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Entry Log 2 [Video] [Filtered away from Oowada Mondo & Kuwata Leon] [Forward dated to 1 Sept]

[The feed turns on to show a young 'girl' blushing brightly. 'She' shyly averts her eyes and can't quite look at the camera at first then 'she' takes a deep breath and looks into the camera with renewed confidence. 'Her' filters should work after all. This programming prodigy has written the codes 'herself' after all and checked them numerous times. That doesn't stop 'her' from stammering though. This is so embarrassing! But it's been troubling 'her' for a while now and since 'she' has decided to be strong and not run away from anything anymore...]

A-ano... does... does anyone know how one can tell if... if a friendship is perhaps more than just a friendship? How do you tell if you perhaps like someone... more than a friend? How do you know if that person feels the same way or not? I...

[There's a pause... then a frantic...] T-Thank you very much for your kind attention!

((Edit: Forward dated to 1 Sept when filters don't fail... orz))

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He's... gone now. Not in the tower anymore.

[ Nope, not gonna dwell on that though. However, there's a small bitter laugh from that. ]

But listen to me going on. This is about you. Just start anywhere you please.

... he? The-the person you like is...

[So it's alright then to like another boy that way? And that distracts him from the other part of the conversation for now.]

D... don't make such a big fuss. S'not like I saw it coming.

[ And that flusters him a little bit, causing a sigh and a ruffle of his own hair. ]

Look. You can't help if you like who you like, alright?

Ah! Sorry! I... I... didn't mean to make a fuss... it's just that... that... I... well, the person I have feelings for is of the same gender as myself as well... so I... I'm sort of happy that I'm not alone.

S'alright. There you have it then. If you can't help yourself then you can't help yourself... board be damned and all.

[ He knows it would be trouble if the board ever found out about him having feelings for another reaper but... well... things happen. ]

So... getting back on track...?

Board?

Oh... uh, well, the person... I like a lot is a classmate of mine. I really admire them a lot and they are very nice to me. They're always looking out for me and helping me... I just know that no matter what happens, I can depend on them to be there for me, especially here.

At first, I thought that what I feel here... [he places a hand over his heart] ... is just admiration but... somehow it feels stronger than that... much stronger...

Uh, yeah. The Board'll prolly get on my case for that. Office relationships being frowned upon and all that.

[ Because really, hitting on ladies in different departments is one thing but the managerial staff? Totes a different matter. But he listens in silence, resting his head on his chin as he does. The only reaction he gives is a slight widening of the eyes once Chihiro gets to the last part. ]

...yeah... yeah, I know what you mean. First I thought he was ace. Absolute ace at what he did... and... suddenly when he came here and things started happening to him...

It made me mad. Real mad. And I wanted to protect him. I just... wanted to see him safe again no matter what. Feels that way for you too, I'd wager?

Oh? What kind of Board is it?

[he nods] Mn! I feel that way too! And I think... I think... the person I like feels that way too... maybe? They are always looking out for me and protecting me...

Just the Board that runs our little operation. The guys my boss reports to.

[ One finger taps though. ]

There you are then. If we've got the same thing then... we're prolly feeling the same way about whoever it is, right? Lucky you if the person you feel that way for feels the same...

[ There's a small look of... confusion? Frustration? But it goes away. ]

Best bet's to ask them then, isn't it?

What kind of operation is it?

Mn. I hope they do feel the same way... and even if... even if they don't, I hope we can at least still be friends... Does your special person know how you feel about them, sir?

... ... I suppose so. But what exactly should I say?

Oh. S'pose I didn't you. Sorry 'bout that. We're reapers, he and I.

[ Oh and here he was just getting used to the very idea that he might actually have these feelings much less acknowledging them. ]

He... left before I could say anything so I suggest you tell them while they're here or you'll end up wishing you had.

Just... man up and tell them. Be honest. Say you've got something important you want to talk to them about.

Reapers?

I see... yes, there is a chance that they might leave, isn't there?

[And then his eyes widen and he pales. No, you did not just say 'Man up'. You did not just say that, did you? You... Sorry, Ronald but 'Man up' is a very powerful trigger word for Chihiro... All the bad memories... he holds his head a bit, trying not to think about all that...]

Yeah. You've prolly heard the legends, right? Take your soul after you die and all that?

Not the point though. Like I said. Better you just--

[ A pause at the sudden change of emotion. His head's tilting slightly and there's obvious concern coming from him. ]

Blimey, what's the matter with you? You alright?

... you mean... you're the Grim Reaper...?

[he's shaking a bit] Please... please don't say that again... those words... please don't hurt me...

Yep. Well, one of them at least. Ronald Knox of London's Dispatch. Pleased to meetcha.

[ Ruffling his hair though. ]

Sorry 'bout that. Didn't mean to offend, specially for a young bird like you. Not gonna hurt you. Honest. Wouldn't dream of it.

One of them? How many are there? Ah! It's nice to meet you too, Mr Knox. I'm Chihiro Fujisaki.

I... no, I'm sorry... it's just that-that those words... those words... 'man up' make me think of... lots of... really bad things... from the past... when those people... I'm sorry. I'm... alright now.

Can't say we've ever taken a census but there's a bunch of us. Got the blokes in the glasses department, general affairs, then there's us in dispatch...

[ A sigh and a bit of a grin. ]

Well, if you insist, mate. Sorry I took you out for a loop there. Nothing to apologize about. We've all got our weaknesses. Pleased to meet you all the same, Chihiro.

Really? I didn't know it was well... so organized. Eh? Glasses department? Do your glasses have special powers?

[shakes head] It really is alright. I... I have been trying my best to get over that.

Not really. We just can't see a bleeding thing without them. But they're real important.

[ There's a smaller smile though, the assuring kind. ]

I think you'll be just fine. You're a tough little thing for having survived this place. I think if you can get through here without going absolutely mad you've got it made.

Oh... is that true for all reapers? All of you are shortsighted?

But... that's only because my friends are here too...

Yeah, I think it's a reaper thing. It's even in the rules: A reaper must always take care of his glasses.

[ Ruffling his own hair. ]

Takes a tough one to admit they need their friends. Even tougher to want to protect them when they're here. Specially in this barmy lot of a hell hole, eh?

Your friends are a lucky bunch if you ask me.

Hmmm... does it help you see ghosts or something...?

A tough one...? Really?

Well, we are certainly much luckier than back home... here... we aren't forced to kill each other...

Can't really say it does, no... And of course it does. I mean, everyone acts tough and all, saying they're fine on their own right? Takes someone strong not to put up an act.

[ Now he's wondering why he can't see two inches in front of his face without his glasses... but his attention's pulled back. ]

Forced to... bugger, I don't even know where to begin with that. You're prolly one of the types who'd prefer this place to home then?

It doesn't do anything special at all then? Hmmm... I suppose so... but... don't weak people always have to ask for help?

We were trapped in a school where we had to kill each other in order to leave... Mn. I do. If I go back, I'll die.

Better than trying to act tough all the time, if you ask me. Takes real guts to admit you can't handle everything on your own.

[ Man, that little mention though... ]

...Damned if you do, damned if you don't eh? Either here or there... sorry, mate.

Entry Log 2 [Video] [Filtered away from Oowada Mondo & Kuwata Leon] [Forward dated to 1 Sept]

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