you deal with knowing you might never leave?

I had a purpose back home, but here I do not. I am not even a pawn anymore. It's a sad day when you miss being a pawn, isn't it?

Is this how a puppet feels when its strings are cut and it is thrown into the trash?


...Sorry. I just really needed to vent, in the end. Even if it was just over the network. Then again, it's kind of like the internet in that respect, when you think about it.

Thanks for hearing me out. Well, if you didn't, that's fine too. I know I probably sound like a whiny teenager. (Well, I AM a teenager, but that's beside the point, don't you think?) :)

Comments

[puppy_lancer]

really now
not even a scent left behind?

[sawthelockdown]

Knowing him?

Probably not. :(

[puppy_lancer]

that's some sneaking
next time why don't you just try to keep him by your side longer?

[sawthelockdown]

Because he's annoying!!!

But also because he's always liked having time to himself. I know it's the younger one's job to be annoying, but I'm not gonna be that annoying. He's had a bad enough time of it as it is, you know?

[puppy_lancer]

i get it
as long as he shows up at the right times
nothing else matters, right?

[sawthelockdown]

Guess so. As long as nothing bad happens, it's okay.