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005 ♑ [fifth honk]

A BrOtHeR AiN'T TrYiN To gEt hIs hArSh aLl oN OvEr nOtHiNg sMaLl oR NoThIn
ExCePt tHiS MoThErFuCkIn nOiSe iS Up aNd gOiN FrOm sMaLl sPuDs tO FuCkInG SHIT.
IN LESS MOTHERFUCKING TIME THAN IT TAKES THE FUCKIN OPTIMISTIFFS IN THIS JOINT.
to all let fly from their.
MOTHERFUCKING TRAPS.
about how all it's gonna be gettin.
SO MUCH MOTHERFUCKING.
bEtTeR
BuT It dOn't gEt bEtTeR, mY BrOtHeRs aNd bItChEs
It aIn't nEvEr gOnNa gEt nO BeTtEr
No mAtTeR HoW MuCh sPaRkLy fLuFfY NoIsE AnY OnE MoThErFuCkEr's gOnNa wAnNa pUkE AlL OvEr tHe
MOTHERFUCKING.
truth.

ThEy tAkE A BrOtHeR AnD CuT HiM ThE FuCk oPeN
ShOvE ShIt iN HiM WhAt's nOt nEvEr sUpPoSeD To aLl bEiNg iNsIdE
CrEeP AnD CrAwL AlL Up iN HiS FrIeD OuT PaN LiKe iT AiN'T BeEn bLoWn tO BiTs aLrEaDy
MaKe hIm gEt aLl uP In tHe hArShEsT BuSiNeSs wItH HiS ReSpItEbLoCkBrOs
SpEnD HiS SlEePtImE In tHe hAlLs wHeRe hE CaN'T GeT No mOtHeRfUcKiNg sHuTeYe
RiP ThEm gOoD BrOs hE Be aLl sPlItTiN ThIs mOtHeRfUcKiN ShItHoLe wItH FrOm hIm
MaKe tHeM GoNe fOrEvEr
without saying MOTHERFUCKING GOOD bye.
GiVe iN HiM SoMe WICKED MOTHERFUCKING URGES.
that he all ain't never been to feeling before.
MAKE HIM QUESTION his.
mother.
FUCKING SELF.

WhO ArE YoU, mOtHeRfUcKeR?

HaHa
HAHA.
haha.
HONK.
honk.
HONK.
honk.

WHO THE MOTHER FUCK AM I?

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

GAMZEE?

hEeEeY, bRoThEr
AiN'T No mOtHeRfUcKiNg cAuSe fOr nO AlArMs
i be just fuckin fine over here.

:o)

YOU HAVEN'T BEEN 100% FINE SINCE I LAID EYE ON YOUR SORRY SPINAL CREVICE.

i been tryin to lay my motherfuckin stubs on yours, best friend.
bEeN Up aNd sEaRcHiN YoU ThE FuCk oUt, MoThErFuCkEr
bUt i aIn't hAd nOt mUcH FuCkIn lUcK As oF LaTe :o(
THOUGHT MAYBE YOU UP AND WENT METEORSIDE ON MY MOTHERFUCKING ASS, BRO.

I'VE KIND OF HOLED MYSELF UP.
SORRY, MAN. ):B
I DID GET CAUGHT UP IN THAT SURVIVAL EXPERIMENT, BUT AFTER THAT I JUST WENT PANDEAD I THINK.

did you fuckin survive.

OBVIOUSLY.

DO YOU WANT ME TO COME OVER OR SHOULD I JUST CRAWL INTO A CORNER.

IT WAS A MOTHERFUCKING JOKE, MOTHERFUCKER.
come on now, brother, i know you got some scraps of humor to all be motherfuckin getting your spare on of for a good macabro.
DON'T SEE HOW GETTING YOUR HOLE UP IN SOME MOTHERFUCKIN CORNER BE ANY DIFFERENT FROM WHAT ALL WAS TO BE GOIN DOWN BEFORE THIS LITTLE CHAT OF OURS.
so you do what you all gotta, my main motherfucker.
HONK HONK HONK. >;o)

WOW.
YOU KNOW YOU COULD STAND TO LOSE SOME OF THAT DOUCHE LIKE BEHAVIOR YOU'VE GOT GOING ON.
HERE I AM, OFFERING TO MAKE SHIT UP FOR BEING A SNIVELING LITTLE WIGGLER
AND HERE YOU GO
SHITTING ON THAT.
THANKS EVER SO MUCH FOR THE REALITY CHECK, MAKARA.

ain't that what i be motherfuckin here for, best friend?
TO KEEP YOU IN MOTHER FUCKING CHECK?
you can all get your gratitudes flowin my way on it later.
MEANWHILE I AM BEING AT THE MOST FULLY PREPARED TO GET WHAT IS MOST FUCKIN POSSIBLY GONNA UP AND BE.
the most god damn convoluted chastisizational tirade of my mother fucking pale life.
DIRECTED FROM THEM FUCKIN YELLOW NUGPEBBLES OF YOURS.
all up in my eagerly awaiting hear ducts, motherfucker.
ARE YOU READY TO ALL TELL IN ME JUST HOW MUCH MOTHER FUCKING SHITHIVE I HAVE MOTHERFUCKIN GONE, BROTHER?

