second vision: exhaustion | text

[sawthelockdown]

If I'm right, it's coming up on a year for me since I arrived. Just about three more months, I think.

So, I'd like to pose a question to anyone who has been here longer than I:

How do you deal with it? How do you deal with the ennui, the endless stretches of nothing when the administrators aren't up to tricks? How do you deal with knowing you might never leave?

I had a purpose back home, but here I do not. I am not even a pawn anymore. It's a sad day when you miss being a pawn, isn't it?

Is this how a puppet feels when its strings are cut and it is thrown into the trash?


...Sorry. I just really needed to vent, in the end. Even if it was just over the network. Then again, it's kind of like the internet in that respect, when you think about it.

Thanks for hearing me out. Well, if you didn't, that's fine too. I know I probably sound like a whiny teenager. (Well, I AM a teenager, but that's beside the point, don't you think?) :)

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[sawthelockdown]

[Blah! Now she just looks sulky, but...at least she isn't talking mad things now.]

Fine, fine.

[crouching_sin]

[He leans over and ruffles her hair fondly.]

It's been a while since we've just... talked, hm?

[sawthelockdown]

[She is not smiling at being hairruffled, really!]

Yeah, it really has.

[crouching_sin]

[Yeah okay, little sister.]

What have you been getting up to? Anything I need to drag you out of?

[sawthelockdown]

I'm not that irresponsible! I do use logic, y'know!

[Yes, but what kind of logic?]

...Anyway, no, I haven't really been up to anything. Think that might be part of the problem...

[crouching_sin]

Mm. You could help with gathering food. It's a Jason month, after all. And I'm sure people would appreciate it. I do also have things that you could do, but... it's up to you. I'm not going to force you.

[They're dangerous, anyway. And he's not sure if he wants to get her mixed up in this.]

[sawthelockdown]

...Mrrrrrrrr! That hadn't even occurred to me! Gah!

[And if Naoya wasn't already convinced that Asako Logic =/= Earth Logic...]

Well, if there's anything you need help with, I really would be glad to help. ...aaaas long as it doesn't lead to the tower blowing up with everyone still inside, that is. I'm drawing the line right there.

[crouching_sin]

I assure you, that is not on my list. No, actually. There's someone I want you to meet. He's very... unsure about himself, and you seem to have a way of charming people. I won't force you to be friends, but I'd like to have an eye kept on him.

[sawthelockdown]

Fine, fine, that doesn't sound too difficult. Besides, we might end up friends anyway, who knows. Who is it?