second vision: exhaustion | text

[sawthelockdown]

If I'm right, it's coming up on a year for me since I arrived. Just about three more months, I think.

So, I'd like to pose a question to anyone who has been here longer than I:

How do you deal with it? How do you deal with the ennui, the endless stretches of nothing when the administrators aren't up to tricks? How do you deal with knowing you might never leave?

I had a purpose back home, but here I do not. I am not even a pawn anymore. It's a sad day when you miss being a pawn, isn't it?

Is this how a puppet feels when its strings are cut and it is thrown into the trash?


...Sorry. I just really needed to vent, in the end. Even if it was just over the network. Then again, it's kind of like the internet in that respect, when you think about it.

Thanks for hearing me out. Well, if you didn't, that's fine too. I know I probably sound like a whiny teenager. (Well, I AM a teenager, but that's beside the point, don't you think?) :)

Comments

[sawthelockdown]

My cousin's just a smug jerk who's WAY too good at disappearing, even with those damn sandals going clack-clack-clack!!! }:( And I don't think he's out helping people though. I mean, you two met, right? He's probably off giving them hell.

(disclaimer tho I am the younger relative and so it's kind of my job to be an insufferable brat, I think. :))

[puppy_lancer]

yeah, i've seen him
sorry for saying this but he's kind of an ass
is he a bit better about telling you the truth now?

[sawthelockdown]

Naw, it's cool. I say he's an ass all the time, 'cause it's true, and because of the whole bratty little sibling thing. :) The noogies keep my skull strong!

The first problem is locating him. Unfortunately. :( Jerk's a ninja, remember.

[puppy_lancer]

really now
not even a scent left behind?

[sawthelockdown]

Knowing him?

Probably not. :(

[puppy_lancer]

that's some sneaking
next time why don't you just try to keep him by your side longer?

[sawthelockdown]

Because he's annoying!!!

But also because he's always liked having time to himself. I know it's the younger one's job to be annoying, but I'm not gonna be that annoying. He's had a bad enough time of it as it is, you know?

[puppy_lancer]

i get it
as long as he shows up at the right times
nothing else matters, right?

[sawthelockdown]

Guess so. As long as nothing bad happens, it's okay.