second vision: exhaustion | text

[sawthelockdown]

If I'm right, it's coming up on a year for me since I arrived. Just about three more months, I think.

So, I'd like to pose a question to anyone who has been here longer than I:

How do you deal with it? How do you deal with the ennui, the endless stretches of nothing when the administrators aren't up to tricks? How do you deal with knowing you might never leave?

I had a purpose back home, but here I do not. I am not even a pawn anymore. It's a sad day when you miss being a pawn, isn't it?

Is this how a puppet feels when its strings are cut and it is thrown into the trash?


...Sorry. I just really needed to vent, in the end. Even if it was just over the network. Then again, it's kind of like the internet in that respect, when you think about it.

Thanks for hearing me out. Well, if you didn't, that's fine too. I know I probably sound like a whiny teenager. (Well, I AM a teenager, but that's beside the point, don't you think?) :)

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[sawthelockdown]

You try being born able to see the future. It's difficult to think otherwise.

True enough! I guess I need to get a hobby.
Pestering the admins should work, right?

[#yololyfe]

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[morituramfides]

You try having portents of doom in your head and call me in the morning. Being aimless is pretty easy.

I'd say it's more of a junior training course.
Unfortunately it's hard to get a window to pester them on a regular basis.

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[sawthelockdown]

The future, portents of doom, it's all the same in the end, wouldn't you say?

A junior training course? Then what would the advanced classes be?? :D
There's always the suggestions box, though!

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[morituramfides]

That's some bold-faced pessimism if I ever saw it.

True, but they only give a shit about the suggestion box at the start of the month.
Advanced courses involve intentionally provoking them when they're off-duty. Results usually turn out to be pretty shit.