005 ♑ [fifth honk]

[hystericull]

A BrOtHeR AiN'T TrYiN To gEt hIs hArSh aLl oN OvEr nOtHiNg sMaLl oR NoThIn
ExCePt tHiS MoThErFuCkIn nOiSe iS Up aNd gOiN FrOm sMaLl sPuDs tO FuCkInG SHIT.
IN LESS MOTHERFUCKING TIME THAN IT TAKES THE FUCKIN OPTIMISTIFFS IN THIS JOINT.
to all let fly from their.
MOTHERFUCKING TRAPS.
about how all it's gonna be gettin.
SO MUCH MOTHERFUCKING.
bEtTeR
BuT It dOn't gEt bEtTeR, mY BrOtHeRs aNd bItChEs
It aIn't nEvEr gOnNa gEt nO BeTtEr
No mAtTeR HoW MuCh sPaRkLy fLuFfY NoIsE AnY OnE MoThErFuCkEr's gOnNa wAnNa pUkE AlL OvEr tHe
MOTHERFUCKING.
truth.

ThEy tAkE A BrOtHeR AnD CuT HiM ThE FuCk oPeN
ShOvE ShIt iN HiM WhAt's nOt nEvEr sUpPoSeD To aLl bEiNg iNsIdE
CrEeP AnD CrAwL AlL Up iN HiS FrIeD OuT PaN LiKe iT AiN'T BeEn bLoWn tO BiTs aLrEaDy
MaKe hIm gEt aLl uP In tHe hArShEsT BuSiNeSs wItH HiS ReSpItEbLoCkBrOs
SpEnD HiS SlEePtImE In tHe hAlLs wHeRe hE CaN'T GeT No mOtHeRfUcKiNg sHuTeYe
RiP ThEm gOoD BrOs hE Be aLl sPlItTiN ThIs mOtHeRfUcKiN ShItHoLe wItH FrOm hIm
MaKe tHeM GoNe fOrEvEr
without saying MOTHERFUCKING GOOD bye.
GiVe iN HiM SoMe WICKED MOTHERFUCKING URGES.
that he all ain't never been to feeling before.
MAKE HIM QUESTION his.
mother.
FUCKING SELF.

WhO ArE YoU, mOtHeRfUcKeR?

HaHa
HAHA.
haha.
HONK.
honk.
HONK.
honk.

WHO THE MOTHER FUCK AM I?

Comments

[cullscuttlefish]

I t)(ink we all get to asking ourselves t)(at lately. It's )(ard and it )(urts and it doesn't make a damn bit of sense. It doesn't even try to make sense, because what's making any kind of sense w)(en t)(ey're cutting you open and putting t)(ings into you t)(at s)(ouldn't be t)(ere?

[She pauses. He'd been there, that one month that felt like being in one extended bad dream. When she'd woken up, there had been so much missing. A diamond, a dear friend. So many pieces of herself.

And now, now that she was trying to fill in those gaps again? More people were leaving. That hurt.]

T)(ey can't cut out everyt)(ing w)(at makes you you, t)(ough, Gamzee. If t)(ey )(ad, you never would've come and found me w)(en I was so down t)(e ot)(er day.

[hystericull]

I AiN'T GoT No cLuE WhAt hUrTy sCrAtChY ShIt tHeY AlL WeRe tO Be lEaViNg iN Me, FiShY
BE FEELIN ALL LIKE A BROTHER'S TO BE COMING THE FUCK APART.
at the mother.
FUCKING SEAMS.

ThEm pEePs bE StItChIn mE BaCk uP WrOnG Or sOmEtHiN, fEfErI
YoU WeRe fUcKiNg THERE.
you can't be up and motherfuckin telling in me.
THAT YOU DON'T FEEL ALL BROKEN UP WHAT'S JUST THE MOTHERFUCKING SAME AS I DO.

[isthatashortjoke]

What the... I can hardly understand you when you speak now I can't understand you here!

