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005 ♑ [fifth honk]

A BrOtHeR AiN'T TrYiN To gEt hIs hArSh aLl oN OvEr nOtHiNg sMaLl oR NoThIn
ExCePt tHiS MoThErFuCkIn nOiSe iS Up aNd gOiN FrOm sMaLl sPuDs tO FuCkInG SHIT.
IN LESS MOTHERFUCKING TIME THAN IT TAKES THE FUCKIN OPTIMISTIFFS IN THIS JOINT.
to all let fly from their.
MOTHERFUCKING TRAPS.
about how all it's gonna be gettin.
SO MUCH MOTHERFUCKING.
bEtTeR
BuT It dOn't gEt bEtTeR, mY BrOtHeRs aNd bItChEs
It aIn't nEvEr gOnNa gEt nO BeTtEr
No mAtTeR HoW MuCh sPaRkLy fLuFfY NoIsE AnY OnE MoThErFuCkEr's gOnNa wAnNa pUkE AlL OvEr tHe
MOTHERFUCKING.
truth.

ThEy tAkE A BrOtHeR AnD CuT HiM ThE FuCk oPeN
ShOvE ShIt iN HiM WhAt's nOt nEvEr sUpPoSeD To aLl bEiNg iNsIdE
CrEeP AnD CrAwL AlL Up iN HiS FrIeD OuT PaN LiKe iT AiN'T BeEn bLoWn tO BiTs aLrEaDy
MaKe hIm gEt aLl uP In tHe hArShEsT BuSiNeSs wItH HiS ReSpItEbLoCkBrOs
SpEnD HiS SlEePtImE In tHe hAlLs wHeRe hE CaN'T GeT No mOtHeRfUcKiNg sHuTeYe
RiP ThEm gOoD BrOs hE Be aLl sPlItTiN ThIs mOtHeRfUcKiN ShItHoLe wItH FrOm hIm
MaKe tHeM GoNe fOrEvEr
without saying MOTHERFUCKING GOOD bye.
GiVe iN HiM SoMe WICKED MOTHERFUCKING URGES.
that he all ain't never been to feeling before.
MAKE HIM QUESTION his.
mother.
FUCKING SELF.

WhO ArE YoU, mOtHeRfUcKeR?

HaHa
HAHA.
haha.
HONK.
honk.
HONK.
honk.

WHO THE MOTHER FUCK AM I?

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I t)(ink we all get to asking ourselves t)(at lately. It's )(ard and it )(urts and it doesn't make a damn bit of sense. It doesn't even try to make sense, because what's making any kind of sense w)(en t)(ey're cutting you open and putting t)(ings into you t)(at s)(ouldn't be t)(ere?

[She pauses. He'd been there, that one month that felt like being in one extended bad dream. When she'd woken up, there had been so much missing. A diamond, a dear friend. So many pieces of herself.

And now, now that she was trying to fill in those gaps again? More people were leaving. That hurt.]

T)(ey can't cut out everyt)(ing w)(at makes you you, t)(ough, Gamzee. If t)(ey )(ad, you never would've come and found me w)(en I was so down t)(e ot)(er day.

What the... I can hardly understand you when you speak now I can't understand you here!

What is it you're babbling about this time?!

I AiN'T GoT No cLuE WhAt hUrTy sCrAtChY ShIt tHeY AlL WeRe tO Be lEaViNg iN Me, FiShY
BE FEELIN ALL LIKE A BROTHER'S TO BE COMING THE FUCK APART.
at the mother.
FUCKING SEAMS.

ThEm pEePs bE StItChIn mE BaCk uP WrOnG Or sOmEtHiN, fEfErI
YoU WeRe fUcKiNg THERE.
you can't be up and motherfuckin telling in me.
THAT YOU DON'T FEEL ALL BROKEN UP WHAT'S JUST THE MOTHERFUCKING SAME AS I DO.

[There's a little pause before he replies since he... has to read through that again. What is this colored garble supposed to be, they never taught Troll Quirks 101 in rich kid school -]

Hello. My name is Genda - you don't know me, but I want to help.
You sound like you need something to focus on.
Something that's a part of you, like a game you've played all your life, or a hobby you've been able to do since you were young.

