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animus_network2014-04-12 08:11 pm
fragileprophet) wrote in animus_network2014-04-12 08:11 pm
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video; backdated to April 3rd
[Ion clears his throat as the feed comes to life. He looks tired and shaken and most definitely uncertain about his choice to make this message a video.]
I apologize for any trouble I may experience in this recording, I...I'm afraid I'm not terribly used to using the Network, but I have an important announcement I feel is necessary to make. It's...
[He hesitates, taking a deep breath before he continues on.]
...it's been a few days since those of us who were transported to outside of the Tower returned. I'm sure many of you know Patrick Dawn. He was my roommate and my friend. I wasn't sure what to think when he didn't wake up with the rest of us. I kept hoping...
[Again, he pauses. Ion's face turns a bit stonier and he gets to the point.]
He died. Outside. I followed him when he wandered off and I meant to bring him back to the group but he--there was an accident with a machine.
[For most of the message thus far Ion had been unable to make direct eye contact with the screen, but here he looks up, eyes pleading.]
It's with a heavy heart I inform everyone that I do not believe Rick will be returning. I'm sorry. I couldn't save him. If anyone would like to join me and share in saying kind words, I'm going to be paying my respects to him tomorrow on the forty-eighth floor.
[With that said, Ion makes to turn off the feed but then hesitates, his expression darkening further. After a brief deliberation he speaks again.]
I have something else to say, and I hope you can forgive me for not...bringing this subject to light sooner. I should have, but I'll admit that I've been afraid to. For those of you I haven't already informed, on February 14th, Ruana...[Here Ion struggles briefly with his words.]...disposed of her heart.
[As an afterthought, he adds one final thought--] Please be careful. [--before the feed goes dark.]
((ooc: Ion will reply to any replies made to this post, but he may not be particularly talkative.))
I apologize for any trouble I may experience in this recording, I...I'm afraid I'm not terribly used to using the Network, but I have an important announcement I feel is necessary to make. It's...
[He hesitates, taking a deep breath before he continues on.]
...it's been a few days since those of us who were transported to outside of the Tower returned. I'm sure many of you know Patrick Dawn. He was my roommate and my friend. I wasn't sure what to think when he didn't wake up with the rest of us. I kept hoping...
[Again, he pauses. Ion's face turns a bit stonier and he gets to the point.]
He died. Outside. I followed him when he wandered off and I meant to bring him back to the group but he--there was an accident with a machine.
[For most of the message thus far Ion had been unable to make direct eye contact with the screen, but here he looks up, eyes pleading.]
It's with a heavy heart I inform everyone that I do not believe Rick will be returning. I'm sorry. I couldn't save him. If anyone would like to join me and share in saying kind words, I'm going to be paying my respects to him tomorrow on the forty-eighth floor.
[With that said, Ion makes to turn off the feed but then hesitates, his expression darkening further. After a brief deliberation he speaks again.]
I have something else to say, and I hope you can forgive me for not...bringing this subject to light sooner. I should have, but I'll admit that I've been afraid to. For those of you I haven't already informed, on February 14th, Ruana...[Here Ion struggles briefly with his words.]...disposed of her heart.
[As an afterthought, he adds one final thought--] Please be careful. [--before the feed goes dark.]
((ooc: Ion will reply to any replies made to this post, but he may not be particularly talkative.))
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[Ion's gaze flutters down, as if ashamed.]
I wish I did, but I don't. I didn't see her in person when it happened. She never gave me an explanation.
[Unconsciously his arms come up to wrap around himself, his already pale knuckles gripping tightly into his sleeves.]
I've never been able to understand her. I don't know if I ever could.
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Hey, no need to apologize. It sounds to me like this whole thing was outside your control. She probably wanted to keep you in the dark.
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[Ion frowns, unsure exactly of what it is he's trying to say. There's really no reason for him to keep talking, but he can't seem to stop himself from continuing.]
...I wish she hadn't. Ruana's done a great number of inexcusable things to the people of the Tower, but I can't help wondering why she felt this was something she needed to do.
[A hand comes up to rest against his own heart.]
Was she hurting? Is that why she didn't want to feel any longer? Maybe if she had just spoken about it...if she hadn't kept it all inside...she could have been persuaded.
[Ion shakes his head. Of course nothing could change what happened, and Ion's not fool enough to think that she'd have been much kinder if she had kept her heart...but still. A cruel Ruana with a heart had to be better than one without.]
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The only thing he can think of is trying to escape the repercussions of her actions. Maybe escaping the pain and guilt that stem from her actions. After all, destroy the good part of the heart, and you lose the morals that go with it. Assuming she had any at all.
Riku's body droops, and his hands fall to his lap. It's a tough call, and he's not even sure how he feels about all this.]
Well, you gotta remember that she's been here longer than any of us have even been alive. At least, longer than most of us have. After all that time, it would've taken a miracle to persuade her. Still, willingly getting rid of a heart...
[His fingers grip at his shirt, and he sighs.]
I feel like living with painful emotions is still better than none at all.