What is it you're babbling about this time?!

[hystericull]

FuCk yOu wHy wOn't yOu
MOTHERFUCKERS.
let me.
mOtHeRfUcKiNg
SLEEP.

[Yes blame your stupid lack of sleep on your roommates that's logical.]

[video] because don't feel like typing like genda would pft

[whatpenguin]

[There's a little pause before he replies since he... has to read through that again. What is this colored garble supposed to be, they never taught Troll Quirks 101 in rich kid school -]

Hello. My name is Genda - you don't know me, but I want to help.
You sound like you need something to focus on.
Something that's a part of you, like a game you've played all your life, or a hobby you've been able to do since you were young.

I know this tower's full of grief and sadness, but you can't let it pull you apart.
Cling to the friends you do have, and make more if you must. Do things with them that will keep your spirits up.
Remember that this tower can't take away who you are, no matter how hard it tries.

And if you really can't find who you truly are beneath the wounds this tower has given you, take the time to find it.
Everyone needs to find themselves once in a while. It's only natural.

[Video.] sure why not look at his disgusting ass face genda

[hystericull]

[His eyes are drifting all over the place, and not necessarily in unison, either. He's high and sober and everything all at the same time and what the fuck even is going on he's so. Confused.]

Listen to you MOTHERFUCKING BITCHES! Listen to you all blab your fuckin' noiseboxes on at shit what you all don't even fuckin' begin to motherfucking understand! You fucking be thinkin' all up at what if you spout your mother fucking sanguine hoofbeastshit drivel at another motherfucker, who gives two frozen tits in the motherfucking sky if it actually MOTHERFUCKING APPLIES as long as your sorry ass feels like you did some

mother

fucking

good.

GIVE AT YOUR FUCKING SELF A FEW MOTHERFUCKIN' PATS ON THE SPINENOTCHES FOR THAT ONE, MOTHERFUCKER. You sure helped a brother out this time.

[pushedaround]

[ First Feferi and now Gamzee ...

It hurts. ]

i DON'T KNOW WHY THEY DID THAT TO YOU, oR THE PURPOSE BEHIND IT,
iT SEEMS LIKE A SICK GAME TO THEM, aND SADLY, i DON'T THINK WE CAN DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT,

,,

i DON'T REALLY, uNDERSTAND THE PAIN YOU'RE GOING THROUGH, rIGHT NOW,
bUT, I BELIEVE, tHEY WILL NEVER TAKE AWAY WHO YOU ARE, aND IF YOU'RE STILL TRYING TO FIND YOURSELF, i'M SURE THAT IS SOMETHING YOU WILL ACCOMPLISH, iN TIME,
nO DOUBT,,

,,

hAVE YOU BEEN SLEEPING AT ALL, bRO? }:(

[hystericull]

[Ugh. No. No no no no NO NO NO NO NO NO get out of here GET OUT OF HERE.]

hello, brother.

:o)




:o)

MAYBE THERE'S SOMETHING A MOTHERFUCKER CAN DO ON IT.
maybe he'll just have to wait and mother fucking see.
GOT SOME NICE SIDE-EFFECTS TELLING IN HIM WHAT'S ALL SOME PRETTY FUCKIN GOOD IDEAS, THEY ALL UP AND ARE.

honk honk honk.

MAYBE THEY CAN ALL BE SHOWING AT ME WHO THE MOTHER FUCK I REALLY AM WHILE THEM BITCHES ARE MOTHER FUCKING AT IT.
and oh.

bRoThEr

bRoThEr i aIn't aLl aNd gOnE To cAtCh a mOtHeRfUcKiNg WINK.
since we all got the wicked noise all down in that.
MOTHERFUCKING ILLEST OF NAP ZONES WE ALL WERE TO BE SPLITTING.
you know.
THE ONE THAT WASN'T ALL UP TO BE HAVING ANY MOTHERFUCKING RED UNDERTONES OR IMPLI-MOTHERFUCKING-CATIONS AT FUCKING ALL.

you remember that one, motherfucker?