I know this tower's full of grief and sadness, but you can't let it pull you apart.
Cling to the friends you do have, and make more if you must. Do things with them that will keep your spirits up.
Remember that this tower can't take away who you are, no matter how hard it tries.

And if you really can't find who you truly are beneath the wounds this tower has given you, take the time to find it.
Everyone needs to find themselves once in a while. It's only natural.

FuCk yOu wHy wOn't yOu
MOTHERFUCKERS.
let me.
mOtHeRfUcKiNg
SLEEP.

[Yes blame your stupid lack of sleep on your roommates that's logical.]

[His eyes are drifting all over the place, and not necessarily in unison, either. He's high and sober and everything all at the same time and what the fuck even is going on he's so. Confused.]

Listen to you MOTHERFUCKING BITCHES! Listen to you all blab your fuckin' noiseboxes on at shit what you all don't even fuckin' begin to motherfucking understand! You fucking be thinkin' all up at what if you spout your mother fucking sanguine hoofbeastshit drivel at another motherfucker, who gives two frozen tits in the motherfucking sky if it actually MOTHERFUCKING APPLIES as long as your sorry ass feels like you did some

mother

fucking

good.

GIVE AT YOUR FUCKING SELF A FEW MOTHERFUCKIN' PATS ON THE SPINENOTCHES FOR THAT ONE, MOTHERFUCKER. You sure helped a brother out this time.

Me?! What in the layers of of the void did I do to keep YOU up?! You're the one who's always babbling nonsense and yelling!

I can ease your pain with a well placed meteor to the head if you so wish.

Anything to HELP a teammate.

You're rig)(t. I can't, and I won't. T)(e last t)(ing eit)(er of us needs is a lie as big as t)(at.

Because it feels like w)(en t)(ey went and put me back toget)(er again, somet)(ing didn't get put back quite rig)(t. Like somet)(ing's crooked and all it wants to do is pop rig)(t on out of t)(ere.

But I've been doing some t)(inking on t)(is w)(ole t)(ing, and t)(e last t)(ing I mean to do is let t)(em win. It's gonna )(urt rig)(t now. It's gonna )(urt a lot. W)(at I t)(ink is t)(at w)(en t)(e worst of it's all over, t)(ough, we're going to be one )(ell of a lot stronger for it. It sucks. It sucks a lot. But we're gonna get t)(rough it.

[... Oh. He's a troll. Somehow he's both surprised, yet not very - and Gamzee is definitely disconcerting, but Genda's been through ~~soccer~~ hell and back.
Not a lot really gets to him anymore, visually.]

But I do care if it applies. You seem like you could really use help right now - and just the way you speak cements that to me.

I want to help you, and seeing you in the state you're in makes me wish I could help even more!

As long as we are in this tower together, even if we've never met, we are a team - and I never abandon my teammates in their time of need!

[ First Feferi and now Gamzee ...

It hurts. ]

i DON'T KNOW WHY THEY DID THAT TO YOU, oR THE PURPOSE BEHIND IT,
iT SEEMS LIKE A SICK GAME TO THEM, aND SADLY, i DON'T THINK WE CAN DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT,

,,

i DON'T REALLY, uNDERSTAND THE PAIN YOU'RE GOING THROUGH, rIGHT NOW,
bUT, I BELIEVE, tHEY WILL NEVER TAKE AWAY WHO YOU ARE, aND IF YOU'RE STILL TRYING TO FIND YOURSELF, i'M SURE THAT IS SOMETHING YOU WILL ACCOMPLISH, iN TIME,
nO DOUBT,,

,,

hAVE YOU BEEN SLEEPING AT ALL, bRO? }:(

GET THE MOTHER FUCK OUT OF MY MOTHERFUCKING FACE.
last a motherfucker set clownshoes up in the respiteblock.
HE ALL GOT HIS PAINT PUNCHED THE FUCK OFF HIS MOTHERFUCKING SKULL.
you even get it up in your puny pan what to come the fuck after me.
I WILL CRACK YOUR MOTHERFUCKING SELF ALL UP UNDER MY FEET LIKE THE GRUB YOU MOTHERFUCKING ARE.

