i. anon text (possible action)

[monstrueux]

[Typing comes slowly to Gilles, who never used a keyboard in his life, and whose fingernails are almost more like claws than human nails. Nevertheless, these shortcomings aside, a conversation with Lancer and the example of the anon meme have given him an inadvisable idea. He is about to join the proud ranks of those who have asked for love advice on the Tower Network.]

my friends!!

i come to you to ask your advice ! i believe i might be in love but how do you you tell if oyu are?? if iam how do i maek my intentions knowN? please advice me as to what i should do?

my thanks!

[Also, as Gilles is big and obvious and takes ages to dramatically type his replies, it is quite possible for one to encounter him in the library, where he is eagerly awaiting replies that may assist him in his hour of need.]

Comments

[monstrueux]

Ah, I...

[What can he say?]

I was asking questions, like on the anonymous letter the other day!

[He's not sure what to call it other than a letter.]

To receive opinions.

[He's still glancing away guiltily.]

[thirtybits]

Ah, it's called a post actually, but I understand what you mean! And what is it you're asking? I don't know if my opinion's good for much, but...

[monstrueux]

Like a signpost!

[Gilles considers. Now that he's been caught, Judas could see his "post" on any of the computers. And he should trust Judas. Judas is his friend, who didn't judge him when he heard of his crimes, so he will not do so now.]

I may be in love! But I do not know what to do.

[thirtybits]

That's right.

[--Well, that wasn't what he was expecting to hear.]

Really? [He can't help laughing a little.] Why not tell them?

cw: mentions of execution

[monstrueux]

I do not know... I love Jeanne. How can I love another? What should I do? In my time, this was not done. I could have been burned for such a thing!

[Although... Consider what had happened...]

Not that that ever stopped me from doing things...

[But still, he's not used to this.]

Re: cw: mentions of execution

[thirtybits]

Ah, I guess that is a bit of a problem...

[He frowns.]

But you love Jeanne from a distance, don't you? It's more like you admire her...you can't, uh, be with or marry a holy virgin, after all...

[monstrueux]

Yes, her purity must be maintained. She was chosen by God! I am not worthy to be with one such as her, she is so far above me, leagues above. I am barely worthy to lie at her feet. No, not even that.

[He could go on in this vein for quite a while these days, but he manages to stay on task.]

But Ryuunosuke--is like me!

[thirtybits]

Then it's not as if you would have two lovers. It's two different forms of love, both expressed very differently. Almost the difference between love for family and for a lover?

[monstrueux]

I had not thought of it that way, Judas. You are wise!

Have you ever had a lover?

[thirtybits]

W-what, me? No...!

[He draws his arms up to his body, tugging at his lapels. Clearly very distressed and uncomfortable with the question.]

[monstrueux]

Judas!

[Gilles stares at him for a few moments.]

Are you... a virgin?

[Due to Gilles' decidedly poor ability to read others' emotions, he doesn't realize how much this subject is distressing Judas. Also, he is very nosy.]

[thirtybits]

[He jumps, stammering a few times before finally answering.]

Yes...

[monstrueux]

Ah, but Judas, you are a grown man. You should taste the fruits of pleasure! We must find you someone to love!

[thirtybits]

I-I'm fine, it's fine...!!

[monstrueux]

No, no, I must assist you! I insist. After all, you have done so much for me.

[Gilles puts his hand over his heart.]

I vow that I will find you a suitable lover!

[thirtybits]

You really don't have to...!! I don't think...I want to...

[monstrueux]

Of course you do! It is wonderful to be in love, Judas! It makes your heart beat faster and your blood race and your stomach queasy! To love someone else and be loved in return, there is almost nothing finer!

[thirtybits]

I don't feel I deserve that, and besides...I don't have the, uh, disposition.

[Judas would have a heart attack before he could even kiss someone tbh]

[monstrueux]

Yes you do, Judas! You have been so wonderful to me, so kind and forgiving! If I were not already in love, I would be your lover.

You simply do not know! Once you've experienced it, you will understand!

[thirtybits]

Um...thanks...

I think if I've gone this long then it's not really a problem...

[Granted all but maybe 25 years were spent in Hell...]

[monstrueux]

You are welcome! Beautiful Judas! Who would not want you?

[Gilles beams.]

It only means that your poor heart has been locked away. It has been far too long! We must act at once.

[thirtybits]

I can't imagine who would?

[monstrueux]

I've already said I do! So you need not imagine. But I know there must be others.

I know many people in the Tower. I can help you. And I will!

[thirtybits]

I really think it's better not to. Peter and Andrew used to try...it was awful...

[monstrueux]

I will not make the mistakes they did!

[Not that he knows what those are. But it's true, he'll probably make his own individual mistakes.]

Do not let your first disappointments turn you away from love. Love transformed my life!

[Not necessarily in a good way.]

Yes, you need not fear, Gilles de Rais is by your side.