:o)

[get_bent]

[Well you ruined his chances with Naoto but...you were trying to help in your own way.

Maybe he should try to help to...if he like...understood you. Well he got to see you with the spore stuff and you probably saw him as a giant pink teddy bear ergo...]

uh...you need some help?...

[Video.]

[hystericull]

[For fuck's sake, it's the pink kid with the weird hair and the awkward flushcrush on the other pink kid with the weird hair whose gender Gamzee was not quite certain of at any moment.]

[If this were any other time, he would have been ecstatic to hear from Kanji. BEST BROS, after all, right?]

[RIGHT?]

We all need some motherfucking help. DON'T WE, MOTHERFUCKER!?

video

[geometry]

[So... this post? This post, for Equius, is the equivalent of taking a Drill Smasher V2 directly to the kokoro. The color was all wrong, of course it was -- but complain as he did, Equius is a firm believer that there is no Gamzee in all of paradox space who should be talking like that. It just Should Not Happen, but it was happening, and that's basically grounds for a perfectly legitimate internal crisis... but then, almost everything is grounds for a perfectly legitimate internal crisis, and he's getting better at it. Slowly.]

[Still, it takes a fair while for him to scrap together the courage to respond. Once he does the words come easily; he's clearly been thinking about this on his own time.]

It's... it's isolation, Gamzee.

It's isolation on multiple levels. Taking one away from their home world, away from Alternia, and dropping them in this place. Isolation from the others in the tower with us, because they can be stolen and made playthings of at any conceivable time. And, um... obviously, isolation from the self, after a while of it. That's just what happens to thinkpans. I can't tell you that you're wrong, because you're not... it's kind of a conclusion that everyone has to come to at some point, right?

[It's probably a vain hope that rationalizing the situation will make Gamzee calm down at all. Loss of identity is really an unfortunate experience, but if you become null to it the right way then it doesn't necessarily have to hurt.]

[Video.]

[hystericull]

[This motherfucker.]

[Where the fuck does he get off, sticking his fucking nook up in everything? How dare he tell him that... how dare he... tell him...]

[Oh, God. Oh, God, oh, God. No, not now. Why did he have to start the video feed up? His hands were shaking and he wasn't quite sure if it was from nerves or from anger or from anxiety or what the fuck was happening. All he really knew for sure was that his gut was twisting up uncomfortably and he had the sudden urge to either curl up on the floor, or stick his fist straight through the terminal screen. Equius would now have a nice view of Gamzee trying to suck the remaining gobs of sopor from his fingers. Once those were all gone, he tried swiping up the drops that had fallen or gotten smeared on the keys.]

Isolation.

[Shut up stop eat the slime.]

The motherfuck you know about isolation, motherfucker.

anonymous text and it'll never not be anonymous

[morituramfides]

sorry

Re: anonymous text and it'll never not be anonymous

[hystericull]

not sure i be deserving any of those, anonymotherfucker.

casually assumes they at least exchanged names

[reddeadvirtuoso]

iirc youre gamzee
unless you totally lied to me
in which case
rude as fuck!
and im jade
cool cat time lord extraordinaire
i bring you tidings from the future

casually assumes so as well

[hystericull]

A BrOtHeR AiN'T GoT No rEaSoNs tO Be fAlSiFyInG HiS MoThErFuCkIn hAnDlE LiKe tHaT
So, Uh
YoU CoUlD Be aLl sAyIn tHaT ThAt's bEiN WhAt mY NaMe aLl iS, dEfInItElY

think i'm rememberin on you what's the right way, though.
WAS HIGH AS A MOTHERFUCKING SKY-GLIDING DEVICE WHEN ALL WE FIRST WERE TO BE GETTING OUR ACQUAINTANCE ON, THOUGH.
you're the pie bitch, right.

