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[papshooshing]

NEVER HAVE I THOUGHT THAT I WOULD BE CAPABLE OF HATING ANYONE MORE THAN THE PERSON THAT I HATE MOST.
TO BE ABLE TO DO SO REQUIRES DELVING DEEP INSIDE AND REACHING A BRAND NEW TIER OF HATE.
IT IS A HATE SO RANCOROUS THAT EVEN I CAN'T COMPLETELY FATHOM IT.
THESE SHITSTAINS THAT CONTINUOUSLY REMIND ME THAT I REALLY HAD IT EASY DEALING WITH TWELVE SHITTY, UNCOOPERATIVE TROLLS JUST HAVE TAKEN MY LAST NERVE AND HAVE SPLINTERED IT, SCATTERING THE REMAINS ACROSS THE VAST REACHES OF PARADOX SPACE.
YOU THINK YOU CAN FUCK WITH MY THINKPAN AND THEN SMOOTH IT OVER BY RETURNING WHAT'S RIGHTFULLY FUCKING MINE?
YOU'RE
MOTHERFUCKING
WRONG.
BE LUCKY I CAN'T REACH YOU, BECAUSE I SWEAR THAT I WOULD TAKE THIS SICKLE AND EVISCERATE EVERY LAST FUCKING ONE OF YOU.

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[usedshooshpap]

DO I *SOUND* ALL RIGHT!?

[iron_infidel]

Do you...need help?
Though, I must be honest I do not have the patience for your constant anger and slapface insults within this moment.

[papshooshing]

THEN TAKE YOUR OFFER AND CRAM IT UP YOUR FUCKING WASTE CHUTE.
I DON'T NEED YOU
DON'T NEED ANY OF YOU GODDAMN FUCKWITS.

[iron_infidel]

[Long...long sigh. Okay maybe...that wasn't the best word.]

...
I take it back and offer an apology.
I know not why you are so upset, but I will come to your aid and put such woes behind me.
Where are you located?

[papshooshing]

I DON'T OWE YOU ANYTHING FOR PRACTICALLY JUMPING MY BULGE FIRST CHANCE YOU HAD.

[iron_infidel]

I have not been myself as of late.
I apologize for jumping said 'bulge.'
Please I only wish to help Karkat, you can talk and I will sit and listen.

[papshooshing]

...
JUST TELL ME WHERE YOU'RE AT.
I DON'T REALLY CARE TO STAY IN MY ASSIGNED RESPITEBLOCK IF I CAN AVOID IT.

[iron_infidel]

I am within my own. I am willing to meet you elsewhere.
Perhaps the cafeteria or a floor of your choice?

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[papshooshing]

FLOOR 10.
I
SHIT. DON'T MAKE FUN OF ME.
I FIND THE FISH REALLY RELAXING, OKAY?

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[iron_infidel]

I do not judge. I recently visited the forest and found the animals of malicious intent quite relaxing to view from a distance.
We have similar interests it seems....
No matter, I will meet you there.

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[papshooshing]

THERE'S A THOUGHT...
ALL RIGHT. I'LL BE THERE AS SOON AS I PICK UP MY SHATTERED DIGNITY.

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[iron_infidel]

I will bring a basket for the pieces.
(:B

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[papshooshing]

THAT IS A STUPID EMOTE.
|:B


[ guess who is keeping that sickle with him at like all times? Karkat, that's who. he's in no rush to get to the 10th Floor, but he should still be there before Signless.

honestly? Karkat isn't feeling all that great. not emotionally, anyway. this is one of those things that he's still learning to deal with. Gamzee is helping, slowly aiding in Karkat accepting his "curse." doesn't mean he likes it thrown in his face, though. ]

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[iron_infidel]

[Signless leaves the chat as in and decides to leave the terminal. He had no idea what had been plaguing the young troll with sorrow and hate, but he was willing to find out. Willing, being used here very loosely. If Signless was a selfish troll and mixed up within his own emotions he might reamin locked away to wallow in his own sorrow. However, Signless was not one to think of himself and distract himself with the needs and concerns of others. This exactly was what he achieved to do by going to see Karkat.

He advances towards the tenth floor. As he moves towards his destination he can't help but move his fingers around an invisible weapon. How he longed for one and before he thought the need was not necessary. Simply he had gotten by with the use of teeth and claws. Though now the threat of the high bloods, one specifically, caused Signless to wish for something to allow further protection of himself and those he cared for. Once more his dismisses the thoughts, only wishing to focus on the troll he saw standing near by.

At the sight of the other he could only offer a soft smile and a gesture of a wave. ]

Good day, Karkat.

