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SO 1 4M NOT SUR3 HOW M4NY OF YOU H4V3 NOT1C3D TH3 G14NT WH1T3 SP1D3R R4MP4G1NG 4ROUND SOM3 OF TH3 FLOORS
BUT 1T H4S B33N 34T1NG P3OPL3
M3 1NCLUD3D!
1T 1S VR1SK4 S3RK3T'S LUSUS, BUT 4PP4R3NTLY SH3 D3C1D3D NOT TO W4RN 4NYON3 1T W4S H3R3 OR CONTROL 1T
SO 1 SUPPOS3 4LL OF US H4V3 TO T4K3 UP TH3 SL4CK, 4S USU4L!
1 4M NOT SUR3 1F 1T R3V1V3S L1K3 W3 DO, BUT 1'M GU3SS1NG Y3S
DO3S 4NYON3 H4V3 4NY SUGG3ST1ONS?

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[caliginous]

I was desperate.

[Which is a yes.]

She started feeding herself for a while. I guess because my feedings weren't frequent enough, because frankly, I hate the job. So I stopped completely once she started that. Now...I don't know what happened.

[He looks away.]

But it wasn't me.

[scalemate]

[At least he's being honest, but she's still really hurt. She's trying to seem like she's only angry, but his stupid Heart powers are making that fail.]

There are a million people in this tower who deserve it, and you decided to just murder a bunch instead?

[caliginous]

I don't exactly have the luxury of choice.

[Its easier to ignore when he's not looking at her.]

[scalemate]

[Well, that makes the anger flare up again at least!]

Liar. You wanted to take the easy way out.

[caliginous]

[That gets his attention. His eyes flick upward and narrow a bit.]

I wasn't looking to die. That's all.

[scalemate]

I would have helped you, stupid.

[caliginous]

Don't you get it? I don't want you involved. I don't even want to do it! I just--

[Oh, he's fit to burst. He just throws his hands up and pushes himself to his feet.]

[scalemate]

[She reaches out to snag his wrist before he can leave, because nope.]

Why didn't you want me involved?

[caliginous]

[He immediately tries to pull away because nope nope nope nope.]

Because I don't do this for fun, Terezi. She's my lusus.

[scalemate]

[NOPE NOT LETTING GO.]

I never said it was fun. It would have been easier.

[caliginous]

I don't care.

[STILL TUGGING]

[scalemate]

[She actually... Looks kind of taken aback by that response? She lets go of his wrist.]

Fine.

[caliginous]

[He senses that and gets a little indignant, unable to control the flare in his temper.]

Yeah wow, look at that, Vantas actually does care about people besides himself! Its a pretty insane revelation, I know! So out of this world the Purrfection herself could see it from the next god damn star system! Whodathunk?

[He punches the door to try and trigger it to open, but fails miserably. So he swipes at the mechanism again to force it open, so that he can leave.

Except he doesn't--he kind of stops, obviously with some effort.]

I told you. It got out of hand. I don't know what else you want from me, but there it is. There's nothing else I can do about it. I'm a callous, indiscriminate, despicable murderer. I get it.

[scalemate]

[Her voice rises in response, and she plants her hands on her hips stubbornly.]

That isn't what I said! I just don't get why you didn't trust me!

[caliginous]

I already told you why I didn't say anything. I'm not going to say it again. But now you know, so you can decide what you want to do with the information.

[His pokerface is pristine.]

[scalemate]

[She is rolling her eyes so hard.]

Stop it.

[caliginous]

Stop what Terezi?

[scalemate]

Stop acting so apathetic. It isn't working.

[caliginous]

Its your call.

[wow he...flat out ignored that. But then, he is pretty tired of losing all the things he cares about and dying and screwing up and all that fun stuff. So the apathy isn't a total act. Just an unattractive defense mechanism.]

[scalemate]

[He gets another eyeroll, and now she crosses her arms. Suddenly she's exhausted.]

What do you want to do about her?

[caliginous]

I have no idea. Killing her won't work. The Tower just brings her back twice as mad.

[the thought of it also seems to make him slightly ill. Its still his lusus.]

GO TO SLEEP

[scalemate]

[She shifts awkwardly, chewing on her lower lip for a moment.]

We can keep feeding her, then.

i cant ;;

[caliginous]

[he...is actually really surprised by that answer.]

...Terezi.

<3

[scalemate]

What?

[caliginous]

Its too late. Even if it wasn't, you're still not listening to the part where I didn't want you involved.