[Text]

[worldrestored]

Are you giving up?

[hystericull]

don't even know how to give the shit up in this motherfucking place.
WOULD BE THE FUCKIN NINJA'S TITTIES IF ALL YOU COULD BE BEING AT ASSISTING A BROTHER WITH WHAT'S SUCH A MOTHERFUCKING CONUNDRUM LIKE WHAT'S THAT ALL IS, THOUGH.

[mamadonna]

Gamzee, There Is A Very Uncomfortable Inconsistency In Your Method Of Typing.

[hystericull]

SoMeTiMeS A MoThErFuCkEr jUsT Be fEeLiNg aLl sOrT Of fUcKiN FeElInGs tElLiNg iN HiM To lEt tHeM TeXtUaLoSiTiEs rIgHt oUtTa hIs fInGeRs aLl iN WhAtEvEr wAy tHeM DuDeS Be wAnTiNg tO CoMe tHe mOtHeRfUcK OuT

CaN'T Be dEnYiNg tHeM FeElInGs

CAN YOU?

[marchwarden]

Ed' i'ear ar' elenea...

[ This is the Elven equivalent to "I don't even" right now. ]

Are you even sane?

[Video.]

[hystericull]

[Who the hell is this guy!? Gamzee just wants to... stare at his hair... for an uncomfortable stretch of time. The fuck language is he even speaking? It sounds so funny, he just wants to]

[start]

[laughing.]

Hahahahahahaha ha hahah haha hahahaha!!!

How can you be all up and asking in me such motherfuckin' inquiries when you ain't even speakin' right your own fuckin' self!?

[caliginous]

SO YOU'RE INSANE.
MY BLOOD IS STILL BLUE.
THE WORLD KEEPS TURNING.
HAVE YOU EVER CONSIDERED DIRECTING THIS CRAP AT THEM?
OR EVEN THE DRONES WANDERING AROUND THIS SHITHOLE?

[hystericull]

WhY WoUlD I WaNnA Be sPeWiN My vErBaGe oN SuCh uNdEsErViNg oF MoThErFuCkErS?
AlLlLlLlL ThE BiTcHeS In tHiS MoThErFuCkIn tOwEr sHoUlD Be bEiN GrAcEd wItH ThE WiCkEd tRuTh tHaT Is aLl uP AnD OvEr
motherfucking.
FLOWING FROM MY TATTERED INFOSPONGE.

honk.
HONK.
honk honk honk.

itt: sayaka does not know how to deal with others having breakdowns

[beknightedheroine]

<sub>[Oh, look, it's the requisite 'one person having a breakdown a week.' She'd nearly thought they'd be under quota this time.

She doesn't know Gamzee all that personally. But he was in there for the worst she's seen the tower be, and he was just one more person she's known from walking the floors for months on end - one more person who really doesn't deserve this.

To put the situation eloquently...

Well, motherfuck.]</sub>

do you want to be a person they can break
or do you want to be someone they can't

there's a choice right here of who you are

itt gamzee can't deal with people trying to rationalize his breakdown

[hystericull]

[Motherfuck was a very appropriate word to settle on! Forgive him if he's just a little ungrateful for the attempts to help.]

I DON'T GIVE A MOTHERFUCKING MOTHER GRUB'S LEAKY FUCKIN NOOK WHAT THESE MOTHERFUCKERS THINK ON ME.
why.
THE.
fuck.
IS EVERY FUCKING BITCH IN THIS MOTHERFUCKING OVERCOMPENSATION OF A SHITHOLE SO FUCKIN CONCERNED AT WHAT'S THEIR IMAGE TO THESE WICKED SCIENCEFUCKS?

video

[myblueskies]

[Guess who isn't ever talking about what happened in June. Yep Gamzee's most optimistic little friend follower. But he is worried about Gamzee because Gamzee has been acting sad and strange lately.

