second vision: exhaustion | text

[sawthelockdown]

If I'm right, it's coming up on a year for me since I arrived. Just about three more months, I think.

So, I'd like to pose a question to anyone who has been here longer than I:

How do you deal with it? How do you deal with the ennui, the endless stretches of nothing when the administrators aren't up to tricks? How do you deal with knowing you might never leave?

I had a purpose back home, but here I do not. I am not even a pawn anymore. It's a sad day when you miss being a pawn, isn't it?

Is this how a puppet feels when its strings are cut and it is thrown into the trash?


...Sorry. I just really needed to vent, in the end. Even if it was just over the network. Then again, it's kind of like the internet in that respect, when you think about it.

Thanks for hearing me out. Well, if you didn't, that's fine too. I know I probably sound like a whiny teenager. (Well, I AM a teenager, but that's beside the point, don't you think?) :)

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That's right! I'm a country. Well, "was" is kind of more the appropriate word for a variety of reasons, but the point still stands. There's a few other countries here too, I think.

Boredom sucks, it really does. But if you do what you can, you might find purpose again eventually. And if you go exploring the floors, be careful! I mean, that goes without saying, but yeah.