JUST BECAUSE YOU'VE ROTTED A FEW PAN CELLS DOESN'T MEAN YOU'RE COMPLETELY SHITHIVE.
YOU ACTUALLY HAVE LOGIC AND REASONING SKILLS WHEN YOU'RE NOT ON THE SLIME, DUMBSHIT.
I'M MORE UPSET THAT YOU'RE BEHAVING LIKE A RAVING DOUCHEBAG TO ME
THE ONE GUY WHO ISN'T JUDGING YOU AND GENUINELY CARES ABOUT YOUR WELL BEING.
QUESTIONING WHO YOU ARE AND WHAT YOU STAND FOR ISN'T GOING OFF THE DEEP END.
IT'S JUST FINDING YOURSELF ALL OVER.
NOW IF YOU'RE JUST GOING TO CONTINUE ON BEING A WHINING BITCH THAT JUST WANTS TO LASH OUT, I'M DONE HERE.

[Fuck.]

[Fuck he was way too stubborn to stop even though most of his pan was now screaming at him to take it back.]

i am done motherfucking looking.
I AM DONE WITH MOTHER FUCKING LOOKING FOR MY FUCKING SELF.
it has been too motherfuckin long.
I AIN'T NEVER GONNA FIND ME, BROTHER.
and i'm to be fuckin guessing that this is what be all what's mother fucking left.
SO I GUESS THAT MEANS YOU ARE MOTHER.
fucking.
DONE.
here.
BRO.

OH MY GOD.
YOU'RE THE MOST INCREDIBLY CREEPY AND YET VITAL THING TO OUR EXISTENCE.
WE'RE SIX SWEEPS, GAMZEE.
HOW THE FUCK REALLY KNOWS THEMSELVES AT SIX?
I KNOW I SURE AS HELL DON'T!!!

do you got things talkin at you from what's up in your pan, brother?

look i'm all typin in the small letter bros cause i just.
don't got no idea, brother.
i don't got no motherfucking clue.

what to do.

:o(

I'll do you one better right now.
Look at me, getting all fucking serious and shit.
No, Gamzee. You know I don't have any extra voices swirling around in my thinkpan juices.
All it is up in here is me yelling at myself and no one else.
I don't know what to do or how to fix that for you, but I would if I could!
Seeing you unhinged or hung up about this just destroys me on the inside too
Like a motherfucking rug being pulled out from under my feet.
Man, you're all I really got to keep me from going mental and busting a blood pusher over here
I was kind of hoping it was the same for you, a little.
What I do know is you've got to stop being a douchebag to people.
You're just kind of making more enemies and that won't really help either.
It won't help you figure out what to do next
Won't help me either.
But if we work on trying to find that out together, then maybe we'll come up with an answer.
That's all I can think of to do.

there be a lot of thoughts rushing towards at these fingers to all try and getting their ways out on here first.
so i gotta all be trying to sort them bitches out as what's best that i can.

it ain't really all what them motherfuckers be doin to me that got me all wigged the fuck out, probably.
it just feel all like.
they didn't make me fuckin mad by puttin nothin in me to make me that way.
but i be mad cause of what they all were to do.
shit that don't even make no MOTHERFUCKING SENSE WHEN EVEN I ALL BE READING IT.

feels like there be too many different thinkpans jammed up in my motherfucking skull all at once.
PLUS GOT LOTS MORE NOISE ALL HARASSING AT MY FUCKIN SPONGE CLOTS THAN WHAT'S JUST MY OWN MOTHERFUCKIN VOICE.
tellin in me all sorts of bad shit, brother.
SHIT I AIN'T ALL DOWN WITH WANTING TO BE MOTHERFUCKING IGNORING, EITHER.
makes a brother want to get down right flat out mother fucking HARSHNASTY. >:o)

but then there's you what's i wasn't knowing where all you was scamperin off to.
THOUGHT MAYBE YOU AIN'T WANTING TO UP AND GET SADDLED WITH NO MORE OF MY HOOFBEASTSHIT.
and it was ok, bro.
It wAs oK BeCaUsE I AiN'T Be wAnTiNg tO HaVe tO Be sAdDlEd wItH It nEiThEr iF It wAsN'T Me
AnD We aIn't nEvEr rEaLlY GoT To bE KiCkIn tHe vErBaGe aT WhAt tHiS PaRtIcUlAr mOtHeRfUcKiN NoIsE Be bEiNg
BuT I AiN'T NeVeR KnOwN WhY YoU WaS MaKiN A BiG MoThErFuCkInG SqUaWk bOuT Us bRoThErS BeIn pAlE WhEn aLl yOu wAs fIrSt gEtTiN YoUr sEe oN Of mE HeRe
FuCk iF I AiN'T BeEn sHiTtIn mOtHeRfUcKiN DiAmOnDs aT YoU FoR WhAt's bEeN FoReVeR EvEn iF I AiN'T BeEn rEaLiZiNg aT It
BuT ThErE AiN'T NeVeR SeEmEd nO MoThErFuCkIn pOiNt iN It aLl
til now i guess. :o(