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[papshooshing]

[ his hand raises, but Karkat seems to catch it and put that fucker right back down. Karkat can't be too friendly. he does have some reputation still left.

his eyes narrow though. Karkat's sharper than what some people give him credit for. he sees how his ancestor's fingers twitch. had picked up on the grouchy tone as well. something's going on there and Karkat figures he owes the troll enough to listen to that stuff.

after. ]

It's never really a good day around here. Do I have to keep calling you Signless or is there an actual name I can use here that doesn't sound so high and mighty?

[ his words have little to no bite. just conversation to avoid THE PLUNGE. ]

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[iron_infidel]

[He bows his head in agreement and comes to sit upon the floor. He allows himself to face the fish that surround him. Reaching out a hand he delicately runs his fingers along the surface of the water and a delicate smile dances upon his features as he sees the ripples effect upon the wall of water.

He turns his head back around to glance back at Karkat and gently pats the space beside him. A gesture for him to come sit and just relax. Well relaxing would not be on the agenda until later, this he assesses.]

I have a name, but there aren't many who know of it or really wish to call me by it.

[A pause.]

Kankri Vantas.

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[papshooshing]

Don't do that too often. There are things in there that can jump out and attack.

[ he had been warned too. Karkat just thinks he can handle himself all right. that and he tries to constantly pay attention, but there are times his mind wanders and there has been a close call.

now sit Karkat does, yes. but it is in such a way that his back is not going to be exposed. he needs to see and hear.

there is a snort, though. hearing that name. Vantas. he hadn't thought that such names were shared, though he shouldn't be surprised. ]

God, Sollux would go nuts trying to figure out how to distinguish between us...

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[iron_infidel]

[At the warning he drops his hand and settles for just gazing out into the distant sea.]

[He shares a laugh at the amusement.]

Sollux, yes I remember meeting him briefly when I first arrived here. He is the descendent of The Psiionic, who is a dear friend of mine.

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[papshooshing]

Yeah... Not sure if I met the guy or not. Gamzee gets into a lot of shit and I'm usually busy trying to soothe over what I can of that.

Wish I would have jumped on that sooner, you know? The whole moirail thing. If I had... Then maybe more of us would have lived. Then maybe the dead trolls wouldn't have been haunting me during my fucking illness.

[ there you go, ancestor troll. that is Karkat, trying to ease into the conversation without coming out and saying it. ]

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[iron_infidel]

[His smile falters and in the moment he tries to control the lump within his throat, fails and allows a swallow.]

I take this is what has been bothering you? Haunting during your illness?

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[papshooshing]

Yeah, with some other shit. Either I couldn't find anyone in my hallucinations or I kept tripping up on all of them fucking bodies.

[ ignore some of his syntax. That is the result of hanging around the clown too much. But what he says is the truth. It's enough to make him sick all over again. All of his failures shoved in his face. All of his fears right there, taunting him. ]

There's something else but I don't expect you to get that part.

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[iron_infidel]

[Can he put a hand on your shoulder Karkat, cause it's what he wants to do. His hand hovers a bit above it's destination, but retreats as an after thought. Perhaps a comforting pat was not what Karkat wanted presently.

Signless frown remains instead and he clears his throat.]

Try me, I would like to hear all you have to say.

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[papshooshing]

[ Signless... really? even Karkat gives a disbelieving look. whether Karkat wants a pat or not is really irrelevant, if that is a thing that ancestor troll is want to do... ]

I highly doubt you ever saw your blood color as a defect to hide..

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[iron_infidel]

[He keeps his hands dormant and ignores the look that Karkat grants him. Instead he decides to look out into water's abyss.]

Not as I aged, but I grew up as you did within the same culture. It wasn't until I came to understand my dreams that my blood color became something of an acceptance. I always wondered why it was my lusus decided to hide me, why we were always traveling and the reason I had to keep my blood a secret. It would be a lie to say I didn't wonder what would happen if I had been blessed with another hue and I wouldn't have to cause my lusus the trouble. She sacrificed much to make sure I survived from the very moment of my hatching, simply because of what I was.

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[papshooshing]

That's... That's not the same. You essentially grew up not knowing that the color pretty much guarantees a culling. In no way am I belittling your Lusus, but fuck that's actually smart.

[ Karkat rubs his arm. slightly uncomfortable. ]

I knew. There was no secret wondering stirring in my think pan in the wee hours of the morning while all good little wigglers went to bed. I didn't go out because of it. Always wore fucking long sleeves to make sure everything was covered. So yeah... I don't exactly see it as good. More like a fucking defect. To force me to see it at all times when I'm not losing my mind is just...

All of it was just throwing all of my fears, insecurities, and failures right in my face and I'd love nothing more than to tear them apart for it.