LISTEN YOU OVERGROWN JESTER WANABE! YOU DON'T TALK TO THE GREAT AND POWERFUL VEIGAR THAT WAY! I CAN MAKE THIS ENTIRE PATHETIC EXCUSE FOR A FORT FALL ON YOUR PATHETIC EXCUSE FOR A LIFE IN A FRACTION OF A SECOND!

IF YOU DON'T WANT TO TAKE ASSISTANCE THEN JUST SAY SO YOU IMPUDENT MINION!

[Yes because caps obviously get the point across better]

[Why is it that she is the only one that actually seems to get it!? No wails of "it'll all be okay, you'll see!" or "cheer up and try not to think about it!" Just the straight-up truth, plain and simple.]

i knew you all felt the motherfucking same.
MOTHER FUCKING HAD IT ALL STRAIGHT IN THE FUCKIN PAN ON THAT NOISE.
BuT YoU'Re aLl tO Be hAvIn oNe tHiNg i aIn't fUcKiN GoT, lItTlE FiSh
MoThErFuCkInG ReSiLiEnCe
SoMeThIn iS GoInG DoWn aLl mOtHeRfUcKiNg WRONG IN THIS MOTHER FUCKING PAN.
i ain't giving no fucks bout whether or not whoever the lordshits runnin this place win or motherfucking lose.
STARTING TO NOT GIVE NO FUCKS ABOUT A LOT OF MOTHERFUCKING THINGS, YO.
maybe it would all be much fuckin better if none of this noise was up and existing
MaYbE ThEsE FuCkErS WoUlDn't aLl bE So
MOTHERFUCKING.
blind.
IF I JUST UP AND SHOW THEM THE MOTHERFUCKING LIGHT.

[The fuck is this kid's problem!? Tryhards like him can get the fuck out and suck his motherfucking bulge for all he cares. Yeah. That's it.]

I DON'T NEED YOUR MOTHERFUCKING HELP!!!

We all ain't put here to get fuckin' chummy on each other's asses. You may all want to be stickin' your frond up in another bitch's business 'cause it makes your little pusher fill all up in little disgusting sparkles or what the motherfuck ever, but ain't no one in this MOTHERFUCKING LOAD GAPER GONNA TELL IN ME THAT WE ARE ALL IN THIS TO-FUCKING-GETHER.

Get your fuckin' pinky, punk-ass self outta here before I motherfucking hunt you down and tear all the fucking glitter outta your pump like them bitches did at me.

... Ah, I see how it is. This tower's run you down and ripped you apart like a lion and its meal.

Alright. Fine, I'll leave you alone for now.
But know that no matter what you say, we all need be in this together.
There is literally no other choice when it's you versus an opponent like this tower.

I wish you the best. And I hope that when you find who you truly are, you will come find me.

[Ugh. No. No no no no NO NO NO NO NO NO get out of here GET OUT OF HERE.]

hello, brother.

:o)

:o)

MAYBE THERE'S SOMETHING A MOTHERFUCKER CAN DO ON IT.
maybe he'll just have to wait and mother fucking see.
GOT SOME NICE SIDE-EFFECTS TELLING IN HIM WHAT'S ALL SOME PRETTY FUCKIN GOOD IDEAS, THEY ALL UP AND ARE.

honk honk honk.

MAYBE THEY CAN ALL BE SHOWING AT ME WHO THE MOTHER FUCK I REALLY AM WHILE THEM BITCHES ARE MOTHER FUCKING AT IT.
and oh.

bRoThEr

bRoThEr i aIn't aLl aNd gOnE To cAtCh a mOtHeRfUcKiNg WINK.
since we all got the wicked noise all down in that.
MOTHERFUCKING ILLEST OF NAP ZONES WE ALL WERE TO BE SPLITTING.
you know.
THE ONE THAT WASN'T ALL UP TO BE HAVING ANY MOTHERFUCKING RED UNDERTONES OR IMPLI-MOTHERFUCKING-CATIONS AT FUCKING ALL.

you remember that one, motherfucker?