but bro when i say this noise at you.
i need you to be up and doing what's fuckin ever you all need to be.
whether it be ditchin the split-pan crazyclown.
OR MOTHERFUCKIN STICKING THAT SHIT OUT TIL IT ALL UP AND GETS TO ITS GRISLY MOTHER FUCKING RESOLVE.
it don't feel like i can stop bein what i'm bein.
THEM FEELINGS JUST GET ALL UP INSIDE A BROTHER'S NUG AND SHAKE.
and shake.
AND SHAKE.
and don't let go til he open a choice slice of nasty on their asses.
SO I GUESS WHAT I ALL BE TO SAYING IS.
ain't much what i gotta be finding myself as all.
I GOT TOO MANY OF MYSELF TO MOTHERFUCKIN CHOOSE FROM.
honk.
you ok with takin all of the mes, best friend?

Gamzee, I've known all this for a while.
You have no idea how much I worried over you while we were in the Veil
But like the dumbass that I am, I kind of ignored my gut instincts to try to be this great leader everyone would respect.
Look at how far that got us.
What I'm saying I never *actually* wanted to ditch your crazy clown ass, but I was too much of a fucking grub to stand up and do what I *know* I needed to do
Which, by the way, means looking after you and letting you look after me.
You're just Gamzee to me, on the slime or otherwise.
Off it you're a little scary, but I think that was because the sudden change just shook me to the core because when I sit and really THINK about it?
No, you're still Gamzee Makara and that's really about all of the fucks I give on the matter.
I want all of the yous because the yous are what make you, you.
Fuck if that makes sense or whatever...

makes enough much fuckin sense to me.
and you ain't gotta get no apologies on for shit what never motherfucking was to be goin down all on my end.
ain't no point for that noise, brother.
you bein from the future may mean you all got more knowledge on my fuckin self than even i all do.
cause i sure as a grubfuck ain't got no motherfucking heads or tails on it.
AIN'T FEELIN MOTHERFUCKIN RIGHT STEALING UP SO MUCH OF YOUR.
fuckin energy.
GOT USED TO YOU BEIN THE RUNAROUND BUZZYLEADER ALL THE FUCKING TIME.
be weird to like, monopolizing you like what's this is.
but bro i got one more thing to be shooting at your way.

BeFoRe tHe aNgRy dUdEs kIcK Up aGaIn
I AiN'T BeEn nO GoOd tO YoU As oF FuCkIn lAtE, bRoThEr
AiN'T BeEn tHe bEsT BrO LiKe wHaT'S I AlWaYs wAs tRyInG To bE
LoOkS LiKe tHeM AnGrIeS DiDn't wAnT To lEaVe yOu oUt :o(

BuT WhAt's i'm rEaLlY MeAnInG, i gUeSs mAyBe
On bEhAlF Of mE AnD AnGrY Me aNd wEiRd mE AnD KiLlY Me
Is sOrRy
HoNk

IT'S OKAY.
I SHOULDN'T HAVE JUST DISAPPEARED ON YOU.
SO I'M SORRY FOR THAT.

ain't no thing, brother.
kinda my fault for getting to lose my cool without you.
ain't ever been flippin the wicked shit while i was all by my lonesome never before.
ANYWAY THOUGH WE AIN'T GONNA BE TALKING ON THAT SHIT NO MORE.
feel like a brother should all be motherfucking redeeming himself or somethin.
I AIN'T GONNA BE A WIGGLER NO MORE.
what's all scratchin at your pan that made you up and hide your sweet self away, palebro?

SERIOUSLY, DON'T WORRY ABOUT IT.
I LOSE MY SHIT ALL THE TIME, REMEMBER?
THAT GIVES YOU A FEW FREE PASSES ON THE LOSING MY SHIT TIERS.
ANYWAY
I WAS CONTEMPLATING THE MEANING OF LIFE.

NO, REALLY.

that seems all like a fuckin stupid thing to be ponderin at.
THE FUCK GOT YOUR THOUGHTSPONGE MOTHERFUCKIN TIED DOWN TO THEM EXISTENTIAL RUSTY THINKTRACKS?

BEING HERE.
US.
A LITTLE BIT OF EVERYTHING, REALLY.

...
do you wanna.
UHHHH.
motherfucking talk about it.
OR SOMETHING.

[HE IS TRYING, OKAY.]

IF YOU WANT, BUT WE DON'T HAVE TO.
THERE'S NO REAL ANSWER TO THE SHIT I WANT TO ASK THE VASTNESS OF THE UNIVERSE.

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