Really Romeo just wants his goofy friend who talks about miracles back but even he knows when to give up hoping for something.]

Gamzee are you alright, you don't sound like your spirits are very high.

[Video.]

[hystericull]

[Guess who is still talking about what happened in June.]

[Even though he really shouldn't be, because he got the shit beat out of him but ok. Way to preserve the masculinity, Gamzee.]

[Seeing Romeo over the network feed makes him the kind of upset which is hard to place as either sadness or anger, but that confusion soon leads him to frustration, so it doesn't matter anyway.]

DO I LOOK ALL MOTHER FUCKING RIGHT TO YOU, BROTHER!?

No, really. Do I? You gotta fuckin' tell me, motherfucker.

THIS MOTHERFUCKER REALLY BE WANTING YOU TO TAKE A GOOD LOOK IN HIS MOTHERFUCKING FACE 'CAUSE HE KNOW A BRO LIKE YOU AIN'T GONNA GET HIS MOTHERFUCKING FABRICATION ON AT HIM.

in which palebro is v.worried

[papshooshing]

GAMZEE?

in which other palebro is slightly deranged

[hystericull]

hEeEeY, bRoThEr
AiN'T No mOtHeRfUcKiNg cAuSe fOr nO AlArMs
i be just fuckin fine over here.


:o)

[temptestament]

*Okay, wow, that's...yeah, let's switch to video. That typing style is just plain weird.*

I'm pretty sure you're the only one who can answer that.

[Video.]

[hystericull]

[He grins. All needles of yellow and green-stained teeth.]

WRONG, MOTHERFUCKER.
seems like i'm to be not having the fuckin magically elusive answers that are to all be up and motherfuckin goin along at that question.
SO THAT LEAVES US FRESH OUT OF MOTHER FUCKING PEOPLE.

[fallen_stage]

If you don't answer that question, then someone else will.

[hystericull]

LIKE YOU, MOTHERFUCKER!?

[knightime]

you are completely off your rocker
stating the obvious i know
but
uhh
...
ok no i really suck at this whole try and console and help someone out
so how about doing something that isnt tower related?
like rapping
you laid down a pretty mean rhyme my way before

[Helping is hard and he doesn't know how to do it. He's just seeing if maybe his own coping mechanism might help. Even if it's more just ignoring the problem more than anything else.]

sounds fun right?
pretty much the epitome of cool compared to the bullshit from that month

[He also feels a little bad because he did kind of piss Gamzee off during the Infighting Month.]

[hystericull]

hahaha, look at your ass, motherfucker.
ALL UP AND HAVING A CHANGE OF MOTHER FUCKING PUMP BISCUIT NOW THAT A BROTHER'S GONE AND DOVE RIGHT IN THAT NON-SHALLOW END.
not that i give two flyin shits on your sudden fuckin douchebag 180.
BUT I AM ALL TO BE GETTIN MY WICKED INSPIRATION ON AT THEM WORDS OF YOURS, BRO.
what's say you and i get all down in the motherfucking gruesomest of nastynoise.
AND THROW DOWN SOME MOTHER FUCKING SLAMS. Bo)

[Text]

[iron_infidel]

Well I might be able to shed some truth to your...enraged question. For one you are a highblood and if it stands true, from what I can see, you are upset.

Or perhaps that is answering more of the 'who' you are question.
You are a troll, that would be the 'what' in this situation.
If I can be allowed to give my opinion and you are willing to listen to it.

[hystericull]

[He is so fucking frustrated at this point he gives a hearty slam to the keys before beginning his response.]

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wait.
IS THIS FUCKIN REAL, THE TEXT I'M TO BE GETTIN MY SIGHTS ON UP AT.
this bright ass motherfuckin candy font what's currently all assaulting my fuckin lookstubs?
WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU, MOTHERFUCKER?
and why the fuck are you typing in that mother fucking color.