:o)

[Well you ruined his chances with Naoto but...you were trying to help in your own way.

Maybe he should try to help to...if he like...understood you. Well he got to see you with the spore stuff and you probably saw him as a giant pink teddy bear ergo...]

uh...you need some help?...

[He's pretty fluent in caps, as it were. Also his emotions don't know what they're doing. Hooray!]

the fuck you all want to shove your fuckin assist all on this motherfucker for, anyway?

[So... this post? This post, for Equius, is the equivalent of taking a Drill Smasher V2 directly to the kokoro. The color was all wrong, of course it was -- but complain as he did, Equius is a firm believer that there is no Gamzee in all of paradox space who should be talking like that. It just Should Not Happen, but it was happening, and that's basically grounds for a perfectly legitimate internal crisis... but then, almost everything is grounds for a perfectly legitimate internal crisis, and he's getting better at it. Slowly.]

[Still, it takes a fair while for him to scrap together the courage to respond. Once he does the words come easily; he's clearly been thinking about this on his own time.]

It's... it's isolation, Gamzee.

It's isolation on multiple levels. Taking one away from their home world, away from Alternia, and dropping them in this place. Isolation from the others in the tower with us, because they can be stolen and made playthings of at any conceivable time. And, um... obviously, isolation from the self, after a while of it. That's just what happens to thinkpans. I can't tell you that you're wrong, because you're not... it's kind of a conclusion that everyone has to come to at some point, right?

[It's probably a vain hope that rationalizing the situation will make Gamzee calm down at all. Loss of identity is really an unfortunate experience, but if you become null to it the right way then it doesn't necessarily have to hurt.]

Because that's what 'motherfucking' teammates do.

Don't you know anything?

Regardless, offer given, take it whatever you want to do with it. I, the great and powerful Veigar, do not play around.

When you are on your knees and begging for mercy from these lucid wanabe rulers of the tower, mayhaps I shall come assist my teammate as I always do.

[For fuck's sake, it's the pink kid with the weird hair and the awkward flushcrush on the other pink kid with the weird hair whose gender Gamzee was not quite certain of at any moment.]

[If this were any other time, he would have been ecstatic to hear from Kanji. BEST BROS, after all, right?]

[RIGHT?]

We all need some motherfucking help. DON'T WE, MOTHERFUCKER!?

,,,

yES, i REMEMBER,,

[ ....

Well-

That was .... unexpected!

Also, it's a good thing they were both hiding behind a wall a text because Tavros was all flustered and ... scowling intensely at the screen. He didn't know exactly how- but Gamzee managed to strike a pretty sensitive spot back there. Hurts like a bitch, but- his discomfort didn't last for long. He knew his brother is not feeling very well, and he shouldn't get personal with him right now ... or ever! Yes, he learned that the hard way. Never ever again.

So, he's going to ignore it ever being mentioned. It seems the best option right now. Okay, here goes nothing. ]

bRO, i DON'T GET IT,
i THOUGHT YOU SAID YOU HAD YOUR RECUPERACOON BACK,,
iS THE SLIME NOT HELPING YOU GET ANY PROPER REST?

,,

aLSO, iF YOU DON'T MIND ME ASKING, iF YOU DO, fEEL FREE TO NOT RESPOND,
bUT,
wHAT KIND OF IDEAS YOU'RE HAVING RIGHT NOW?

sorry

[Man he don't get your card-related crushes or that shit, but he does know when someone's definitely screwed up.]

The hell's wrong with you?

[Apart from the tower being the tower.]

iirc youre gamzee
unless you totally lied to me
in which case
rude as fuck!
and im jade
cool cat time lord extraordinaire
i bring you tidings from the future

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[video] because don't feel like typing like genda would pft

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[Video.] sure why not look at his disgusting ass face genda

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[Video.] he just looks like an old teammate to genda srry

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[Video.] OH MY GOD I FEEL SORRY FOR THAT TEAMMATE???

[Video.] YOU SHOULD.

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anonymous text and it'll never not be anonymous

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