Entry Log 2 [Video] [Filtered away from Oowada Mondo & Kuwata Leon] [Forward dated to 1 Sept]

[cutestprogrammer]

[The feed turns on to show a young 'girl' blushing brightly. 'She' shyly averts her eyes and can't quite look at the camera at first then 'she' takes a deep breath and looks into the camera with renewed confidence. 'Her' filters should work after all. This programming prodigy has written the codes 'herself' after all and checked them numerous times. That doesn't stop 'her' from stammering though. This is so embarrassing! But it's been troubling 'her' for a while now and since 'she' has decided to be strong and not run away from anything anymore...]

A-ano... does... does anyone know how one can tell if... if a friendship is perhaps more than just a friendship? How do you tell if you perhaps like someone... more than a friend? How do you know if that person feels the same way or not? I...

[There's a pause... then a frantic...] T-Thank you very much for your kind attention!

((Edit: Forward dated to 1 Sept when filters don't fail... orz))

Comments

[moontothetide]

Um...it's, it's kind of hard to say. [Tara blushes, very faintly. Matters of the heart are matters near and...not necessarily dear to her heart.] I, I guess it depends. D-Do you mind saying more, Chihiro? Like...how you feel about them now? Or, um, I guess I mean...how do they make you feel?

[cutestprogrammer]

How they make me feel...?

Well, I feel very happy and safe around them. And they make me feel very warm inside sometimes.

[moontothetide]

And...y-you want to be around them, all the time? Because the world seems better, when you do? And, um...and it, it s-seems like nothing bad will ever happen?

[Nope, she's not projecting. Not a bit.]

[cutestprogrammer]

Yes! That's exactly how I feel! How did you know?

[moontothetide]

...because that's how I felt, w-when I was in love with someone.

Congratulations, Chihiro. It, it sounds like you're really in love. I'm r-really happy for you.

[She really is, even if she's also a bit wistful now over the memory of Willow, and what she didn't have, and how Willow isn't here anymore.]

[cutestprogrammer]

I see... ...was? What happened to that- Ah! You don't really have to tell me! I'm sorry!

Thank you, Tara-san.

[moontothetide]

...she, um...sh-she died.

We'd...we'd just made up, after a fight, and...sh-she died.

[Tara makes it sound sudden, but it really was - one minute, the two were happy and having a great time being with one another again, and Willow had gone to the window to open it up for some air, and...bang.]

So...if, if you really want to tell them, how you feel...y-you should do it, soon. You never know how long you have, here.

[cutestprogrammer]

Just... died? Just like that? Was it an illness?

I... Mn! I guess you're right! I-I should tell them as soon as possible in case...

[moontothetide]

Gunshot. S-Stray bullet. [The man in question had actually been trying to murder a friend of theirs' down in the garden, and he'd missed. The first time.]

But, um...good luck, Chihiro. I r-really hope it all goes well for you. I mean...everyone deserves to, to have s-something that makes them happy, here.

[cutestprogrammer]

Eh?? Did-did you get hit too??

Thank you, Tara-san. I-I'll do my best and I hope... I hope you get to see your special person again... it's possible in this place after all.

[moontothetide]

No. [Yes. In another world, another Tara died instead, and Willow survived. It still sounds like a better world to Tara than the one she was left with.] I...I made it okay.

...maybe someday, um...I'll find a new special person. Th-That's okay, too, you know. If things don't work out, or they leave, and you like someone else...that doesn't make you a bad person.

[She might be trying just a bit to convince herself of this, but it's also something she truly wants Chihiro to believe.]

[cutestprogrammer]

You made it okay? How?

A new special person... Mn. I guess you're right but for now... I really hope I won't have to do that!

[moontothetide]

They...they weren't trying to hurt me. Or Willow. It was an accident.

They were actually, um, t-trying to get at another friend of ours'. But they had a gun, and they weren't aiming well.

[Tara regrets a lot of what she's done since Willow died. Killing Warren? Not one of them.]

[cutestprogrammer]

... I'm sorry...

Did that person get caught?

[moontothetide]

...yeah.

They got caught.

He...he couldn't hurt any of us, ever again, Chihiro. So...it's, it's okay. At least...at least there was that.

[Tara is just...going to take a minute and turn her back on the screen to struggle not to break down in tears right now.]

[cutestprogrammer]

That's good. Mn.

...

Tara-san...